Happy Monday all... this time change is killin' me! It was so hard to get up this morning! I should be sleeping now... I suck!
I'll keep this brief. I wanted to get to the gym today to weigh in again (I did Saturday, but, FIT...) and get in a workout. It was pretty nice out though, and I needed to start my 3rd week of C25K, so I went to the track. After I did the program (about 2miles) I decided to jog 1/4 mile... then I felt strong, so I said, wow, try for 1/2 a mile... I kept going, and actually jogged 1 STRAIGHT MILE without stopping! Holy shit! How did that happen?! [Slow, slow, slow, but I didn't stop/walk once, it was a constant jogging motion, albeight a slow one!] I don't know if I've ever actually done that before, ever.
I was pretty impressed that I didn't die.
Food was okay today, though I had some unnecessary pasta salad. All is alright, though I realllllly need to start drinking more water. I keep saying this!
I just want to say thanks for all the support and positive comments lately, it's been really helpful to keep me motivated. I'm getting to a good place, and I know that all of you have been helping me on my journey, not only with weight loss, but with getting to a place where I can be perfectly happy with me.
Good luck FIT girls w/week 2... I know you'll all do great!
I'm going to divide this post into three parts- the good, the bad, and the unrelated. It's been one of those days. I'm not sure about much right now, feeling kinda yuck, don't mind me...
The good:
I had a great workout today. Well, 3 of them, actually. This morning I did a 20 min dvd in the Turbo Jam family. It was chock-full-o punches and sweaty good times. Later in the day, I went to the track for c25k, except for the crazy wind!! I did the workout anyway, plus an extra 1/2 mile, but there were 40-50mph wind gusts. It was an experience! After that, I went to the gym. I did about 40 min there, too. 35 on the arc trainer (<3), and 5 on the wave. I'll write more about that piece of scary equipment later.
The bad: I weighed in today, and was down 2.2 pounds. This would normally constitute a "good" thing, but I was hoping for an additional pound considering that when I weighed in last week, I had my period, and I'm still up .2 from pre-period weight. Eh. I'll live. I'm going to weigh in again on Monday though, to report my weight to the fit challenge. I've done a lot of lifting/work outs in general, and my muscles are sore... (excuses...)
The unrelated:
This is all about my breakup/mixup. So feel free to stop reading now. If you've read some of my posts, you know that I recently broke up with my now-ex. Tomorrow would have marked 1 year. I'm okay with that. We've been trying to be friends/keep seeing each other, with the knowledge that he had some things to work on in order for us to successfully get back together (things: attentiveness, self-centered, thoughtful, sex drive, activity level). He hasn't made any progress towards any of these things, give or take. He's been very stressed lately- bought his first house, and is closing 3/14, work, etc. He had to go to work today, so yesterday I tried to be nice and offered that he could come over today after work, and crash here, because he had to go back on Sunday (current commute=2 hours, my place is only about 40 min from where he works). He was like, well, yeah, I mean, I want to, I always come over on Saturdays, yes yes yes etc. ALL WEEK he's been b*tching that I haven't let him come over as much, that he misses seeing me, that he's in the dog house. So this morning, he cancels on me (after I had made dinner reservations in an attempt at doing something nice) because he had to do laundry and clean. The he was mad at me for not understanding/being frustrated, and told me he'd just come over tomorrow. When I was like, eh, I don't know. He accused me of holding it against him. Are you serious? BAH!!! So basically, I think I've finally come to the realization that this isn't going to happen, and that I'm okay with it. I need someone better, someone thoughtful, smart, fun, tall & active. Oh, and he has to have a sex drive. So ladies, if you wanna hook me up, just let me know, hahaha.
I think that's all. I've been in a pretty bad mood all day (I think that's why I ended up working out for over 100min). I feel unwanted, undesirable and unsexy. I don't need a man to feel better about myself, don't get me wrong. I guess breakups are always a bit tough.
I hope that everyone in blizzard zones came out unscathed! Enjoy your Sunday all, and I apologize for the unrelated tangents. One of these days, I swear I'll get my shizz together.
So I disappeared for a few days from posting, but I still mostly caught up on everyone's blogs! And, I'm still down for the fit challenge, even if some days are not going to be as great as others?
Let's see... I've worked out 10 out of the last 14 days or so, maybe 11/15, I can't recall, though my workout Thursday was pretty pathetic, and I took Wednesday off. I did 2 miles of walk/jogging at the track in about 30 min, but it was all I could do to not just walk off the track. I finished, but, omg, slow & sad. Other than that, not too bad. I just finished (like, at 11:45pm) my Turbo Sculpt dvd. It's a 40 min or so workout w/lots of squats & lunges. I used 5lbs weights. I hadn't done that dvd in a while, so the fact that I could actually complete it all w/o stopping- hell yah!
I even added in some additional pushups afterward for my fit gals!! :)
Tommorow's my official weigh in day. I'm not sure what to expect- exercise has been good, eating has been fair (minus a few mishaps, haha). My body holds on to weight like that's it's job. No lie. I usually can't see any changes in my body until I've dropped about 15 lbs (crazy, right?)... though I think my legs are looking a teeny bit more shapely? I think that's because of the running & lifting I've been doing lately. We'll see. I'd just like to be down the 2lbs that TOM put on last week? *fingers crossed*
It was a long week, and I'm glad it's over. For all of you getting snow right now- stay warm! I'm actually kind of jealous. It's all rain in DC, and being from upstate NY originally, I <3 the snow, and miss it. Snowy nights were always the best for napping, hot baths and curling up w/a good book.
Today was a very long day. I worked from 7:30 until 6:00. Bleh! I was tired and hungry after my day, but made myself go to the track anyway. This in itself was an accomplishment, but the best part is that it was raining and super windy, and I went anyway! (I'm not much of an outdoor exerciser, so that's pretty big for me.) I was soaked afterward, but you couldn't guess which was sweat and which was rain if you tried, hahahaha!
I did the c25k program for week two, and then did an extra mile (1/2 walk, 1/2 jog) as part of the FIT challenge.
Unfortunately, I came home super hungry and had a bit too much supper, but my eating for the rest of the day had been really good (special K w/silk, salad w/lite ranch, soft pretzel and some pineapple & apple cinnamon rice snacks).
Tomorrow will be another long day- on Tues/Wed I teach an after school remediation program. It's give or take the bane of my existance. But, yah, makes for a long day!
Goals for tomorrow- survive the workday, drink 1 additional glass of water, do either weight lifting at the gym or the turbo jam turbo sculpt dvd, try and catch up on everyone's blogs.
Today was a pretty good day. Eating was on point, and I got in a great workout at the gym burning 720 cals on the arc trainer. Yay! I do love that thing, at least in terms of kick-ass-workout-ocity. Yes, I love to make up my own words.
There's this new machine at the gym called the "Wave"... It scares me, and I might have to try it, though I was watching this woman on it, and she was all shakin' her goodies and the like. I was like, oooh, if that's the result, I cannot use that machine in public! Ever! Anyone try it? Is it not so frightening?
My ex was sad that I told him not to come over at all this week. We've been trying to hang out, but since he's acting like my boyfriend, I told him we'd take this week off and see how things went. I think that's healthy, right???
In amusing but probably only if you knew the whole story knews, I heard from an old... I guess booty call guy?? (for lack of a better term, we never really were an item per se), that I hadn't heard from in a while. He was like, I hear you're single again... I'm in India right now, can I bring you back something, jewelry?? I'm back in the states next week, let's meet up. Hahaha... It's funny, because at one point, he was everything I wanted, save for his flakiness (hot, successful, smart, funny, yadayada). I don't need more boy drama right now though. (However, I have to say, he was absolutely the best looking guy I'd ever been with, I was so out-hotted!!)
Sigh!
Hope everyone had a great Monday. And to all my FIT girls- we'll rock this challenge!
This will be quick, as I'm tired, and should try and sleep (damn insomnia)...
Good things: I worked out today, and it was a good workout. I feel good about it though. I finally got to the market, and bought 2 cute pairs of earrings and some fresh strawberries.
Mediocre things: My diet today wasn't horrible, but wasn't super. I'll deem this as an "in the middle" day.
Bad things: My new orange cute pocket pedometer? Busted on the first day! The thing broke while i was working out! It was in my pocket, I checked it, and then, it stopped working at exactly 6:12pm. Hmph! I will be taking it along with my displeasure back to Dick's tomorrow. $25? Not so well spent. Hopefully I can replace it with a new one.
Otherwise, general crappy stuff w/the boy end of things. Not getting into it now.
Goal for tomorrow- Make sure I eat a nice big salad for dinner, and workout at the gym before I come home from work. Return the stupid broken pedometer to Dick's. Take/post some pics. Maybe even paint my nails if I have time.
This might be somewhat ranty, and I apologize in advance.
I went to the gym this morning, and couldn't get into the Body Pump class. Saturdays are usually dead at the gym, but not today, it was slammed! :( So I did some cardio instead because I wasn't in the mood to lift on my own. I weighed in, and I'm up 2.4 pounds. I'm going to blame it on my period, because I've really had one of my better weeks-week and a 1/2. I worked out 6 out of the last 9 days, and aside from a few minor eating things, my caloric intake has been much lower than "usual". Sad. I logged it though.
Also, and totally unrelated to weight- I am supposed to go to a hockey game tonight with my (I guess I should call him) ex boyfriend and his little brother. His family doesn't know that we're not officially together, because he didn't want to tell them yet and I don't really even think he knows it. He's acting like we're together. Anyway, something that drives me crazy is waiting on him to make my own plans. So rather than calling me last night or this morning to let me know "hey, the game's at 7, we'll be over at X time" so that I can plan my day (I'm very big into this, it's important and he knows it), he didn't call until 12:45, after I had left him a voicemail, and was like, oh, yeah, hmm, I'm at work now, I guess we'll be over by 6:00? I asked him about dinner, and he said not to eat and that we'd grab something there. I found that really rude. He's coming over right before the game so we need to rush to the metro to be on time? And then he wants me to what, eat pizza or nachos and soda even though he knows that I've been making an effort?
I guess it makes me realize that maybe this is a good thing. Even though we left it open ended, like, "maybe this will all work out and we'll get back together", I'm not sure if it'll happen. The ball was in his court, he was the one who needed to make changes. I'm not sure if he's capable.
So, in honor of refocusing on me, I'm about to go shower up, clean a bit, then go shopping. I want a pedometer, and I need a new pair of headphones. And, even though it's later in the day than I had anticipated, I have time to go into DC and hit up the market.
Thanks for reading, and sorry this wasn't more "positive".
PS- Why won't my blog show the writing color anymore? So sad!
I went to the track after work today to get in day 1 of week 2 for the running program. Well, walking with some jogging program. Meh, semantics!
As I was finished stretching I was heading out to the track, this kid, probably around 15 was walking off and was like, "yo, man, look out for the goose turds"! It caught me off guard and I was like, oh, um, oh. He walked off wiping his feet, presumably, he did not follow his own advice...
I finished the program without stopping- 5 min warm up, followed by 90 seconds of jogging and 2min of walking, rinse and repeat 6 times with a 5 min cool down. I still had a bunch of energy after, so I decided to walk a few more laps, and, much to my awe and amazement, I actually jogged (well, jogged slowly) for a full 1/4 mile. Twice! Holla! I'm sure I'll be feeling it tomorrow.
I'd like to maybe finally try the Body Pump class at Gold's tomorrow, as per supergirl's recommendation (thanks) even though I'm all sorts of intimidated to do it! Then, since I was paid today (ugh, worst idea ever = monthly paycheck) I might go to the open market in DC and buy some fresh produce and maybe a new pair of earrings or something.
A Wednesday post! My first of the month! I'm awesome!
Things have been going alright. As I mentioned in a previous post my bf and I had a big talk and technically broke up, though he's going to try and work on a few things. He's been trying to be more spontaneous (bought us tickets to the Caps/Wild hockey game last night) and more thoughtful. It's nice, but strange, because we're technically not together, and yet, he's completely acting like we are. Any thoughts on that, feel free to comment!
My eating today was great until tonight, I don't know why I was ravenous and decided that everything in the kitchen (possibly including the sink) was a good idea. Bollocks. I'm not going to dwell, it is what it is, right?
After work today I decided that even though it was 29 out, and even though the wind chill was 19 with wind gusts up to 30mph, and even though I was tired and hungry... I would go to the local track for day 3 of week 1 of my running program on c25k. I don't think my legs have fully recovered in terms of warmth/feeling, hahaha. I was actually pretty pleased with myself for going, but I was quite motivated to complete the 3rd day, so, woot. I also figured out why I was so sore the 1st two times- I had lifted weights prior to the running-ness. That'll do it.
Here's a link to the podcasts I'm using, in case anyone else was interested- I really like them, and while the music isn't what I'd typically listen to, it's really good music to run/walk to.
I'm going to go check up on some of you all! Hiopefully I'll get some sleep tonight too, as I haven't had a decent night's rest since last Friday (I think I'm an insomniac, at least occasionally). Tomorrow I'd like to not work late, go to the gym and not overeat at night!
Eating was pretty good today, probably around 1,650- I forgot my journal at work, d'oh!
I did the 2nd day of the c25k plan, and I'm incredibly sore... again!! Anyone else do/is doing this program? I'm surprised by just how sore I feel, but it's a good thing.
I'm so tired right now- stayed up too late last night a long day today.
