Spring is in the air

Wow. Where has the time gone? I haven’t been on here in quite some time. I am really sorry I haven’t been here. I have been struggling with 170lbs since I left. Spring is here and it means time to get out and get the garden started and weed and mulch the flower beds. Dalton started Muay Thai and he goes to class on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Marysa started gymnastics on Tuesdays and I feel like I don’t have time to breathe much less type.

I really need to get this butt in gear and get this weight off. I have continued to exercise even more so actually since I started Billy Blanks Tae bo. Whew that one is hard! I have been eating good. I just don’t know why the scale won’t go below 170. AAGGHH I WI Monday and I am ready for a gain. ToM is leaving and I don’t have the gain when it starts but more so when it is ending. Well my time has been cut short again. I will try to check in with my friends and see how you all are doing.

My butt was kicked last night!

Well I attempted to do the Billy Blanks basic bootcamp! Wow! It was dreadfully hard for me. I can barely lift my arms today at work! I know I am going to love the results I am going to get from this.WOOHOO! I only got through the first 30min of it. I believe it is 60min. My kids brought a balloon in the room and got it caught in the fan and I couldn’t get it out and it was already devastatingly hot in there. There was no way I could continue without a fan and I don’t know if I could have done anymore anyway. But you know how you are in a rhythm and once that is broken it is hard to get back to it. I am going to try again tonight although I don’t know if I can do 1 pushup much less all the ones he has you doing!LOL! We shall see.

I have WI tomorrow and I just feel so bloated again. I didn’t eat enough this week to have a significant loss so I am not expecting too much. I just hope I don’t gain. I have only gained once since starting this journey and it isn’t something I want to do again.

I hope all of you are losers!

Rain rain rain

What a dreary day today. It is rainy and dark and the kind of weather you just want to stay in bed for. But no here I am at work since 6:30am and I am sooo tired. I know WAA WAA!

I haven’t been staying OP at all this week. I haven’t been eating enough daily points and NO exercise. I just can’t get motivated.  I have thought about putting my bathing suit somewhere in sight so maybe that will help some. I am supposed to take my kids to swim lessons starting next month. And I have to swim with my daughter still. She will just be turning 3 and my hubby doesn’t think she will be ready to go on her own. Since he works a crazy schedule that puts me in a bathing suit in front of all the people at the YMCA. UGH! I just now realized that only gives me 2 weeks. What was I thinking?? Now what?

I hope today is a slow day at work. I need to work on some menus for the week and get a plan in order. My house is a disaster right now and I need to get some things straight around there. Too much to do and not enough time!

My friend and I went to see the Carebears live with our daughters yesterday. What fun. I really thought it would be horrible but just to see their faces light up was enough. We had front row seats at the stage steps so every time they came off stage to dance our little ones were right there ready to go! They had a blast!

Well I will be back later to post my plans for the week. Any suggestions please pass them one!

Down 2!

Well I had a good WI today. I am actually down 2 lbs! It is so amazing the more I eat the more I lose! Can’t get much better than that! So I think I am going to keep my points where they are.

My sis called and is not coming later and that is real disappointing. I am not going to let it get me down though. NO emotional eating for me!!

Beautiful Spring

Well it is another beautiful day outside and I am stuck inside working! Yuck! My WI is tomorrow and I am not feeling it this week. Earlier in the week I peeked at the scale and was down about 2lbs. But since then I have become bloated again. (What’s up with that?) And just have that “fat” feeling. So I really don’t want to weigh tomorrow. I will because it is going to help me by skipping it. I need to know where I am at!

I am going to switch it up next week and really concentrate on doing this right. I haven’t lowered my points yet and I think I will start the new points tomorrow. It is only a 2 point drop daily, but since I usually use all of my flexies it will be a big drop in the weekly overall. I am ready for it though. Maybe I will get a big loss out of it. Here’s to hoping!

I journal my points daily, but I think I am going to start using the food log on here to give me some calorie and carb input. I don’t usually document those, so it should be interesting.

I am going to go and get some kind of new workout video this week too. I haven’t been able to do my Mtv Grind this week due to TOM. I want to add some resistance or weight training in. I don’t feel like I am sculpting enough. I am only getting the cardio in and that was great in the beginning for the initial weight loss, but now I need more. I have thought about Billy’s bootcamp or yoga booty ballet. I haven’t made my mind up yet. There isn’t anywhere local to get anything so I will probably ebay it. That means I have to wait for it though. UUGGHH!

April Fool's!

Well TOM is almost gone. Thank goodness! I really hope I have a loss this week. I would love to have a big one for a change. I know slow and steady wins the race, but come on!

I have 40 more pounds to go until goal and it is starting to feel like it is going to take forever to get there. I set my goal for Christmas of this year, but I would love to be close while shorts are still in! I swore last year on our vacation by next year I wouldn’t be this heavy! Well we are going earlier than normal this year. I was hoping to be at least 150lbs by vacation, but that isn’t going to happen.

That only gives me 11 weeks to lose 20lbs. If you look at my journey I don’t have loses big enough to do that. And I know that closer to goal I am going to have to plateau. If I only lose 1lb a week, that puts me at 161. That sucks! Even if I can boost it to 1.5lbs I am only looking at 156lbs. If I can pull off 2lbs per week I will be at 150lbs even! Now if I can do 2.5lbs per week, I would be at 145lbs. Not likely!!

I really want to get an elliptical or treadmill for home use. We had talked about joining the YMCA but we live about 20 min away and all I hear about is gas prices! We already travel to town 3 days a week for my son and daughter’s activities. So Hubby is not real thrilled about me going anymore than that. So I guess we will have to see how it goes.

Sun is shinning!

It’s a beautiful day today so far. I think I will get out and get some yard work done. Maybe even wash my car. If Marysa cooperates I will get a walk in too today. I am so excited that it is finally getting warmer around here.

I haven’t been able to exercise much with TOM this month. It has been horrible again. I hope this starts to regulate or I am going back on depo just so I won’t have a period at all. I can’t handle this every month.

I got an email from my sis saying they might be coming for a visit. I am soooo excited. We only get to see each other 1 or 2 times a year. She is in NJ and I in NC. Even though she is 18 yrs older than I am, we have children the same age which is fun for them.

I just tried the WW English muffin with ham and cheese. It was good but I don’t think it will last long for 4 points. We will have to see. Marysa has already wanted popcorn so that smell is calling me. I don’t want to snack this early though. I am sure I will need the points later.

Well I am off to get the day started.

a new day

Well today has been pretty yucky! TOM hasn’t visited me in over a year due to depo-provera. But since Hubby had the big V and I have come off of depo, he seems to want to visit me! How dare he! He came last month for the first time in a long time, very uninvited I might add and had an awful visit. So he decides to pay the same visit again.

 I have always had migraines in the past. So this is something I get to look forward to. I have felt so nauseous today and feel the migraine sitting there on the edge of reality. My beautiful kiddos aren’t helping the situation either. Hubby is at work since he works nights and I am here alone with the hoodlums. Lucky me! They are actually being very good for a 3 and 7 yr old.

 Eating hasn’t been the best again this week so far. I guess the pms last week and it is still lingering this week. Usually I am starving this time of the month but this month has been so different. What gives? I hope I don’t have a gain because of this. It sucks to eat less and gain weight!

Tomorrow is a new day though. I think I will start the day off with some yummy banana pancakes and get my OP day off right.

Weigh In day!

Well , today was WI and I was only down .6. I’ll take it though since TOM is lurking any day. I actually thought I would have a gain this week. I really struggled with my points this week. I had 2 days that I didn’t eat enough. I just wasn’t hungry. I really think my depression is slowly coming back. A lot of the same symptoms are here. I haven’t been sleeping very good and cry for absolutely no reason. I am not going to let it get the best of me this time.

 My goals this week are as follows:

 1-  Drink at least 64oz of water daily.

 2-  Follow my healthy 8.

 3-  Exercise at least 120 minutes this week.

 4-  Remember to take vitamins daily!

 I think that is about it. I have also set up some rewards for my goals achieved.

 First 10%- Tanning bed visits. (175lbs)DONE

 Second 10%- Spa treatments . (158lbs)

 Third 10%-Massage  (143lbs)

 Fourth 10%-GOAL All of the above, all over again! (129lbs)

Well this is my first official weight loss blog.

How exciting!

 A little about me: I am 32 and have been married to my high school sweetheart for almost 12 years. We have 2 beautiful children, Dalton (6) and Marysa (2).

 My weight struggles began after my first pregnancy ended in miscarriage. It was something that devastated me for quite some time. After that I had 2 pregnancies and battled with depression.

 I attempted to follow Weight Watchers last year and lost 14 lbs down to 171lbs. I say attempted because I did not follow as I should and really cheated the system. Needless to say from September to December I gained 23lbs. WOW!

My wake up call came when I saw the scale at my dr’s appointment on 12/30/05. It read 194. The last time I weighed that I was about to deliver my children. I knew I had to break out of the slump I was in and do something. The whole time I was having my physical I was really concentrating on what I could do to lose the weight then it dawned on me to follow WW the right way.

 So the start of a new year became just that to me. The start of a new me. I broke out all of my WW materials and went in full force. No one or nothing is going to stop me this time.

I have managed to lose 20.6lbs so far and am ecstatic. I knew this me was in there somewhere! I found her and she is inching her way out one pound at a time!