My task this weekend was to go to my parent's farm, and namely my childhood bedroom and clean it out. Seems that since I've been gone for around 5 years now my Mom finally wants to change it into a real guest room, and less of an old teenagers retreat.
7 trashbags. Filled with hundreds of notes passed, old stupid high school photos (I didn't throw them ALL away, but a good deal of them), old school papers, letters, cards, various memories that for the past 5 years I hadn't even thought of.
And I found some pictures of a girl. A girl that really looked like me. A girl that THOUGHT she was fat. A girl that always felt self-consious next to her best friend who was just ONE size smaller than she was. A girl that WAS me, 8 years, and 30lbs ago..
Last night in exasperation I cried out..."how could I have EVER thought I was fat back then! how can I not just lose it? Just 30lbs! That's all!"
And with that cry, I think the light finally came on in DH's head. "You can lose 30lbs" he said softly.
And I retorted that I'd need help. Help and reminder to exercise. Help to eat at home more and eat out less. Help is what I need. Maybe with him believing me more this time, I can do it.
Notice my new tracker? I've set a goal! I'm giving myself 90 days. That will put me at May 31, and hopefully almost 15 lbs lighter. I was gonna shoot for the whole 28.6 that I really want to lose. But I think that a loss of 1.1 a week, is a lot "more attainable" to me than a 2.2 one!
I'd really like to think that once I do lose the weight...I won't let myself gain it back.
Alright..enough rambles for this morning....
well..afternoon PS-I restarted WW today too. Let's hope it sticks this time!
Posted By: ssgreer826
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03/05/2007 10:55
Cheerleader
I'm glad that hubby is going to be your cheerleader. That really helps. My hubby has stood behind me the whole way, cheering me on.
Last night in exasperation I cried out..."how could I have EVER thought I was fat back then! how can I not just lose it? Just 30lbs! That's all!"
Oh, I have had that awful feeling before. I also know that one day I will look back on the body I have now and be surprised that I ever weighed this much. (I hope!)
Anyway, I am glad your DH is supportive. I also think you should post another picture. I think you look like Drew Barrymore, but I can't tell until I see another picture. :)
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03/05/2007 14:46
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I definitely think your goal is realistic. And you know what? Support from partners does really help! Hopefully he can be supportive and make little changes along side you to make this easier on you (i know it helps me when my guy is by my side for walks outside and racquetball at the gym).
As for the Hoodia- i'll let you know how it goes! *crosses fingers* Hopefully I manage to lose even a few pounds this month.
How many of us had our fat persona set down as a teenager when really all we were was absolutely normal. I read somewhere stop waiting to be that thin person and start living as a thin person - yeh -complete with all the confidence, style and self belief but also with the eating plan and exercise habit that at least some thin people must have to stay that way ( they can't all be on a permanent diet can they???? Good luck with the weight loss - if ww doesnt work for you try slimming world its fab!
Oh, I know...I look at old pictures of me and CRY to think I used to think I was fat. I would kill to look like that now!! ::) So now I am determined to find things I like about m yself, like my strong legs.
I agree with Ayala, I saw your pic and thought you looked like Drew Barrymore as well!
That's good that your husband is supporting you. My boyfriend joined the gym with me after I wasn't going as much as I wanted too. He's doing it to build muscle, I'm doing it to lose weight, but it's something we now do together 4-5 times a week!
First thanks for your support on my blog. Second I wanted to say that I could really relate to this post - I can remember thinking I was fat when I was a size 14!! oh if only now!!!
Good luck reaching your goal.....you know you can do it. The support here is great and you are lucky to have a man that understands!! You go get those pounds off
Sometimes I look back at old photos and see myself and wonder the same thing. Before I had my son I was 5'4 and weighed 122-125 lbs. And I seriously thought I looked horrible. Now I think I was crazy for thinking that. I was at a healthy weight. I would give almost anything to be at that healthy weight again. But it's going to take some work. And once we reach our goal we'll feel so much better. You'll see.
I wish you lots of luck with WW. I have a few of the WW cook books. They have some awesome recipes. Maybe I'll share some on my EP blog.
That's what we were - silly. For me it's a little longer - 20 years and now about 25 pounds heavier! I was a size 9 junior and I thought I was fat - hilarious!!! I'm sure if I saw a picture now I would look really skinny to myself!
Hey - we can do it though - the first step is already there (starting) now it's up to us to finish!!
