I think my relationship to food has been very interesting to observe since I've become a Mom.  For one thing,  the mind training I gave myself in my JC weight loss has definitely prepared me for a time, like now, when I don't have all day to devote to how I feel about food.  There have been some times lately when I just wanted to bury myself in some fast food or something.  I know that is stress.  I've always said that saying "yes" to my health means saying "no" to every bit of food that comes my way.  But, to do that, it takes some emotional reserves.  Sometimes my reserves run low as a new mom, but overall, I think I'm doing very well thanks to my pre-pregnancy mind/body/food training.  I am so grateful that we are able to continue to afford JC post-pregnancy.  If you are considering JC and you have a lot of weight to lose, please consider Jenny Rewards!  I get 30% off ALL my food and will get 35% when I hit goal!  But back to the topic:  I notice that there are times I can't think about eating as much because I need to take care of the baby.  There would have been a time when I would have made up for that miss by eating more later, but I'm finding that I'm ok with it.  It seems food is working it's way, slowly, into a natural place.  As my first consultant would say, "It's only food." 

One day at a time.  One meal at a time.  One bottle feed a time.  Hug them all.

YIPEE!  My JC food comes in Thursday!  I'l start fresh on Friday which includes a call from my consultant!  I can't wait!

 Well, things are putting along here in new mother land.   The stroller walks do the baby and I a lot of good.  He gets a nap and I get outside and some exercise!  I can't wait to start back JCD!  I'm going to weigh in every Friday now so I won't drive myself nuts every day.  I'm trying to watch what I eat here at home and I think I've been doing relatively ok, but with trying to keep up with the new demands of Motherhood, I'm really looking forward to my JC food.  I can see now that if I don't make the time to insert my health as a priority two or three years could go back and I haven't paid much attention.  I know I'm a better Mom when I feel good about myself.  Like the saying goes, "Fill your cup before you empty it."  So I've really been getting inspiration from music: Sarah Brightman's new Christmas CD, the new single from Sara Evans called "Low," and the new Sugarland CD.    I've always been watching Life Today with James Robinson on Wednesdays.  This teacher Beth Moore gives these inspiring lectures.  I've always been getting some cool things from Netflix like inspirational music and lecutres by Wayne Dyer and Caroline Myss.  THey talk along about energy and how being judgemental and critcial takes energy away from our bodies. 

My goal today is to take a walk with baby, do a few hand weights in the living room when baby sleeps, eat good portions,  and enjoy the baby because he is so freakin' cute!!!!

 My Mom left earlier this week and my husband and I are so exahusted.  I feel almost guilty sometimes because I'm too tired to enjoy the baby.  Does that make sense?  But, I know I"ll look back and miss him being so little so I'm trying to keep up postiive attitude.  I didn't realize how much it helped having my Mom here when it came to getting rest.  I told my husband yesterday that I just want to be "untired!"  Plus, I am still having  a little cramping and headaches from the section.  It's very minor, but that with the fatigue just makes it seem so big.  I'm certainely not complaining, but trying to sort out in my mind some sort of friendship and truce between being tired and enjoying motherhood.

I can see how it's easy to let oneself go when kids come around.  I mean, I sometimes don't finish my meals or don't get to go to the bathroom the minute i need to go...all these things add up to not very good self-care.  I even don't care about taking vitamins and that's unsual for me.  It's not that I'm depressed, I'm just busy with the baby.  I know it takes 21 days to make a new habit and I think it's the realization that my life will not look the same every again.   Taking vitamins won't be a leisure activity but a necessity that I just program in my day just like I did before.  I know I can do it, I'm just in the trenches now.  I want to show myself through food especially, as it's sometimes my achillies heel, that I can nurture myself through this process of change.

On a happy note, I got the new Sarah Brightman Christmas CD.  It's lovely and Ephram and I are listening to it right now!    It makes me happy and calm to listen to it.

I really need to set some sort of day to weigh in.  Today I was two lbs. up from day before yesterday and I know that could be normal fluncuations.  I guess I'll pick Friday for my weigh-in.  But, I think it's safe to say that the weight that is left (about 18 lbs.) is what I've put on in FAT, not FLUID! HAHA!

Ephram and Mommy's first walk post-baby!  It was a beautiful day!

Mommy's serious little man: