It's been great to be back on the WW boards; surfing and reading others blogs for inspiration and truth! Wow the honesty of what is going on internally is amazing to me on what people write. The struggles the ownership of "I am a food addict" etc....I am too! I read and read and am constantly nodding my head, "me too, me too". Glad to know I am not alone. In the vortex of inhaling food and feeling out of control; actually not feeling anything at all since it is like a vaccumed space when I am in it....I am slowing down, breathing and not in haling anything. I could "feel" IT almost starting last night. I had one tiny melt in my mouth chocolate (OP) piece of candy. I enjoyed every sweet sensation. Not sure what is different this time or rather at that time last night. I "thought" about how I "could" inhale a whole bunch more and keep eating. I did NOT do it but even the thoughts of I "could" made me feel out of control and guilty. Guilty about what I just had and the feeling of why bother staying on this since I already blew it etc.... Somehow I was able to remind myself that I am still OP, I did not BLOW it..........calm down, move on , don't eat anymore, you are still on program and with in points.  I listened for the first time in a really long time to THAT inner voice instead of the one that barely lets me stop and think and has me just stuffing myself before I know it is happening.