Have decided that the whole world is against me. Officially. Full stop. I must've done something in a previous life (or this one) and have screwed myself over.
Car decided to die again on the weekend. AGAIN.
Friday night, driving 70kms home with the boyfriend (luckily) at 1am, and BAM... nothing. No accelorator. Car wouldnt go. Called RACV, needed a tow truck because they wouldnt look at it on the freeway. So waited an hr and a half for a tow truck, finally got home at about 3am.
Turns out i have a broken timing belt. Sound serious? not really. $500 or so (so yeah, bad, but not ohmygodi'mgoingtodie bad).
Here's the catch... if it snapped and wrecked my engine.... it's going to cost big $$. ie: $3,000.
So, you'd think just ONCE i could be lucky? No.... course not! It's going to cost me $3,000!!!
So, not only did i not have a car all weekend and had to stay at home the ENTIRE TIME, but i'm $3,000 worse off for it.
So ultra depressed again. I know it's just money, but still. It just feels like .... i wonder what i've done to deserve all this shit in my life.
WHY CANT THINGS JUST GO OK FOR AT LEAST COUPLE OF MONTHS!?
not a heap to report today. Read another chapter of the book, which is just amazing. It's really clear and plain language - i'm an endomorph (clearly... when i read it all i went OMG thats me) and it described ways that i should lose weight, food i should avoid etc etc. Apparently cardio is the most crucial thing for the endomorph body - i can eat well until the cows come home, but if i dont combine it with a LOT of cardio, nothings going to happen.
This is different than some other 'types' of people - all they have to do is start eating a bit better and the weight just literally falls off.
Am going back home tonight to see the boy and spend the weekend in my home town. It's a friends birthday on Saturday, but i'm driving so i wont drink too much (one or two wines). Will go to the gym first thing in the morning tomorrow:
So i'm reading this new book - Burn the fat, feed the muscle, and man... is it inspiring!?!? If any of you guys want a copy, i can email it to you.
I'm gonna' stick with it, because it sounds so doable. It reccomends basically retraining yourself to have positive thoughts (like imagine yourself where you want to be) rather than having negative connotations in all your goals. So rather than 'i will stop being fat' or 'i will lose all this fat', you should say something like: 'By summer, i will be happy, confident and look hot" with a mental image in mind.
It also says to have:
1. Long term goals: so like 12 months or more. What you'd be like in your wildest dreams.
2. Medium term goals: i'm using 6 months. Attainable, but will take a while.
3. 3 month goals: something a bit easier
4. Weekly goals: ie: to know your on track like lose 2lbs
5. Daily goals: to do's, habits you want to develop It also says to have an affirmation, and to write it down every day - preferably twice daily.
So, i'm going to bore you guys to tears daily on here - i'm going to try and write it here. My goals: (affirmation TBD)
1. 1 year - Get down to 70 kgs. Be a size 12 - 14
2. 6 months - Get down to 80kgs - be a size 14-16
3. 3 months - get down to 90kgs - a comfortable sz 16
4. Weekly (until Monday morn) - exercise at least twice more this week.
5. Daily - Eat every 2 1/2 - 3 hours. Drink at least 2 litres water. Walk for at least 30 minutes.
Does any of you have a special goal 'item'? ie: a special piece of clothing that you're aiming to get into? About a year and a half ago i had these cute little black shorts that i used to wear with a singlet to the beach. I dont know why, but a particular comment about me wearing those shorts has stuck in my mind -
MY BOY SAID I LOOKED HOT.
When i wore them he would obviousy (like most boys, subtlety isnt his strong point) brush past me more than normal, and give me a little tap on the butt. N
ow, he's not shy with positive comments - he'll often tell me a top looks nice, or i smell good..... but this one compliment has stuck in my brain for over a year.
So, every now and then i try to squeeze myself into these cute little shorts. Except, i havent done so for a while. I think i'll wait until i get down to about 95kgs and give it another go. I know i'm not far off - they're quite fitted, tightish shorts... so its just a little bit around the belly area i think. I
guess my main goal isnt so much to make that number on the scales lower (although thats an absolute bonus). It's more to make my clothes feel better. I want to fit in my old sexy dresses, those cute little shorts.
I CAN DO IT! I WILL FIT INTO MY HOT SHORTS.
Thanks girlies, hope you've had a good start to the week.
Happy May!
XX SpArKly_StAr
Food eaten Tuesday (finished my eating: blogging later than normal tonight)
* 1 carmens muesli bar
* 1 granny smith apple
* 1 light vanilla flavoured yoghurt
* 1 small tin of smoked tuna
* 2 salada biscuits
* handful of choc coated nuts
* couple of water crackers with some chilli & nut dip
On Saturday we had a bit of a lazy morning, then visisted my uncle who has recently had brain surgery. Then we drove to Seymour - the place where we spent the weekend.
We stayed at a thoroughbred breeding farm which was amazing. The stables were right near us, but they werent noisey. It was just rolling hills, with lots of birds (especially kookaburras) and kangaroos jumping around at dusk and dawn.
The room was amazing - a HUGE spa with little in built pillows which was the size of a four person spa, big comfy four poster bed and a cute little kitchenette.
I cooked dinner for the boy - a big thick porterhouse steak with a creamey garlic seafood sauce (prawns, calamari, mussels) and some salad on the side. We were so full we didnt get round tot he desert i had planned! (blueberry pie).
I got a bit scared during the night because it absolutely POURED. it rained SO hard, i was almost crying because i was scared tomorrow would be cancelled.
The boy made a beautiful breakfast for me in the morning as it was my birthday. He gave me my presents too - a beautiful diamond heart necklace in white gold, and also a crystal perfume bottle (you know, the one with the puffer thing? it's so pretty)
At about midday we headed off to the rally track. It was kind of showery, but not raining too hard. The boy was SO surprised. He had no idea i had this planned as his birthday present (his birtday was a week before mine)- he got to do laps of this rally circuit in a suburu wrx (his dream car).
You couldnt wipe the smile from his face - he was a very happy boy.
On the food front, this weekend wasnt real crash hot. But, on the happiness front it was - and hopefully my good mood and good life can rub off on to other aspects of my life.
In testominy to that, i went to the gym this morning and did week 1 of the couch to 5k program. So i spent 20 minutes on the treadmill - not awesome, but all i can manage to fit in before work.
I weighed in too, and was still 98.7kgs - so no gain, which i'm ahppy about.
Have a good week girls!
Much love!
SpArKLy_StAr
Food Eaten:
Friday:
2 slices of light rye with margarine
2 slices of light rye with banana
small serve of indian curry with rice
Saturday:
Bagel with cream cheese
Food i cant remember
Small piece of steak, few prawns
Sunday:
Chorizo, mushroom and egg omlette
half a jam donut
subway six inch with chicken fillet
Goal for week:
Gym Monday morning (check)
Gym Tuesday morning
Gym Thursday
Gym Saturday
Gym Sunday
Eat more fruit & vegies
Clean my house on weekend (scrub bathroom especially)
After my small victory yesterday, i was feeling pretty chuffed about myself.
Have decided what to cook this weekend (please dont yell at me guys, it's MY BIRTHDAY!)... *drum roll*
REEF AND BEEF. So, prawns, calamari in a garlicy cream sauce on a big fat juicey steak.
The boy will love it.
He's coming to stay with me in Melbourne tonight, and then tomorrow we'll drive to Seymour where he'll go on his surprise WRX rally drive through the bush. This was his big 30th birthday pressie from me. I KNOW he's going to love it. Am a bit concerned though that the forecast predicts rain, and if it rains too hard it will be cancelled... fingers crossed it's not!
Have a great weekend guys
Oh, and my thoughts are with Incomplete... her precious bunny died yesterday.
I'm sorry. I know this is probably relatively minor to some people... but to me, this is a huge thing.
We went to lunch at the local pub, and i was surrounded by bad (yummy) food choices - CHIPS.... chicken schnitzels.... CHIPS...fried calamari.... CHIPS.... and guess what i had?
Pan seared ocean trout on a bed of mash... and it was DELICIOUS!
**Recipe needed**: Hey guys, i'm trying to make the most indulgent, yummy, amazing meal for the boy this weekend (anniversary!). Thinking of making a big juicey steak with some kind of gravy (mushroom? peppercorn?) and maybe some baby potatoes/mushrooms on the side... do you have any recipe suggestions?! Please post them for me!
Considering we had the day off work yesterday, today feels SO much like a Monday. But HOORAY! It's Thursday - and only two work days till the weekend.
Yesterday was a fairly good lazy day. Am SLOWLY getting over my cold. We went to see Mr Bean at the movies, i shared a medium popcorn with the boy, so not to evil (ie we didnt share a large) and i had a water.
Not much to share today - but thanks for the comments everyone, i really love them.
Food eaten Tuesday:
2 pieces of light rye with butter
2 minute noodles
packet of toobs
stirfry with beef
Food eaten Wednesday:
Cheese and bacon roll
Banana smoothie (low fat milk, honey)
Shared medium popcorn
small piece of lasagne (kangaroo mince, ultra yummy, ultra healthy! almost no fat.)
