Bleh

So first an apology for my absence on both posting and commenting. I tried to catch up a bit tonight, but I definitely haven't been to all, or even most of your blogs. Things have been crazy busy. Tomorrow's a new day and hopefully I'll be in better spirits.

I've been in the worst mood this week, and I'm not sure why. I think I was pretty bothered by my mom's visit... tom arrived today, so I'm sure that adds to it... work has been frustrating... my knee is still sore (in the back of it)... I don't know, I'm just very negative right now, sorry, I know it's not much fun to read about.

Even though it's only 9:30, and I didn't work out at all today, I think I'm going to head to bed. Hopefully tomorrow will be better- I'll eat better, I'll work out, and I'll just feel happier. Yuck to today.

To everyone who's doing such a great job this week- keep it up, you're going to see great numbers at wi.

Promise to be back tomorrow with something positive!

xoxo

Weighed in, meh!

Weigh in, found me 0.4 lbs down... hahaha, so sad! I really thought I'd be at about a pound, but I guess as I reflect, I did have dessert a couple of times, and I ate some cheese today before my weigh in (bah! sodium!)... Oh well... we'll see what happens next week (tom).

I forced myself to do 30 at the gym tonight. It was a really long day. They're giving me a new student tomorrow- that'll be 24 kids in a trailer. A crappy trailer. Did I mention we have no space OR running water? Whatever. I'm pissed though, because another 3rd grade teacher only has 21 kids... What am I missing?

Well, even though I feel like I've just gotten home, I guess I should head to bed. It's been a long day, and tomorrow will be pretty long too.

Hope everyone is doing well.. I'll try to catch up w/everyone tomorrow!

xoxo

Sore knee!

Happy Easter to all those who celebrate~

Yesterday at T's family's house was really nice. Food, games and fun, mostly. I was glad that I went, but it did make me a little bit sad as I drove home. His family is so genuine, so amazing- it makes me long for when my family was like that, back when my grandparents were still alive. Not much I can do though...

His parents got me an Easter present even though I don't celebrate the holiday. They got me some super cute spring colored candles, some candy and a gift card to Target. Aww... they're such nice people.

I didn't get home in time to work out last night, but I did today, so that makes 5/7 days for the week. A vacation week even~

Today was good... I went to the track and did week 4 day 3 of c25k. Afterwards, I also did an additional 1/2 mile walk and 3/4 mile jog. I think I want to do 1 extra day of week 4 though... It's so weird! Sometimes I have no problems with it and other times, not so much! Week 5 is scary though... day 1- 3 five min runs... day 2- 2 eight min runs... day 3- one 20 min run!

I also did 30 pushups tonite, the girly ones, but hey, it's all good.

My knee is acting up tonight; it doesn't agree w/me trying to become a runner. I actually had surgery on both my knees at age 12, and have been in/out of physical therapy since then. I iced them both tonight, just to be safe.

I hope all the FIT girls have an awesome weigh in tomorrow. I can't believe it's Monday- good bye spring break! I'm sure my kiddies will be glad to be back in school *no lie*.

xoxo

Things to do- quickish post!

My mother just left... yay. It wasn't a super visit. I don't feel like ranting any more negativity, so I'll leave it at that! Today will be a good day.

 I've gotten in some good workouts this week. Yesterday I did the treadmaster for a half hour and also took a 2.25 mile nature walk/hike. It was nice. Saw the cutest little woodpecker! Wished I had my camera.

 I'm finally doing a bit better on drinking! And I don't mean alcohol! Between the water and diet blueberry green tea (which is amazing by the way!!) I feel like I'm doing a better job of keeping myself hydrated.

 Eating hasn't been too bad either. Like last night, I was very stressed out w/my mother, and wanted to eat everything in sight! Instead, I had some raspberries and a granola bar... a bit late to eat, but, it wasn't a slice of cake!

 Unless something goes drastically wrong this weekend, I think I'm on track for a loss this week, maybe around a pound. I'll take it! *Fingers Crossed*

Today I've decided to go to my ex's family easter extravaganza, haha. I'm driving myself though, or else I'd have to sleep over there, and while I like his family, I really don't need to sleep in their basement on the couch w/the spiders, ehhh. I'm not allowed to bring anything, but, that's not how I was raised. So I'm going to shower/get ready now, and then go out and at least get some flowers. I think it'll be a nice day. I could use some "normal" family time, ya know?

Hopefully I'll get home early enough to work out today, and maybe take a bubble bath and read a new book I just picked up (a memoir called Dark at the Roots by Sarah Thyre). I want to make tonight a me-night.

Have a super weekend all!

xoxo

In need of something...

though I'm unsure of what. I'm in a mood tonight, bleh. It's not a pleasant one.

I went to the track this morning and did day 2 of week 4 c25k... omg, it still kicks my ass. I'm going to have to spend (at least) another day or two on this week extra, because it's just not getting easier. My mother accompanied me. That was the most normal part of my day.

We (my mom & I) were driving in the car earlier and I was at a redlight waiting for the green arrow to turn left. It turns, and I start to go, and she starts making these weird noises that sound like a kid making engine revving noises. I ask what she's doing, and she's like, "I'm talking to the cars"... I'm like, um, what? and she repeats, but adds that she's not talking to me. I didn't know what to make of it, was she trying to be funny? Was she scared that I was going and she didn't see the green arrow? Is she okay?? I was like, oh, okay. And she's like, "See, I told you that you were out of sorts because of your breakup!!!" I just kinda looked out the window and frowned. I don't know.

I heard from him *ex* tonight- we still talk regularly- he wants me to come to his family's easter gathering on Saturday. I really like his family, but I don't know. He still calls me "honey" on the phone. I don't know about that, either.

I heard from D, that guy I mentioned a number of posts back... the booty call one? Hahaha... Anyway, he said that he brought me back something (little ethnic trinkets/jewelry) from India, and he wants to grab a drink or shoot pool this weekend. I don't know.

I also heard from my housemate. That probably sounds strange. My housemate, J, is my closest friend down here. He goes overseas for work a lot for months at a time, and has been gone since December. I miss him when he's not around, simply because he can always help me put stuff into perspective. We're "on the level" as he likes to say, *smile*. He didn't sound very good tonight though... He's ready to come home and can't until May. He said he wants us to pack up and move somewhere. He says he's going through a midlife crisis- he's 29. I don't know what to do for him, either.  

So, I'm kinda answerless tonight. I feel down, but I don't know why. I wanted to do a dvd workout tonite, but I didn't. I ate alright though today, even though we went out for italian for dinner. I cut my portion of ziti in 1/2 before I started and boxed it. I had 1 slice of bread. I count that as a victory (it was soo good).

Sorry for the blah-ness tonight. I think I had a chance to catch up on all of your blogs though (FIT) and it sounds like you are all kickin' ass on your diets/workouts. Keep it up! I find you all to be very inspiring.

As always,

xoxo

Stress + Soreness

Today, being a Wednesday is my "day off" from working out. I always take Wednesdays off, but occasionally I'll take a weekend day too. However, my day was spent cleaning and doing laundry, and I live in a 4 level townhouse, so, up/down steps... It counts! Plus I ate less today, so I feel good.

Yesterday I did the C25K week 4 program for the first time, and omg, did it kick my ass. I didn't quit, and I didn't walk when I was supposed to jog, but I don't think I could have done it much slower. What made it worse, was that there were some high school kids at the track w/2 coaches doing all sorts of crazy things, and I kept passing them like, omg, could I look worse comparatively?? Hahaha. When I finished the workout, I was stretching on the fence and one of the coaches came over to me, he was a bit overweight himself. He was like, "keep workin' at it, I admire you. I have no will power to get back into it myself". Aww, score! Afterward, I went to a friend's house (crappy night, eh) but while I was waiting for him to get home I went for a walk jog on the pathway near his house. So, about 70 min of exercise yesterday.

So my mother is on her way... Mind you, I had to call my aunt for confirmation of this as she didn't call me. (Grrr!) Give me the strength, girls! I asked her to call me when she got closer, who knows if she will. She's staying until Saturday morning. I have nothing planned, except for my regularly scheduled workouts. Even though she's coming, I'm getting my workouts in!!! She invited herself, it's only fair...

I'll be online some, but I don't know exactly how much. Don't think I'm neglecting you, FIT gals! I'll be around as much as I can.

Wish me luck!!

I love days off

Oh today was so nice. I slept in. Ate some food. Showered & slept some more. Wooooot. How I love days off!! It's like the movie Office Space- doing nothing is everything I dreamed it could be.

Mind you, I did eventually get off my arse and go to the gym, make a healthy dinner, etc. But still. So nice!

Weighed in for FIT today, and I was so glad to see a loss instead of a gain. Earlier this week I was somehow up to 219.4, so I was very VERY glad to see 214.8 on the scale today. But really, like I mentioned in my last post, what's more is that I'm starting to just feel more fit. I like it, a lot.

So, onward to my mother. My mom and I have never had a really super close relationship. When I was young, I spent the majority of my time with my grandparents on their farm, and with my aunt and uncle. I was closest w/all of them, particularly my grandfather. I spent my weekends there, school vacations & my summers. My mom was always bothered by this, and not-so-secretly hated my independent nature as I grew older. I can't hold it against her, I mean, I don't understand her aversion to my independence, but to each their own. With my recent break up, she's tried to step in and somehow act like we're best friends, offering advice on my relationship status and my workouts (which, omg, I can't stand). I don't need/want/ask for her advice. She takes everything the wrong way, and I'm never sure if she's on medication or not. The things I do tell her get misconstrued and twisted, and somehow I'm always in the wrong. I'm pretty sure she's coming down this Wednesday night and staying until Saturday morning. She invited herself down, even when I suggested meeting up in the middle (it's a 5 hour drive, and she has health issues/shouldn't drive that far on her own)... A number of times. In her mind, I'm sure, she's being heroic and stepping in as the good mom in her daughter's time of need. The problem with all this, is that I'm not in need. And I don't want her to come. I was the one who ended the relationship. I'm okay with this! I'm taking this time to work on myself. Sigh. I'm being a terrible daughter, right? :( I just wanted my only week off to be all about me. Because I'm selfish like that!

I talked w/my brother today, who emailed me about my breakup. When I called him back, he was like, oh, well, they both (mom/dad) made it sound like you were dumped and were really upset. Are you serious??? And then she/they wonder why I don't talk with them about things!

So that's that I suppose. I can't outright say "no, I don't want you to come". I've suggested other plans, but no, she's set on it, for all the wrong reasons. Any advice is appreciated.

I'm glad to see everyone at FIT had a great week- you all are doing fabulously! Keep up the hard work. Sorry this turned out to be ranty! I swear I'm not a totally awful person... Just kinda? Hahaha...

xoxo

Quick and Easy

So I came to the realization that I overuse that phrase- quick and easy- because my students have adopted it as their own. Every year I discover one phrase or mannerism that my students pick up from me, but I'm thinking quick and easy probably isn't an ideal phrase. "Ms. G, we like it quick and easy, why can't everything in life be like that?"

Yah. 'Nuf said.

Well, I got a workout in today, day 3 of week 3 of c25k  an additional 1/2 mile, though I took yesterday off. I ended up working out 5 days this week. My eating was okay today, save for a slice of cake at my friend's parents house. They're the nicest people, but they wayyy over-feed you when you go over. Aside from the cake, I came out unscathed.

My step total for the day was 10,688. I'm seemingly way less active on the weekend! Who knew?

I'm off this week... that's SO nice! I plan on sleeping, cleaning and working out. I'm so dull! Apparently my mother wants to come visit. I'm not sure that this is a good idea. I love my mom, don't get me wrong, we talk multiple times a week, but we don't tend to do well together one-on-one for extended periods of time. Is that awful?

Well, I hope all the FIT gals have an awesome weigh in tomorrow. I'm scared, and saying I'm scared. Earlier this week I was up 3lbs then only up 1.4, then, who knows. I don't know how my body fluctuates a good 7lbs a week. We'll see what it says tomorrow. I'm not going to stress over the scale right now, because I feel myself becoming more fit. I jogged a mile. The level 5's on the arc trainer don't leave me sore anymore, even after an hour. These are pluses. Screw the scale (haha, I say this, and mean this, but a loss would be so nice, right? Ha!)...

xoxo

Green pants? Green giant!

I'm so tired, I'm heading to bed after this post. Today was the last day at work before spring break, and I couldn't be happier. I adore my class, save for 2 of them, (21 outta 23 ain't bad!) but I'm looking forward to the break. I'd really like to UP my workout time this week since I'm not going anywhere/have the time.

I went to the gym tonight, and without thinking grabbed a pair of green pants/capris things and a black tank top to work out it. My giant green ass stood out like a sore thumb, let me tell you, as I was the only female in the place! (And my gym is HUGE, it was this weird boyfest, and none of them were really worth looking at!) I felt like all eyes were on my green ass as I tackled the arc trainer at high speeds for 40 min. Hahaha. It's all good though, goodbye 561 cals.

My step count for the day is 11,742. A bit less than yesterday, but, I'm over 10k, so, that's cool.

I have to help a friend move tomorrow (joy), and I'd like to do week 3 day 3 of c25k.. I hope I can squeeze it in.

To all those goin' out this weekend for St. Patty's day, have fun, but be safe!

xoxo

Allergies gonna knock me out...

I'm currently battling the trees with the power of prescription singulair, and I have to say, the trees are kicking my ass!!!

My allergies have been so bad this week. I went to the gym yesterday, got 26:01 into my workout on the arc trainer (burned 400 cals) but had to stop. I didn't work out today, so I'm going to count this as my off day today. Though I feel bad about it, as I was hoping to try to run another mile... Oh well, there's always tomorrow. I did wear my new pedometer today, and I hit 8,600 steps. As a third grade teacher, I am constantly on my feet! I'm also stuck outside in the trailers, oh wait, I mean "mobile classrooms", so we do a bit more walking... could also explain why my battle with the trees is currently raging as much as it is!

My students today were trying to convince me that I was shrinking, but not in size, haha, rather, in height. They're like, "um, either you're shrinking, or we're growing". I pointed out the liklihood for each scenario, yet they decided that since their clothes still fit right, it had to be me. They declared that tomorrow I should wear high heels, so that they'll feel like they "have their old teacher back". Now, I wear heels, but in the aforementioned trailers, ehhh, I've given up. It's pretty much sneakers, everyday. Plus, I figure, at nearly 5'11, do I ever really need to be 6'2 at work around 8 year olds?

We'll see, tomorrow, maybe I'll humor them. Hope everyone is doing well!