Run, Forrest!

Yeah... So today, I downloaded the 1st week's podcast to the c25k running program, and actually went to the local track and did it. I enjoyed it, and I liked the track better than the treadmill (I really don't <3 the treadmill). I realized, however, that running could be fun, if I wasn't haulin' my fat ass around! Hahahaha... More motivation, I suppose. I was surprised I didn't die doing the 8 min worth of running. Excellent.

I'm about to go shower now and get ready to go out, but then I'm going to take a couple of pics to post (side shot, front shot) as my official "before" pics, as I have the new battery and my camera wants to work! Holla!

Hope everyone is have a nice Saturday!

Recap

Well, the work week is over, woot, and as an added bonus, I had a snow day today. We really didn't get all that much by way of snow (like none) or ice (maybe a 1/10th of an inch), but I'll take it. I needed it. It was a nice day of doing nothing (and it was indeed everything I dreamed it could be)...

So this week, in recap mode... My boyfriend and I did have the talk that I knew was coming. It was all very sad. It took about 3 hours (of crying, talking, crying and more talking)... I guess I'm technically "single" now, but it's kind of weird. He has some things he needs to work on to make our relationship successful. He knows this, and accepts this. We'll see how seriously he takes this and how much he wants to make our "us" work.

I'm worth it, completely. We'll see what he does, and if he realizes it.

So we're trying to just hang out as friends- neither of us really have a lot of friends around here. I'm okay with the idea, but it's kind of tough when he keeps calling me "baby or honey" and whatnot. He tried to take my hand about 4 times in a 40 min span of going to Panera last night! I know he wants us to be together, but that's because he's getting what he needs... I guess what will be will be?

Eating... working out... hmmm... Well, my eating this week really wasn't too bad save for 1 not so good (but oh soooo good) mexican dinner (a few chips/fresh salsa, black beans, rice and cheese enchilladas) and a cupcake today. I figured that after that 3 hour crap-fest of a conversation, I deserved it!  I realize that's emotional eating... I'm working on it! As for working out, well, I've just felt really drained/sad all week. Tonight though, I at least did something- p90 sculpt 1/2. It was better than nothing!

I'm going to hit the gym tomorrow hopefully for an hour and also weigh in. I'm just hoping I'm not up, at this point, I'll be happy with staying steady. I'll post tomorrow with an update, for better or worse!

Success is the sum of small efforts, repeated day in and day out.
Robert Collier

Stressed Out

I really can't believe I haven't posted since last Monday.

This past week has been a rough one. I only managed to work out twice, and while my food journal started off strong, life sort of found a way to derail my concentration/efforts.

My boyfriend and I have been together for 11 months at this point, and I'm afraid we will not make it to a full year. I've been trying to deal with my thoughts and feelings about everything. I feel like he's selfish at times, and doesn't exactly make me a priority. I almost feel like "girlfriend" was one of those things on his "life-checklist"... like, car, check. Job, check. Girlfriend, check. Now he's working on adding house to that checklist, and I feel very lost in the shuffle. I've been exceptionally supportive of everything he's done, and I've accepted him for who he is, past and all. The issue now is that I've told him (many times in recent months) what I'm looking for from him, and what I need to be happy in our relationship. He listens, and improves for a short while, and then things go back the way they were. Valentine's day was pretty disasterous. We also have very different sex drives, and let's just say it's leaving me quite unsatisfied (not to mention undesirable/unsexy). He's coming over tomorrow to "talk". It's not going to be fun.

Wow that was rant-y. So, food wise, well, there was definitely a slice of chocolate cake involved, and a few drinks (even though I hadn't had alcohol since Thanksgiving eve). It could have been worse. I went home to NY this weekend to see my family, just to clear my mind. I did weigh in on my mom's scale, so, at least there was no gain.

I'm hopeful that this will be a better week, at the very least food/exercise-wise. I'll just think positively.

Thanks for "listening" to my rant...

Food journal- who knew?

Saturday being my frustrational low point.. I have in fact found myself rededicated to the cause.. Woot!

I started a food journal, today being day 3. Who knew? I've never been very good at keeping logs/journals/diaries of any sort; it was never my thing. But I'm putting forth a valiant effort to make this work. I've set my water goal at 8 glasses/64oz a day for now. I've set my calorie intake between 1,300-1,700, because I've been reading about how zigzag dieting (fluctuating your caloric intake) is the optimal way to keep your metabolism high, though on Saturdays I'll allow myself 2,000 cals. I'm excited so far, and I like how it's keeping me accountable.

I went to the gym tonight too, for 45min of cardio. 710 cals burned on the treadclimber- love it!! I'd like to do weights tomorrow if possible. Tuesdays and Wednesdays are hard because I work late, and usually have to rush home to meet my boyfriend (he stays at my place 2 nights a week because he has a 2 hour commute otherwise, ewww!).

I think the most exciting thing though, was that today was the first workout I've had since before THANKSGIVING that I didn't have to use my inhaler at all! That's such an improvement, and I couldn't be more thrilled!

Also exciting is that Casio will be replacing my camera battery for free, and it will hopefully arrive this weekend. It's mighty difficult to take before pics with a camera that won't turn on, hahaha.

G'nite!

70 min workout~

So I woke up this morning feeling very unhappy with myself- particularly my slothlike state of late (this week). I was determined to start anew, and took my measurements officially today (yikes). I did my "official" weigh in, and while I was up 1.4, I whole heartedly expected that to be a lot worse than it was.

I went to the gym ready to get a good work out in, and that's exactly what I did. I did 30 minutes on the nautilus Treadclimber (so kick ass)- which is a cross between a stair master and a treadmill. I burned 468 calories in those 30 min! Woot! Then I switched to my favorite machine- the arctrainer. I did my workout for 40 min on the hill climber setting at a level 5 (out of 10). I burned 569 calories with that portion of my workout.

Summary: 70min of hardcore cardio, 1,037 cals burned.

That helped!

Roll w/it

I've been awful about blogging this week, and I'm trying to change that now. I need to hold myself accountable, for the good and the bad, and this week has not been so great. Roll with the punches, right?

My eating has been fairly crappy. I've been doing well for the most part of the day, but then I eat wayyy too much at dinner? Why do I do that? It generally just leaves me feeling uncomfortable and negative overall.  I've got to fix whatever causes me to do that. *frustrated w/myself*

I've only worked out once this week, though after this blog I'm going to pop in a dvd (currently debating between walk away the pounds for abs, turbo jam and power 90) even though I'm tired. I'm also planning on hitting the gym both Saturday and Sunday, so maybe I can still partially save the week. Sunday might be tough though, as I'm going to help my bf look for a new house (for him, not us). I'm totally afraid to weigh in though- yikes.

Tuesday is the day I need to go to the pulmonary specialist. My breathing has been a wee bit better this week, so at least that's a plus.

As for meeting my goals for the week... not so much. Hopefully I'll hit 4 workouts for the week. I have had a bit more water than I usually do, which is good, but not nearly as much as I should be drinking, I realize. I haven't taken a class at the gym this week, but maybe I can do that this weekend; I'll have to check the schedule.

Either way, this has been the longest post ever. Anyone else super glad it's Friday?

Goals and the like~

So today I consumed way more food than I'd like to admit to..  I'm feeling guilty, but, I'm not going to beat myself up over it. Instead, I'm going to write down some goals for the week.

1) If my breathing holds up, work out 5x this week, at least 3 of those times being at the gym (as opposed to walking outside or doing a DVD).

2) Drink 1 more glass of water each day- I suck at keeping myself hydrated!

3) Take a class at my gym- body attack, body pump- something! I'm so uncoordinated that I don't want to do this out of shear embarrassment, but, it'd be a good thing... (again, contingent on my breathing)...

4) Go to bed by 10:30 twice this week... This might be the toughest one!

Once I get down to 210 I'd like to get new sneakers... That's my new short-term reward.

Night!

Lazy Saturday

I just finished a cup of tea and find myself feeling really lazy! Oi! I posted a pic (finally) of myself with my boyfriend from Halloween. It's among the most recent I have, but the photo looks kind of crummy on here, I don't know why.

I will be taking my official "before" pics on Monday, so, watch for those!

Alright, well, even though I've been sick and haven't worked out all week, (not to mention it being that time) I'm going to head to the gym in a wee bit and weigh in. Their scale is the one I use, because it goes to the tenth of a pound. I'll update my blog when I get home. I'd like to see if I can manage 30 min of cardio without dying, too. That'd be awesome.

Happy Saturday, all~

Sleep is overrated

So I'm finally starting to feel better- it's been a rough week! I haven't worked out at all :( but my eating hasn't been too too terrible. I'm going to try to go to the gym tomorrow, if I can get some sleep tonight (and weigh in, too). My breathing is still a bit iffy, and I can't seem to shake the cough, but I no longer have a 103 fever, or a temperature under 96, so I'll accept progress as progress is.

Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday nights combined for a total of about 3.5 hours of sleep. I went to work on Wed/Thurs/Fri anyway, hahaha. Teaching zombie, or something. I wasn't functioning too badly. My students kept giving me fun updates on my health though...

"Your face looks a little puffy- I think it's the medicine."

"You sound raspy, maybe you should stop talking. I can take over for you."

"Did you put blush on? Or is that sweat? You're more red. I think the sickness is leaving you."

It's good to know they care? Hahaha... Either way, if I can get some rest tonight, I'll hit the gym tomorrow, and try and get back on track. My pulmonary appointment is scheduled for Feb. 12th and I'm scared (and sayin' I'm scared, 'cuz that's how you have to do.)...

Setbacks already.. :(

So on Friday night I went to the gym and had a really great work out. It was hardcore workout #4 for the week, and I was pretty happy with myself. I did a mile on the bike just to warm up and then lifted weights (a full circuit) for an hour. I was pretty proud of myself, as weight lifting is definitely something I slack on, big time.

Later on Friday I started to not feel particularly well, but went to bed hoping to sleep it off...

I woke up on Saturday a certifiable mess! I had a fever, deep yucky cough, runny nose, shallow breathing, dizziness, nausea- pretty much you name it, I felt it! Sunday remained just as bad. My poor boyfriend tried his best to take care of me, but I most certainly wasn't very good company.

I went to my dr's today, and they gave me a breathing treatment on the nebulizer. They're putting me on some antibiotics for an upper respiratory infection as well as prednisone to reduce the inflammation of my lungs/bronchial passageways. :( I'm upset about that, because the last time I was on prednisone was during college, and that stuff makes me bat shizz crazy! I just recall crying on the floor in the dark because I couldn't find my shoe... and then crying even harder when someone turned on the light. Not good!

I even need to make an appointment with a pulmonary specialist next week. I'm scared, and saying I'm scared. I guess all these things are good, in the long run. Oh, and I got word today too from my assistant principal (I teach 3rd grade) that they are FINALLY getting the county environmental specialist out to look at my trailer. I swear it's full of mold and making me sick! So I guess that's a plus?

I need to get healthy so I can get my work out on. Oh, and once I get a bit better, I'm going to take pictures to post. I read that Feb 4th, the day after the super bowl (go PATS!) is national "before" picture day, so I think I'll partake in that. I think that's enough ranting for now...