There was one weigh where it said 220! But, it kept going back to 220.5 Yes, I weigh more than once to get a better picture. LOL
So - if 220 is in the number have I made goal?
The other thing is that I have dropped these past two pounds by counting every single calorie the past two weeks. I think my slowed down loss has been a result of the following:
some days I was not eating enough calories
other days, because of so much weight training I was eating WAY overboard cuze I was freakin' starving.
I am sure all the exercise gods will be pissed because the past two weeks I have done no weight training and I have only ridden my bike for a few times. It's all about calories in/calories out. I am sure the fact that my metabolism is raised helps too. I don't deny that. I plan to return to the weight training two days per week in December. But, I am enjoying the break and I also think it keeps from getting burned out and an injury.
If I am really honest with myself, eating when I am bored, upset, really happy, or otherwise emotionally uncomfortable leads to weight gain.
The other night I was bored and discontent out of my mind! OK - so I came a messed around on the computer instead. I realized when I had not gained weight that I did not have to "pay" for that boredom. I extended that to all weight gain, ast least in my experience, as a way of continuing to wear and carry past boredoms and aggravations.
So, the moral of my personal study is be bored when I am bored. Be mad when I am mad and sad when I am sad.
Oh Hallelujah! I am 221 again today! This is fantastic! Tomorrow is weigh-in day! I am still not giving up hope that I could drop another pound by them, putting me at...GOAL! :-) Do ya'll think Jillian MIchael's is busy today?
Say, there is a VERY cool radio program called "Show of Faith." It is led by a Houston Rabbi, minister, and Catholic priest. They have podcasts here.
I have been watching HBO's Rome and I am so taken back by how much I learn from it. This show is not for kids, but definately for adults. As I have been playing for a temple and learning some Hebrew, I am more moved than ever at how important religons are to our world. I spent most of my life hating religons because I was victim to their ugly side. However, as I get older, I begin to see the good things about religon and worshipping with a community. The type of community is not the most important thing, but I do believe that trying to convert people at the expense of relationship is harmful. For example, the baptist church on my street had a big concert called, "Jews for Jesus." HUH? I thought that was kinda insulting. I mean, what if there were signs that said, "Skirts for Jean Wearers" or "Catholics for Pentecostals" Isn't that kinda pushy and judgemental? I dont' know. Why is there anything wrong with being Jewish? Anyhoo - that's my soapbox today. Stepping off now.
I am so glad this is Thanksgiving week and I get a break from my regular teaching routine. I have so much work to organize. It will make the last three or four weeks of my semester flow so much more smoothly.
I was 221 again today! Yipee!!!! Hang on until Tuesday's weigh-in! OK? OK!
Just think - what if by some chance I am 220 on Tuesday? Wouldn't that be the shizzle mcshizzle?
Last night, my groovy cool husband, helped me figure out, with the help of his cell phone calculator, how much of stuffed chicken I could eat. 4.5 ounces was 297 calories. Sweet!
So I am learning Hebrew - how to read it that is. It is much fun. I love learning and I can feel make brain making new cells. It should make up for the ones that split from all the splenda's I have with my coffee every day.
Back to study Hebrew and watch "The Amazing Race" tonight!
My eating ended up all over the map yesterday. It was a stressful day and I think I let it get to my food choices. I hope today is a better day - no today WILL be a better day! I really want to see that 221 today! We will definately need to get a bike or walk in today!
I had a music gig last night and it was so tough! Usually gigs are just me, but this was an ensemble so I get three times more things to remember and think about. WHEW! I did make one major goof, but I guess we all have goofs in live performance. But, I am such a pefectionist that it's hard for me to let it go after it's done. I mean, that's just it - I did my best and there were mostly positive moments. The important thing now is to move on. I tell my students that all the time: move on. All I can do is encourage and hope the boss people will be honest with my performance and let me know any places where they want improvement. Leaving my ego at the door is important so people feel comfortable giving me constructive criticism and not just gossip . Oh well, I can't help what other people do.
Learn from my mistakes: do not talk during service, the next song can come very quickly. There is no guarantee the person leading the service will not mess up and throw me off. If I need to transpose a song, remember to do it!
I love and approve of myself. Lord, free me from the desire for love, appreciation and approval.
Yesterday morning was terrific. I was 221! I wish it had been weigh-in day for this new number. As I've said before, I have been counting calories and I find it very useful. It also seems to be WORKING! HAHA I haven't been lifting weights, but instead relaxing and bike riding. I'm telling ya, I think the downtime has done me and my eating habits good!
Another day of counting every calorie. I have to say that overall, it's pretty fun to do - TEMPORARILY, of course. I have not gone to the gym this week to give my joints a break, but I did have a six mile bike ride. This time of year, as with most people, I am in the throws of busyness and even moments of quiet never last long enough for me to truly renew. I would like to find ways to maximize my downtime for optimal renewal. Please don't say meditation! haha.
Little Big T own's CD came out this week. It's on AOL listening party. I am so digging about five of the tracks and stuck them on my mp3 player for cruisin on my bike.
yesterday I counted calories all day long. Ya'll - that is TEDIOUS! If I had to have counted calories all this time it would have been a disaster.
On the positive side, I realized that by dinner I had eaten about 840 calories and I wasn't STARVING. My husband reminded me of how I started JC on 1700 calories and when they moved me to 1500 I thought I would croak.
Anyway, I am wondering if, to lose the rest, I need to go down to 1200.
My DH has gotten used to me not eating his food, or rather, his treats. I've eated some of his ice cream and pudding. This is not good. He was kinda pissed yestserday when he came home and there was none of his favorite snacks left. I felt like a junkie who had been found out. But I just couldn't help it! This is BAD!
Bethany said compulsive eating is much like being on drugs. I have said this from the beginning. Do I get a chip or something? I mean, the only difference between mean and 306 lbs. is a few months of eating crap, and lots of it. If you don't think that sounds like an addict you are crazy, because it darn sure feels like one.
My first consulttant was adamant about getting the crap out of the house. She was so right. I think he had gotten used to begin able to bring crap in the house and I just left it alone and ate healthy and/or on plan. Well, I've been a bit stressed lately and my eating plan has been in plain view and focus.
Get the crap out of the house. Once a junkie, always a junkie - just not using.
I'm glad I have this blog because it's like calling my sponsor.
For most of my life I have been living an anti-routine sort of life but I find when eating healthy being in a routine really helps. My DH had mint chocolate chip ice cream and all kinds of not sugar-free puddings this weekend. I am 224 today. I feel a bit on the draggy slight headache side. So anyhoo, it really makes a difference. So I have decided to set my goals for the week for myself and my budget:
1. eat on plan this week and enjoy my foods!
2. No going to the grocery store until the weekend. Keep a list!
Oh well, I can't help what other people do. 