Starting Over
I received an email from extrapounds.com today and decided to try blogging this journey online again. I read over my earlier entries from a year and a half ago. I weigh exactly the same today as I did then. Considering there was a twin pregnancy in that time, I'm ok with that. I'm not ok with where I am at though. I am absolutely disgusted with my body and that needs to change. I am out of shape, both physically and mentally. I may weigh the same, but my body is very different than it was before the pregnancy. I lost fat during the pregnancy, so my arms/legs/face are a little smaller, but my belly is bigger and much saggier. I have absolutely no muscle tone left in my stomach (at least that's how I feel).
I still want to get to about 125lbs. I know a lot of charts say I should weigh 115, but I don't think that's realistic. As I get closer to 125, I'll be able to reassess things and see if I need to change my goal weight. Right now, I feel losing 100lbs is a bit daunting as it is. My biggest problem is getting up to exercise in the morning. I can't afford to go to the gym, so I have to use what I have at home. I have enough at home - an elliptical trainer, yoga/pilates/tae bo videos, small dumbbells. I wish I knew someone here that could come over in the mornings to workout with me. Someone that I was personably accountable to that relied on me. Since I have just recently moved to a town where I only know one person (who has her own kids to get up with in the am) this isn't likely to happen. I am slowly getting to know some other people, but we're of course talking more moms.
While I wait for that miracle to happen, I thought I would try extrapounds again. This way I'm at least accountable to whoever reads this blog. It's not quite as effective or motivating, but hopefully it will be enough. I have been trying for months now to get up early enough to workout and shower before kids get up. It takes me so long to fall asleep at nights, that I'm having troubles even getting up at 7am with the kids. I need to just spend a week getting up at 6am by setting my alarm and hopefully by the end of the week I'll be ready to fall asleep when I go to bed at 10pm. If that's not enough, then I probably need to see a dr about my sleep problems.
So here's to a fresh start. :-)