| Height: | 173.0cm |
| Start weight: | 306.00lb |
| Current weight: | 218.50lb |
| Goal weight: | 200.00lb |
| Lost to date: | 87.50lb |
| Remaining: | 18.50lb |
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Well, I guess you could say I am on auto-pilot. It's pretty hard to think about weight loss all of the time, but I am doing ok. I probably will not lose this week, but I have had a lot of fun this week. I am taking things as they come, but still trying to be mindful of the process of weight loss.
I was wondering yesterday how long I will be in weight loss mode. I would love reach my goal of 220 by September, the end of the summer. I have been in weight loss mode since November 2005. My first consultant would always say just buckle down and freakin' do it! Yeah, she was right. I know I am drawing out the draining process, of weight loss. Lately I have been binging on cool whip. Yesterday was a huge awakening. I ate a container of fat free cool whip in one day. Did you know that is 375 calories? I freaked out! I was mistakenly thinking, "Hey this food is almost free! Cool Whip is 15 calories for two tbsp."
My consultant sent me a 1200 calorie menu to follow and I stuck in on the fridge. I know, deep in my heart, that 1200 per day is what I need to do to get to 220. The weight training is shaping my body and keeping me from gaining. Unfortunately, it is not helping me lose because I am not eating LESS I am eating MORE.
My Mom really pissed me off the other day too. People in my life are talking to me like all my problems with food are gone and I don't struggle because I have lots 70 something lbs. My Mom was cutting down the weight loss battle of her friend. She and my sister were mocking her for being unsuccessful on Weight Watchers. They couldn't tell she had lost any weight depsite her having told them she lost 20 lbs. Then they had the audacity to gossip about what she ate at a bbq!!!! Needless to say, I had heard enough. And we overeaters wonder why we feel like crap sometimes?
A big hug to all of my blog friends.
You guys are going through the same feelings, emotions, and pulls towards food that seem unexlainable. I offer not only to myself, but to you, no judgement. Love yourself today; really love yourself. I am worth taking care of and so are you.
So I have been asked to prattle a bit about JC.
I am so past and beyond ready to get to my goal. I can't even begin to explain the emotions I have been going through. Ashley - I can totally relate to you darlin'! I have just been wanting to eat things that I rarely crave or have stopped craving. Is this some kind of mind backlash? I don't know. Or, maybe I am just relaxing a bit and "enjoying" things? Oh shucks, who am I kidding? Eat like I did before and I get the way I was before.
This summer has been very busy for me mentally. I am learning new things that I absolutely love, but at the same time, I feel drained alot. I always seem to find a reason to shortcut my relaxation time, and the improtance of it. I am not really sure why that is, but I do.
I love and approve of myself. The real Stephanie, no matter what.
Yesterday I had some mac & cheese and caramel popcorn. This would not be considered "weight loss portions" of food. I am sora ok, but not really, with it. I have so few pounds to go, but the thing is, by the time one is at this point, you have to really keep cutting calories to get to your goal weight. My consultant that for most people, the first 50 lbs. comes off quickly and then it tapers. Yes, it really does taper. I love my new size and body but I am having to really work at not being hard on myself. Like the touchstones CD says, "All or nothing thinking is not a characteristic of a healthy weight loss mindset."
I had another one of those days where it could have gone either way. What usually bails me out is heading to the grocery store to find healthy choices. I ended up having the JC BBQ pizza last night (which I LOVE) and mixed it in with my homemade tomato/basil dip (FREE). I love those blue bunny health smart bars. They are one starch (50 - 60 calories) and FAT FREE! WOO HOO! They save my sweet tooth butt many times!
Rolling..rolling...rolling...
I have a few days off and that is always a different kind of challenge for me. I walked in the store today about to "what the heck" and wanted brownie mix, yummy bluebell chocolately ice cream, etc. I stayed commited to my long term health and goals and did not use the calories today. I stayed on plan but I tell ya - boredom and being anxious are my two big curers to eat. But, I will do something that nearly always works: take a nap.
p.s. fellow JC'ers - I love the Hawiian chicken salad as I love pineapple and chicken together. I am not too crazy about the peach cheesecake. Boo Hoo - no more florentine ravoili! UGH!
What a great weekend I am having!
For one thing, I finally got around to reading The Red Tent and I am absolutely loving it! I can't put Dinah's story down for more than one hour. Then, we got a surround sound system with our new HDTV! WOWZA! Happy Campers are we...
Now, I am just sitting and waiting for two things: dinner time and my favorite shows on SUnday night: Bought and Sold, Army Wives, and The Next Food Network Star.
Life is good.
Wanting to do something fun foodwise with the neice, we made homemade pizzas and I brought the entire family along for the health ride. I bought turkey pepperoni and canadian bacon slices for the meats, a trio of red, yellow, and green peppers, onion, mushroom, low-fat shredded cheese and the secret weapon: large tortillas instead of bread for the crust!
They were so good! Plus, we all made our stuff our own way! I was so proud of all of us! The pizzas were VERY good.
today I am 229 and so excited! I love being in the 220 something's. That means I am less than 10 lbs. from goal!
My cute neice has been staying with us this week. Along with heavy doses of all things Disney channel, haha, the house has some junk foods as well. I am also very very low on JC snacks and I have been extremely busy so I've not much time to do my normal shopping. I have been eating the normal "house food" but in very small portions and so far so good.
I am waiting until the end of the month to order more JC food, budget you know. But, I think this is a good thing: to just eat whatever in small portions. Sometimes I am just so busy, I need to eat to just not be hungry and it doesn't always lead to overeating. That's a good thing.
