02/25/2009 12:01
Support System
This morning I awoke to 239.5. I could go into all the calories why but who really care at this point. The thing is lack of self-control and the fact that I need my support system.
What I mean is, I used to really use my JC consultant and my gym trainer to support me in my health goals. Since I've had the baby I have utilized them little to none at all. The result is waking up today looking very "old" in my body and seeing it on the scale. If this is me four months into motherhood I don't want to think about what could happen six months from now. And don't tell me it will just "click" unless you mean click as a verb.
So, I'm ordering some JC food today as a starter. Thank goodness they have new foods coming in April. Also, I'm putting the calorie chart back on the fridge and it's back to keeping track. In addition, I'm going to the gym this morning at 6:30am. My baby sleeps until 7am most days, and my husband is here if there is an emergency. This is the least I can do for myself. This way, I still have the entire day with baby and for my students.
My goals for March:
1. Keep track of my eating on the fridge
2. Workout with trainer M/W/F am
3. Go in stroller with sweet baby during late mornings
4. Eat my JC food
5. Prayerfully consider learning to eat without the TV and at the same time, find a way to achieve more down time that doesn't involve food & a favorite TV show.
I haven't been this weight since December 2006! And, let's be honest, it's going to take more than what I'm doing now to see thos scale numbers go down.
Another blessing is that our TIVO went out. So, this morning I am up early with no coffee, biscuit, and TIVO to watch. Would you believe this is what keeps me from going to the gym early? It's not because I'm not awake. But, I don't get my "me" tv/food time much during the day anymore so I take it in the wee hours the morning. I'm really pathetic. Did you know last night I cooked this great meal (another reason for weight gain is I eat too much when I cook good stuff!) and took it into the bedroom to watch the rest of "The Bachelor" I had TIVO"d? Why? Because I like being myself! I spend all day just waiting to be by myself!
Do any of you other Mom's have a high need for alone/downtime? I know not everyone is wired like that, but I am and always have been. What sort of things do you do to cope?
Posted By: Steph
02/25/2009 02:35
YES!!!!
OMG! Yes, girl. I never get to be alone and it kills me. That's why I took up running. It's something I can do in the afternoons after work. DH has the little one. You know, I was thinking about this on Sunday. I had to go to the grocery store. I thought, Oh yeah! I'll sneak out and be alone. DH was awake (he works nights.) He said he wanted to go. Which meant Tatum did too. I'm like, "HOLYMOLY! I can't even go to the grocery store alone!" DH needed some stuff and he wanted to pick it out. So I can't really complain. It means he'll stop less at fast food places during the week. But man! Can I just be alone??? I also take baths at night. I soak in the tub and read whatever book it is that I'm reading. That's the only quiet/alone time I really have. I think your plan to go to the gym early is a great one. It will start your days off on the right foot!
(((HUGS)))
02/25/2009 09:47
Oh how I remember!
I remember all those days of introducing myself as someone's mom, instead of as myself! Every minute of every day was spent meeting the needs of everyone and anyone but me! It gets overwhelming.
The hardest lesson to learn is that we simply have to include ourselves on the list of priorities. It just has to be done. When there are little ones involved, we have to be sure they are cared for, but we absolutely must care for ourselves, too, lest we wake up one day and say, "Who am I?" The kids are raised and gone, and we find ourselves being strangers in our own bodies.
It may seem selfish at first, but our purpose in life should be to be happy. If we aren't, it short-changes the much-loved people we have given up our very selves for. Negotiate that alone-time with those around you, especially with those who have plenty of it for themselves. Arrange childcare swaps with a friend or neighbor, just be sure to get the time you need to relax, refresh, and re-vitalize yourself!
Don't keep turning to food to fill in the gaps! Start thinking of food as fuel rather than enjoyment or part of the entertainment. There are times when I deliberately choose the JC foods I least like (but don't hate), to purposefully make mealtimes a little boring. It takes away the thrill of anticipation. I also make up my menus in advance, and only look at the meal item I am supposed to be eating at that time. That way, when I come upon a favorite, I am pleasantly surprised, instead of expecting to be absolutely pleased at every meal. I train myself to not expect food to be a focus of anticipation or gratification. Does that make sense?
