Still hanging on

A little at a time

OK - I'M Back

well it has been one hell of an August. I went away on the most wonderful vacation with my wonderful husband. We cruised to Bermuda, Puerto Rico, St. Thomas and Grand Turk Island. Outstanding - and I really have to say I enjoyed myself. I never really felt disgusting or too fat for what I was doing - we had a blast. I swam I layed out - I said screw it - we paid too much money for me to sit around and say I can't do this or I am too embarrassed to do that. Who cares! And even though I did not reach my original goal of 30lbs by my vacation I still got a beautiful tennis bracelet for my anniversary.

BUT I pretty much have been eating whatever my heart desires for the last month. I am figuring I am about 4-5 lbs more than I was at my last weigh in. I have not been on Jenny Craig sign the week of my vacation.

After my vacation I came home - and was home for 4 days until we left for a family wedding in Vermont. I have family over from Scotland and we were all together in Vermont for a few days - then they came home with my parents and we have been having a blast for the last week and a 1/2. They finally left yesterday and now it is back to normal time. Time to get myself back on the wagon and time to start my program again.

It's tough to start up again though. I bit the bullet and walked back into my Jenny Craig office last night and just bought food. So I am back on program today - BUT I did not weigh in. I have an appointment on Sunday so we will see where I stand then. Its tough I am lacking motivation - and I really wish I had the ability to just eat correctly - but I do not. So here I am - back on day 1- trying to find that inner part of me that really wants to be thin and wants to be healthy. UGH!!!! this is frustrating!

20 LBS!!!!

Well I reached 20lbs. After a struggle for the last few weeks of only loosing a few ounces at a time - I reached my first milestone.

Pretty excited for myself. I do not feel like it has been super hard. I am trying not to think about it too much - Kind of just keep going like it is not big deal. I notice the bigger deal I make thing - the more likley I am to get overwhlemed and screw up.

So I am happy - and I am going to leave it there.....YEAH

Summer is Killing me

What is it about summer that makes me so hungry - I cannot stop picking. I had another 0.6 loss this week. Hey it could be worse - I could have gained. BUT I didn't and actually after the week I had - I was shocked. I should have gained but I didn't.

I have not been following good and I need to reach deep and find my motivation again. I am totally floating along and so far I have been lucky because I have kept loosing even very very little at a time. But I am not doing what I should at all. So this is me trying to find my inner drive - but lord it is hard. I need to work out more, I need to take this very seriously. 12 more lbs and I reach my summer time goal before my vacation. I really want to reach it.

SO here I am starting at square one - praying I stick with this.

Baby Steps

But I'm am still loosing - so I will take it. Weighing in 0.9lbs less is frustrating but hey a loss is a loss - so I will just try to do better this week.

BUT as I am figuring out - every 4th week right before TOM shows up I only lose like .8 or .9 so maybe this is my trend.

Bon Jovi Unplugged on tonight - CMT at 9:00PM.  I have a slight obsession........ LUV THEM........

Hope you all have a great week.

INFO FOR YOU

www.hungry-girl.com

Just wanted to tell you about a web-site I was looking at - IT IS INSANE the amount of calories and fat there are in some of the desserts at a few of our favorite restaurants. Maybe that is why I am the way I am - or at least one of the factors.

For example CHILI'S RESTAURANT The Choc Chip Paradise Dessert. (1,600 Calories - 78 grams of Fat) Can you believe that?

I mean that one dessert is most of my calories for the whole entire day!!! And I have to admit - I did have this particular one once. Even if you split it 800 calories. WOW. When you stop to look at it - I swear something like this should be banned from a menu. Noone needs to eat that.  And I love my sweets don't get me wrong.

One thing I wanted to make sure you all are aware of - HERSHEY just came out with 100 Calorie Chocolates. They are phenominal. I mean you should not eat the box of them - but when you are dying for a sweet - they are perfect. And I have to say kind of substantial. SO ENJOY.

Have a great day everyone.

Another Weigh IN

I am down another 1.9 lbs this week.

I am so excited - I cannot believe I have lost close to 17 lbs. It is unbelievable to me sometimes. I am trying not to think of the overall picture because I would get insanly depressed - but I am very happy with myself this time. I really am taking is seriously - not over thinking it - just doing what I have to do. PLEASE LET ME STAY IN THIS MIND SET!!!

So I am 1.9 lbs closer to y 30lbs by August 10th and my cruise goal. AND MY REWARD! Now do I want a ring - bracelet - necklace......hmmmmmm What a hard choice...ha ha

Mini Victory

Today when I was getting ready for work - I remembered I had these pants that I bought last year that were always too tight for me. Well I put them on and not only do they fit - but I am happy to say that they are a tad loose.

I am so excited - I was like WOW this is great. Mind you these pants actually were a very depressing wake up call for me - I went into Lane Bryant and just bought them without trying them on. They are the work pants that I always wore and I needed a new pair. So in my size at the time just went and bought them. I was getting heavier - and I knew that the new pair would be a little snug but I refused to get the bigger size. WELL they didn't fit at all. Depressing. So I hung them in my closet and did not touch them until today - a good 6 months later. So no they aren't a smaller size, but they are a good sign, a few more pounds they may actually be too big - so FINALLY my clothes are starting to loosen up!!! THANK GOD!

Today is a good day!

Motivation

Ok I am 15 lbs down and I am trying to get another 15lbs gone by August 10th. I have made a wager with my hubby that if I loose 30 lbs by the first day of our cruise he will buy me a piece of jewlery in St. Thomas. Now I am getting nervous that I will not do it - I really want some jewlery!!!!!

Starting Yoga today again - we were on a 2 week hiatis - and now we are doing this full force for the next 7 weeks. I love Yoga - I feel like a whole different person when I am done taking a class. Unfortunatly just like everything else - it costs money. God I would love to have a private instructor every day for Yoga but I cannot afford that. It stinks how much things are. Maybe if I wasn't doing JC I would be able to afford $100 a month for Yoga classes - but for now I can only swing once a week and then try and do it on my own from home - Its never the same though. I hate when I don't have enough money to do what I want. I guess I should be happy I am even able to swing JC - some people cannot.

Other than that I am just sitting here still flying from the Sopranos finale last night - me and my boss here are a few of the true believers that thought it was great!!!! Between talking about the Sopranos and trying to figure out how to get tickets to the next Bon Jovi concert without paying for them - my day has been very full...........HA HA     Talk to you all later!!

YEAH!!!! 2 More Lbs Gone

I walked into JC this morning all prepared to step on the scale and see my weight gain. I have not weighed in since May 29th and was off the program for a week.  And I already told everyone about Margarita Night - AND I actually had a small glass of a Pina Colada the other night. (Summer is hard for me with alcohol - I love fruity summer drinks!!!!)

So you can imagine how elated I was when I saw a 2 lb loss. I am so excited. 15lbs gone and I truly do not feel like I worked extremely hard to loose it. I mean I followed my program - but I do not feel like I have been missing anything.

I am a happy girl!!!!!