Day 9

Missed my goal for the past two days now.  Wasn't home yesterday so that doesn't really count.  Kyler has been teething so badly that he has spent hours up each of the past three nights except last night.  He was so tired himself by last night that we didn't hear a peep out of him all night long!  Two days ago when he woke up from a nap, there was blood on his sheet from teething so badly.  I felt so bad for him.

I feel completely set back with my goals right now because I am not motivated towards that at all   I had a huge fight with my husband the other night and stayed at a friends house with Kyler just to get a break, but I admit I wasn't coming home without some definate changes in place before I did.  Hubby has made arrangedments for us to start seeing a counselor and I hope that will really help.  The shocker for me was that I thought all these issues we have were doing a lot better.  But he just keeps letting his mom tell him how our marriage is going to work.  I told hubby that I will no longer be married to his mom.  I married him, not her and if he couldn't keep her out of our marriage and out from controlling our lives, then he could just go live with her, because I wanted nothing to do with it anymore.  We had some really good talks and I think he's finally seeing how his mom is manipulating her way into controlling our lives.  The blow up point for me was when she used our son as a pawn to play her games.  He's an innocent 1 yr old and that's just not ok.

So hopefully that will settle down quickly and I can get back to focusing on myself.  But in the mean time my energy certainly needs to go into working on helping hubby to do something about his mom now that he sees what she's been doing.

For this weekend I am setting no goals, other than to clean my house.

Stephanie