| Height: | |
| Start weight: | 188.00lb |
| Current weight: | 180.60lb |
| Goal weight: | 165.00lb |
| Lost to date: | 7.40lb |
| Remaining: | 15.60lb |
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Weigh in Friday, and it's Wednesday. I'm up four pounds, due to TOM coming today. I really hope this extra weight will come off easily next week. Is a four pound gain during the TOM normal? Not sure...
I have overeaten every day this week. I can't seem to help myself. I have been very hungry, assuming this is also due to the TOM situation....
So I am not weighing in this week until Friday, for a few reasons. First of all I want to start weighing in regularly on Fridays, so I can eat out with my boyfriend on the weekends on Friday or Saturday. The other reason is because I am in the middle of exam week and feeling like I am not going to have a loss this week.
I've been very hungry this week.
But, being a psychologist by nature I know better than many how to set goals and use behavioral methods to try to reach those goals. I've set some mini-goals for myself, and I'm not sure they are attainable but they are what they are...
Goal #1
Get down to 165 by July 4, 2007
Goal #2
Get down to 155 by August 8, 2007 (my birthday)
Goal #3
Get down to 140 by September 17, 2007 (first day of autumn quarter)
Goal #4
Be at goal for Thanksgiving (goal at 130 or below)
Breaking it up into these mini goals seems more attainable to me than just looking at it like one big 50 lb. mass of weight.
Wish me luck.
Lost 2.4, even with the most unbelievable stress. I wanted to eat so badly on some days, just to relieve pressure. It's funny, because losing 6 pounds or so has become slightly noticeable in my pants. However, I feel like I should cover up. I wonder if anyone else has felt that way, like sort of afraid to lose weight because you feel exposed. I know it's tied up with all of my emotional issues.
Do I quit grad school? Do I get a job and start paying off debt? Do I work my ass of and try to get into law school? Where should I move at the end of my lease? Am I in the right place at the right time? What will it take to find contentment?
It's amazing how these things build inside me until I am blowing up at my boyfriend, who didn't deserve it, or eating a binge, or being otherwise self-destructive.
Will these issues work themselves out with weight loss, as I gain confidence? Or, do I have to work these issues out before I can really experience a weight loss...
I weighed in today and lost 4.2 lbs. I have mixed feelings about that, because I know it was water weight and I know I will become discouraged and give up once the weight loss slows. I have NO persistence or dedication.
I did walk today, 4 miles down to campus and back (2 each way). I am going to miss the trail when I move, unless I can get a place near the trail...
My goals, simply put:
1. Take care of myself for my health.
2. Gain strength and fitness.
3. Lose weight to look better.
4. Lose weight to feel better.
5. Prove to myself that I can.
