It' is Thursday - we think about TatumsMum today as she faces her surgery. 

The weekend is nearly here.  It's stormy here in  Malta, occasionally the sun peaks out.  I had a great day eating wise yesterday - I did take one of the chocolates but it was integrated within my daily food allowance and I am positive on Monday I'll reach my 75.5kg target.  I have gone through my weigh-ins this year in here and I find that the lowest I've managed to go is 72kg this year. I have been trying to break the 70kg barrier for such a long long long time.  I'm hoping to be 74kg by the time I go to Holland in 2 weeks time and 73kg by the time I go to London the following week. Well, I wanted to be less cause I wanted to do some serious trousers shopping while I'm there but realistically, 73kg is what I can aim for and even that might be too much - maybe 73.5kg.  Luxembourg job should happen on the 16th January - I would love to have broken teh 70kg barrier by then but anything 72kg and lower will be great. 

Today I have an appointment to get my false nails out - some of them I already put out myself but in doing so I weakened my own nails as the outer think layer of my nail came off with the false one.  My own nails are looking decent except for one that I had closed in the garage door so I'll give them some air.  I also have a cookery and nutrition lesson today - so far it's been more about nutrition than cookery and while that is fine, really it is not things I didn't know. I would rather there was more cooking -last week she did some fruit buns which I tried in the weekend and they were delicious - not too bad on the diet side too if one does not eat them at one go.

Well that's my plan for today.  Hope you all have a good day.

Wednesday report- very well again yesterday re: food in the evening I was dying for a chocolate and I said no notwithstanding the fact that I had two bars by my bed. What are they doing there?  They were given to me for free when i bought chocolate for relatives in Brussels and they have been hanging there.  I will eat them of course but I will input them in my diet and allow for them, not an evening binge. STill with the 'this will pay off' mantra. I actually repeat it to myself when I just feel like eating and eating.

Well, here we are - yesterday evening I was watching TV until late. After 8pm, usually, I would have gotten up 6 times at least to munch and snack at well. Yesterday I didn't, though not without great effort!!!!  At 11pm I was actually going to switch off and sleep cause I couldn't take the 'hunger' any more. But Lipstick Jungle was on and I managed to go through that without snacks as well.  All the time I was thinking - this will pay off, this will pay off. This morning I sneaked in an unofficial weigh-in (I weigh in every day but report on ly Monday) and I got 75.9. Granted I was stark naked but I havn't seen the 75 thing for quite a while!!! I'm aiming at 75.5 for Monday.  

Unfortunately I missed the cooking lesson.   Not my fault but I guess I won't be cooking fish any time soon :( Was sorry about it actually.  But what can you do? Have a good day.

Well, the weekend is over - lousy weather here with rain and a bit stormy which I don't mind to be honest - might as well - once in Luxembourg in January this is the weather I will mostly wake up to.

Food wise- well not that great but not bad - Friday we went out for Dad's birthday - took King prawns which although might not be a great choice, is better than a big slab of meat health wise, no starter but did have banoffie pie for dessert and quite a lot of wine.  On Saturday I was very good until the evening although I did take a very small piece of pizza. Then my friends went to a wine bar and I joined in- although I ate bread and cheese, I only had a glass of wine and said no to chocolate fondue.  Sunday was a good day and I felt pretty good with myself. Usually I would take an almond covered ice-cream lollipop and buttered bread and a host of other bad stuff to pass the day but I said no to all that. I made some apricot fruit buns myself and ate two but I halved the sugar and used wholemeal flour as well as the usual one so it was healthy stuff.  I am pleased with myself overall.  I went down .7kg which I think would translate to 1.5lbs and I would love to keep up such a steady pace. I'm 76.3kg now and would like to be 74kg in 3 weeks time when I go to Holland.  Today I have quite a busy day at work and then I need to take my nephew to an exam and then I have to go to my cooking lesson, I hope I manage to make because today is fish.  I have a lot of driving to do which makes my knees feel very painful and regress but I can't help it really on a day like today.

So yesterday I get invited to a small party to celebrate a man's 74th birthday.  He keeps at me to eat and how can I say no to a 74 year old man on his birthday?  So I eat pizza and Maltese cheesecakes - not a good day. This morning I had to go to a swim but I woke up late and ended up going nowhere. This evening we are going out to celebrate my dad's birthday - eat, eat, eat. On the plus side, although the scales are not being too kind, I feel leaner so this evening I will try and be good with my choices. It is a restaurant thing so I have more say on what to choose rather than have a plate full of things put in front of me and eating them not to offend. I have to admit they were good too.  Maybe I'll try to fit in the swim later on but it's going to be difficult.

It's Thursday - quite a week - being very careful with what I eat although I always am frustrated at the lack of progress even though I am aware it is only a few days.  I don't think I'm being great with the whole process but definitly doing well and I have cut back a lot of bad stuff I was eating before I restarted taking account of what I was putting in my system.