That is my Sunday. So I had my Overnight stay. Even though I had no spa treatments, it was still very relaxing with just reading by the pool and having this great hot bath in the really nice room I was given. The room was really nice and the bed was heavenly. As soon as I saw it I couldn't help imagining sharing it with my last (and present) love who lives abroad and is to all intents unavailable.  But i had to be content with my friend. I love her of course but even she would understand my yearning and thoughts at seeing that bed.  Then we went out, caught a late Quantum of Solace movie. Not very impressed - I guess I watch the Bond movies because well, it's Bond.  Had breakfast - I always do the english thing with bacon and baked beans and mushrooms - strangely enough I did not find it that satisfying - also had dried fruit and nuts - you're probably gagging at the combination but there was some 15 mins between the widely diverse plates.  Then went to the pool again and checked out. Came home.  I skipped lunch because of the english breakfast but around two I had thickly buttered bread (which I haven't had since 2 weeks) with thick mortadella and thelast bar of Belgian chocolate. At least I took the Belgian chocolate before and could savour it - the bread I didn't even taste properly - just ate it.  And after the bread I had walnuts and dried tomatoes.  Are you disgusted enough yet?

And why? Cause I'm pissed off about a committee I sit on and on which I probably will not be sitting for much longer.  I was upset after a meeting we had on Friday - not the crying upset - but a couple of things I found upsetting. So I sent an email saying that if something specific mentioned happened at the international meeting we are having in Holland, I would (and I will) stand up and leave.  Basically another country is subtly accusing us of overcharging on a bill and the international committee is considering forgiving a small amount even though they have paid us. I'm not too bothered about the money but if they do forgive some of the money, that would be equal to telling us we have overcharged them and that is not true. I will not be branded a thief, both on a personal and on a committee basis. Anyway, it was that thing and another one. It actually troubled my sleep and on Saturday I penned an email which I sent to all the local committee telling them what I thought and that I would not stand for being accused of overcharging. If I'm in Holland and the implication is that, I will just up and leave, and I still mean that. Anyway, today I find no feedback from anyone which I expected cause everyone is super afraid they will lose their seat (I don't care, I'll probably resign as I don't need this) and the only person I thought would back me up told me that at her age she is willing to give in on some of her principles because she needs to feel she belongs and she needs to belong. And I was shocked cause she is an over 60 person with a comment I would expect from a teenager who has just been caught smoking and blaming peer pressure.  It is hard when you lose respect for people.  I understand their positions but I still find myself losing some of the respect I have for them.  So I binge - on a day where I feel fat and I am fat apparently as I sneaked in a weight on my scales.  I will not weigh officially tomorrow since I'm sleeping at my flat this evenig and I don't have the scales so it's on Tuesday. But I'm not confident of the 75.5kg I was hoping for. And my mini-binge did not  help. At least I stopped myself before it became a full-blown binge.

Sorry for the long post.  And if you read it all (probably TatumsMon and GCQMom - thank you for your loyalty) thank you for making teh time and the effort.