09/30/2010 13:23
A sitter is coming!
I lost a lb today. I seriously think that pound lost was just aggravation letting go.
I have a sitter coming this morning and I am SUPER excited. I cleaned house 45 minutes just because.
Although I hate spending the money for it, I am always so uplifted, refreshed, and renewed when I get time away. Or, just time to complete other tasks that need doing. I try to do as many things as I can with my son (TODDLER) but I some things need my full attention.
09/29/2010 20:41
WW
I do think there are lots of good things about Weight Watchers. The recipes come to mind. I got so many good cooking ideas. That's about it.
I got a little frustrated with leaders & receptionists talking to me like I had never watched my eating in my life. The first time was understandable, but I just got really aggravated by it. For example, I'd share in a meeting and the leader would look at me like, "How do you know what you are talking about?" Another lady came out and said, "And how much have you lost, baby?" Needless to say, she was SHOCKED when I said about 80 lbs. I much preferred the Jenny Craig Method of one person per consultant. But, I really needed ways to cook for my entire family and WW does do well on that point.
At first the point thing was fun, but now it's a pain. I guess four years of counting calories and knowing my magic "number" was so much easier than starting all over again.
Here's the bottom line - the main thing I needed was missing. I'm an emotional eater. When I feel out of control, I want to eat. One way I can deal with that in a healthy way is to TALK, EXPRESS and Write. Neither the WW meetings nor the tracking gave me that outlet. I never felt as cozy and comfy to share my thoughts in the WW online center as I do here.
How do Moms do it? Seriously, Moms are so powerful and yet most of the time, I think I'm superhuman until my kryptonite (FOOD) suddenly is controlling my nights and days.
09/29/2010 15:06
Gold Member Now!
After a 3 month stint with Weight Watchers, I'm coming back this site/blog.
Although I really liked WW, including the meetings, it was lacking one thing: journalling. Their online system was good for keeping points, but their blogging area was nothing compared to this site. I bought the year long gold membership for $2.00 a month!! WW was $39.99 per month!
More later...kinda pissed off today.
Back: I set the privacy option so I don't know who can read this. If you want to read my blog, just request a join thing or send me a message and I'll add you.
Today my Dad has to take stupid chemo again. He has Stage IV Lung Cancer. I'm so upset. I swear I can't think about it for more than 3 second without bursting in complete tears.
The house bugs me. It's so full of clutter.
I have the best husband ever. My kid is cute, but tiring. Worth it, though.
I'm back to counting calories. The points were getting on my nerves. I got tired of going to the computer to enter crap and I don't have a dang iphone (UGH! My 7th grade students have freakin' iphones people! How can they afford that mess????)
Okay - not in a good mood today and ranting and raving. I need to keep blogging to get this out. Bear with me.
I do so much for my family and others, and yet, why is it an Act of Congress to take care of my own self? I know I need to hire a sitter for an afternoon. I'm working on it.
09/06/2010 13:17
A New Year!
Well, I have made some great changes.
I stayed with the Monthly Pass from Weight Watchers. I'm finally getting the hang of the points and losing some weight.
I'm homeschooling my little boy and it is a blast.
Keep the faith people!
08/16/2010 13:17
Whew!
I'm still trying to get used to the WW points thing. I don't like that their tracker has no place to put calories. UGH!
08/03/2010 12:19
Weight Watchers
I joined WW's. In the past two weeks, I've yet to not go over my points! Has my eating gotten out of control or WHAT! I had a stressful spring & summer and I noticed it really started showing on the scale in July. I'm working on it.
07/05/2010 13:17
Couponing
So now I'm one of those crazy couponers who saves tons of money. That is find and good, right? Well, now I'm eating too many calories!
03/26/2010 15:08
Keeping a Quiet Heart
"Every assignment is measured and controlled for my eternal good. As I accept the given portion other options are cancelled. Decisions become much easier, directions clearer, and hence my heart becomes inexpressibly quieter." Elizabeth Elliot's book Keeping a Quiet Heart.
I have always been the type of person who loves to take control, make changes, make it work. Since becoming a Mom, I have finally narrowed my teaching down a number of days that I can handle and enjoy, while still being there for my family. It has taken a year and a half to figure it out, but it works for all of us in the family. Now, don't you know when I decide this, I get so tempted. Oh could I help with this? Could I play for that? Couldn't I just keep this one student who is so great? Yes, temptation comes and I start second guessing my decisions...wondering if I should take on a bit more because my heart wants to do it.
I've never been one to say, "Well this is my lot in life so there you go." I'm more of take the bull by the horns kind of girl. What I am learning from this reading is that I need to trust and rest in my own decisions. Okay? It's not like someone is punishing me. I have made the decision to take on less. It is not only for my family's good, but the good of me and the good of my students receiving my best. It is very hard to set good boundaries. Oh - sometimes it's easy, but for every no there is a yes to something else.
My yes was that yesterday I spent the day with my son and it was so beautiful. I watched him and my eyes just filled with tears. It was in that moment that I realized that "Decisions become much easier, directions clearer, and my heart becomes inexpressibly quieter."
03/15/2010 06:09
Volunteer Torture
OK, you non-Moms please bear with me or read it as free advice....
There is a leadership position I want to take so desperately in our piano world. I mean, I LOVE a good challenge and this truly is one. HOWEVER - reality check home girl. Did you notice the toddler running around the house? DId you notice how today was Sunday and your glue on nails look like, to use my husband's word, "carnage" on the kitchen table because you napped during toddler's nap? Or, did you fail to notice that other than laundry and a stroller ride, you spent the day hugging and smooching on your baby instead of volunteer work?
Reality check.
So, I had to suck crow or eat crow or whatever, and go back and tell the piano people that I could "assist" a new chair, but I could not BE one. I could do an extra task, yes. But take on an entire event = Dumb. Taking on the event pre-baby - excellent and a fabulous career move. Taking on the event post baby? Stupid and naive, if only seen that way to my husband and me.
It's been 16 months people, but undoing an adult life, at 37 years old, of being a type A, challenge driven person does not come quickly. Learning to play with the baby is my task in life....no let me shorten that. I'm learning to play.
And you know what? It feels good.
