My Eyes are Bigger than my Stomach

In terms of what I can realistically expect of myself, what I can handle.  My sense of that is so of it's not even funny.  And then one day something clicks and I feel like I'm having some sort of meltdown all because I'm being stubborn.  I'm stuck somewhere between working mom and stay at home mom because I work from home.  If I hear one more person say "That a great Mom job." I will scream.  It's not.  I read parenting books and want to think about my parenting 24/7 but then I have to work and my brain needs to be somewhere else.  And on it goes...

Then I see I've gained a pound.  Then I don't really care what I eat for supper - calories, fat, etc.  Just whatever.  Who cares.

Then I wake up and say - something has to change.

Well - two things are going to change.  I'm going to put my food back on the list by going back to JC and my super cool counselor and I'm changing our child care situation to make it fit our family.  Big changes - but needed.

The Simple Life - For Mom

This weekend I attended a Growing Families conference.  It was so wonderful and I learned so many things about parenting!  I get the feeling I probably ate a little to much, but I'm trying not to dwell on it.

Going away for the weekend always helps me say how much junk, and I mean junk, I am doing that needs to go.  I do tons of little things and they simply add up to some craziness.  If I am super busy, I find it hard to workout and think about what I'm eating.  How is it that business creeps on me so quickly?  I'm still trying to learn what they "simple" life looks like for a Mom.

Let's add that up, please!

After a morning meal of oat bran, berries, fat free yogurt, and granola I met my sis at Olive Garden.  I've just ran through what I ate, thinking I had done soooo good.  NOT!

610 Bruschetta Appetizer
150 1 breadstick
350 1 serving of salad w/dressing
220 coffee thing for dessert
130 1 bowl of pasta & fagioli

So, my total calories for today is 1,940!!!!  Oh my gosh!   I thought I did so good!  I will say though, that I was so stuffed! 
Now, off to drink water and get in a little workout later!

Thoughts

I really need to start posting more.  In some wierd way it always helps.
The show 18 Kids and Counting featured husband Jim Bob going on a weight watchers eating program.  It got me wondering if I should try that.  After all, it's cheaper than JC and I can do it online, right?
On the other hand, I know I can do it.  As a therapist said once, my food is attached to my feelings.  Well, it doesn't have to be, right?  Last Tuesday I dropped my son at his mothers day out then drive directly to Sonic and bought a mustard burger (no cheese) and fries.  Yeah, it was totally good.  Then I made some homemade sugar cookies because I know how to make them low-fat.  Nevertheless, I was so full I thought I was going to puke.  Then I went straight to bed and slept.  Slept the sleep of exhaustion - mostly mental.  My brain has to go and be and in so many places with no breaks.  Some days I do so well I am amazed at myself.  But, when the food starts taking over, I know there is some attention needing somewhere. 
I wish there was a movie I wanted to see playing this weekend.

Refresh

Yesterday I went to a womens conference and it was very inspiring.  They have free daycare and he was right down the hall and I checked out him throughout the morning.  I was glad I went.  It was such an enjoyable day to renew and refresh.

I read the most wonderful article called "Mother Culture" about women taking care of themselves intellectually, not just physically.
 

Am I overboard?

OK, I just took out a cancer policy and a year ago I took out Long Term Care insurance.  I hate paying for them, but yet I see all these terrible things happen.  How does one keep themselves from going insurance crazy????

tv be gone

I think I'm finally kicking the habit.  The habit of watching too much tv.  I said this internal prayer/plea after Ephram was born that said, "Please take away the desire for tv."  I've done this with food, but my arch nemesis always rears its ugly head.  However, I find myself completely disinterested in TV now-a-days.  I tivo the ones I really like, but have oddly, let many shows go.  I suppose now I'm replacing my tv time with real life.  But don't get me wrong- I'm so glad Colbert and The Daily Show are back from vacation.

I'm still working on the food....

Wow 226!

Is anyone having trouble uploading pics?  I've tried many time and it just goes to a white screen.

I'm 226 today - only 2 lbs. away from my pre-pregnancy weight! WOO HOO!

So close!

Today I am 227!  WOO HOO!  I 3 lbs. from my starting pre-baby weight!  WOO HOO!  I can't say much else other than WOO HOO!

Flylady is my hero!