OK - I'M Back
well it has been one hell of an August. I went away on the most wonderful vacation with my wonderful husband. We cruised to Bermuda, Puerto Rico, St. Thomas and Grand Turk Island. Outstanding - and I really have to say I enjoyed myself. I never really felt disgusting or too fat for what I was doing - we had a blast. I swam I layed out - I said screw it - we paid too much money for me to sit around and say I can't do this or I am too embarrassed to do that. Who cares! And even though I did not reach my original goal of 30lbs by my vacation I still got a beautiful tennis bracelet for my anniversary.
BUT I pretty much have been eating whatever my heart desires for the last month. I am figuring I am about 4-5 lbs more than I was at my last weigh in. I have not been on Jenny Craig sign the week of my vacation.
After my vacation I came home - and was home for 4 days until we left for a family wedding in Vermont. I have family over from Scotland and we were all together in Vermont for a few days - then they came home with my parents and we have been having a blast for the last week and a 1/2. They finally left yesterday and now it is back to normal time. Time to get myself back on the wagon and time to start my program again.
It's tough to start up again though. I bit the bullet and walked back into my Jenny Craig office last night and just bought food. So I am back on program today - BUT I did not weigh in. I have an appointment on Sunday so we will see where I stand then. Its tough I am lacking motivation - and I really wish I had the ability to just eat correctly - but I do not. So here I am - back on day 1- trying to find that inner part of me that really wants to be thin and wants to be healthy. UGH!!!! this is frustrating!