| Height: | 165.0cm |
| Start weight: | 100.00kg |
| Current weight: | 95.10kg |
| Goal weight: | 80.00kg |
| Lost to date: | 4.90kg |
| Remaining: | 15.10kg |
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I know this is the second post in the one day, but i need to write this down to believe it.
Maybe this job thing is a positive. It will give him the urge to change his life. ie: he's forced to make a change now.
IT COULD BE A GOOD THING!
end rant.
It just goes too quickly. Especially considering Sunday is consumed by the boy playing sport - i really only get one day!
Friday night the boy came to visit, and to be perfectly honest, we were exhausted. We fell on the couch, managed to get up to cook a quick dinner and then fell asleep.
Saturday we had a good day - went out for brekkie, walked up and down the street looking at shops, then went to watch the AFL game on Saturday night. My team won! I'm a Hawks supporter and the boy is a Saints supporter, so i'm wrapped! We made a bet before the game - whoever lost had to make a roast for the other person. I'm usually the chef in the house, so i'm having a roast MADE for me next weekend. I'm so happy!
Made some good food choices too. Could have easily had a meat pie and a bottle of Coca Cola at the game, but pre-made some chicken and low fat mayonaise bread rolls to take with us. I even bought the boy a sweet from the bakery, and i didnt want one.
I dont know where this self discipline has come from, but i have a lot presently. I turned down a meat pie and coke, turned down a muffin at the bakery, and then KFC last night on the way home from the Gridiron.
Some bad news that i'm kind of stressing about. Just to add to the pile. My boy is a tanner, so he works with leather and grades the quality of leather before it is made into shoes etc. The drought is so bad here, that where he works has had to fire about 20 people this morning. No cows = no leather = no work.
My boy spoke to his manager and he said that he's about 80% sure my boy will keep his job. But still, it's really nervy. The idea of being on one income for a while, and him being so down about it.
He gets depressed really easily. One little kick to his self confidence, and he's down very quickly. For example, if he doesnt get as much time on the ground at football, he'll get a bit upset about it, or if he was to lose his job, he would take it personally rather than rationalising and realising it's just due to the current climate.
And you know what? He doesnt even like his job that much. He loves the guys he works with, but he doesnt enjoy what he does. If he does (god forbid) lose his job, then maybe it's a blessing in disguise?
I guess all i can do is reasure him that he's a fantastic person, a really genuine, caring guy and thats why i love him.
Hope you all had a great weekend.
Welcome back Aly!
SpArKLy_StAr
Food eaten (what i can remember)
Friday
Satuday:
Sunday:
The boy is coming up to stay with me house sitting tonight, which is fabulous. Probably have a lazy night in, maybe get a movie, maybe watch some tv. Something that we both DESERVE and very much NEED.
Tomorrow we're going to hang out with my auntie for a bit, who has just had an eye operation... and then tomorrow night we're off to the AFL to see Hawthorn play St Kilda. I'm a Hawthorn fan, and the boy is St.Kilda - so should be fun! My dad and another aunt and uncle are also coming.
Sunday the boy has to play Gridiron in Frankston - like the other end of the earth, so a big trip.
Eating wise will probably be pretty ordinary - we'll probably get Thai or Indian tonight, tomorrow i'll try and pack some decent food then sunday we'll probably have subway on the way home. Might actually try one of their wraps - never had one before. I guess subway is probably the lesser of all evils.
I know what all you guys want to hear about - the shopping experience.
I thought i'd pop in to my local shopping centre on the way home from work. I'm bored with my work wardrobe (which crosses over to my normal life wardrobe, lots of clothes that mix) and i also desperately need new jeans.
Why you ask? mainly because the two pairs i own no longer fit me! I can get them UP, which is a start.... and i can do them UP.... but they just look terrible. All my fat gets squished up and *shudders* they're just not cool.
So on my mission to buy jeans (ideally under $50) and basically ANYTHING i fell in love with.
Went into about 7 different shops, and found nothing. All the stuff out right now is empire line cut, which doesnt work well with a girl who is *coughs* relatively well endowed. They end up just making me look pregnant.
And i mean, i was DESPERATE to buy something. Like, would've spent money on almost everything.
Couldnt find any jeans that were nice either - when you get around my size they start having too much stretch in them and some even.... wait for it... have elastic waists. YUCK! I need rigid cut jeans, jeans that hold all my fat, not curve around it and make it look more visible.
I'm so picky with jeans.
Part of my brain is saying "dont buy any jeans, they should be your motivation - to get a size smaller or fit into the ones you already have (which are still in great condition)", the other part reallllllly wants some nice jeans.
In the end i walked away with 2 long sleeve tshirt material shirts that i can wear to work (like now) and on weekends. one in a burnt orange/red colour, and the other blue/green.
Food has been pretty good. The boy made a lovely stirfry last night packed with vegies. I've also been trying to get a bit of protein in at most meals.
It's been pouring with rain here the last few days. Which is good i guess - we're in a massive drought, and the farmers sure need it. Means my grass is actually growing too rather than just being a bit dust bowl - which kinda sucks 'cause it means i have to mow it. Rain is just so depressing. It's hard to be cheery when it's raining. Winter is certainly here.
Hope you have a great weekend guys, mwah!
SpArKLy_StAr
Food eaten yesterday:
Today so far:
Apparently that means Thursday in Italian.
Had dinner with my friend last night which was great fun. History of this is that she and i used to live together with another girl. Had a bit of a fall out when we went our seperate ways - i've caught up semi-regularly with the girl i had dinner with, and not at all with the other girl.
Our lives have progressed in fairly similar ways. At first thought you'd think that was normal, but so many of our friends are still doing the same things they were doing 3 years ago. And that's okay - each to their own. I'm not judging your life choice, and i dont expect them to judge mine.
So our lives changed similarly - we both met boys, moved in with them, talking about moving away/buying houses etc around the same time. So it's all good.
Pub was nice. It was one of my favourite pubs - great food at REALLY good prices, good atmosphere, pretty decor. Nice.
UNTIL.... a guy i used to kind of date/see turned up. We hooked up like, 4 years ago? I saw him, but completely avoided making eye contact or acknowledging him. I know he noticed me and was looking at me - and i felt so hot too (if i do say so myself). Like straight from the office, knee length tight-ish skirt, white shirt, knee high boots, stockings.
Didnt even mention him walking in to my friend - so unsure if he saw him or not. That was probably a good thing - she didnt really like him much, largely due to how the ''thing'' with him ended.
Basically, he was a guy that couldnt keep his mouth shut and thought he'd be a bigger man if he told people around him how great he was in the sack (debatable!) / what was going on with us.
And besides,
I'm happy now.
I'm really, really happy in my relationship.
It's been over 2 years, and i still get butterflies in my belly.
I'm happy.
...... but still. It's always a bit weird to see someone you had a 'thing' with.
So then we left and i sped away in my new (equally hot) car.
Food wise was meh, but one positive thing was that i didnt gorge myself. I left some stuff on the plate. I think i'm scarred from a childhood of my mum telling me not to waste food / you need to eat all your dinner to get desert type stuff.
I had the porterhouse (well, 3/4 of it) and some chips - only about a hand ful. And a couple of pieces of garlic bread. It was great!
Thanks for all the messages peoples, i really, really enjoy them!
Oh, and i have to buy an engagement present for someone i dont know (workmate of the boy, and we all know how boys are with buying presents). They already live together, so assume they have housey stuff already. Any suggestions?!
SpArKLes.
Food eaten yesterday:
Today is humpity hump day - and i'm feeling it.
Have been really busy at work the last couple of days. Am definitely counting down to my holdays - only 10 weeks to go! *sighs*
Then i'll be heading up to sunny QLD (north of AUS... i'm in the south). Hooray! Am v.excited, and it'll be dead in the middle of winter, so it'll be pretty warm up there (about 25 degrees celcius/80 fahrenheit in QLD, 12/55 where i am)
OMG I forgot to tell you.... i got my car back yesterday! So very, very happy. The mechanic was so good. My boy went in to pick it up at around 3.30pm and it wasnt quite ready. So they said they'd drop it off to my house that evening. My boy went out for about 15 minutes to pick me up from the train station, and of course they dropped it off then. So they hid the key for me (i found it). Then later the mechanic dropped back in to make sure i got the key and he got the right house and stuff.
Talk about good service!
So went back home to pick it up, spent the night with the boy - although we only saw each other for about 15 minutes because he had Gridiron (american football training).
They lost on the weekend, so got NAILED at training... was so funny!
Tonight i'm going back too because i'm having dinner with a friend, and then i'll get to see the boy a bit more. Hooray!
Then Thursday i'll drive back to where i'm house sitting and spend thursday night there alone... then Friday the boy will come up and we'll spend the weekend together house sitting.
WOW, the week sure does go quickly.
On Saturday we're going to the football (AFL - www.afl.com.au) which will be fun.
OH... and my sister is going on a DATE.
DATE.
MY BABY SISTER.
Well, she isnt that much of a baby really - she's 19. But she's been in a really, really shit relationship for like a year, and they broke up about 2 months ago. I'm talking domestic violence, physically and mentally abusive. So it's really good she's moving on with her life.
The guy sounds fairly reasonable, although me being the over protective sister (particularly in these circumstances) is very judgemental!
Food was pretty reasonable yesterday. Not sure how it'll go tonight because i'm going to a pub with a friend - if i drink (if) i'll limit it to one wine. And, lets be honest - i'll probably have some chips. But that's okay - i havent had them in ages. I'm also really craving steak, so am going to listen to my body and have one. I must be lacking iron.
Love youse all (in her best Kath'n'Kim accent http://www.kathandkim.com/ ... you americans might not get it)
SpArKLy_StAr
Food eaten yesterday:
So i'm going to keep blogging occasionally just so i dont get out of the habit.
Same as my own food diary that i keep in my hand bag - if i stop, i wont get back to it
But the pressure is off - i'm not going to feel guilty if i havent done this/that for a couple of weeks. But i'm still going to make better choices about what i eat.
Unfortunately the exercise is on hold for a bit until this foot gets better.
Nothing much is going on in my life at the moment. Same old work, waiting for car to be finished, waiting for bank to give me some money so my car can be paid for, work, hopefully going to see the boy when my car needs to be picked up (*sigh* i cant wait to finish house sitting)
One of my biggest challenges will be cutting out those white processed carbs again. I love them SO much. Like, I cant express how much i love them. It's an intense and passionate relationship. Me and the white bread/white pasta. I get excited just thinking about them.
Again, it's habit. When i'm back to doing proper shops (ie when i have a car and am cooking for 2), i'll be more inclined to buy wholmeal or rye bread, and simply not buy/eat white rice and white pasta.
Hrrmm... hope all you guys are well.
SpArKLes
Food eaten yesterday:
Total carbs: about 54395034432645612
I think i just need to give up this weight loss thing for a couple of weeks. This is mainly because:
I HAVENT REALLY BEEN DOING ANYTHING TO LOSE WEIGHT.
So maybe i should just try and be a little concious of what im eating/doing for the next couple of weeks, and then when i'm back home i'll make more of an effort to do stuff.
I'M NOT MAKING EXCUSES FOR MYSELF.
I really am going to get that routine back in shape when i get home and are cooking for two people who want to loose weight, and have a gym.
I just cant do it right now.
I went for a run/walk on the weekend and tore ligaments in my foot/ankle. So i'm out of action for a couple of weeks - can barely walk let alone do anything strenuous.
All the exercise i managed to do was mow the lawn (how hardcore is that!?) and do half a run.
So i never made it to the gym, and therefore never weighed in.
Might keep blogging occasionally until then, mainly for food, but i'm going to get SERIOUS when i get back home.
SpArKLy_StAr
So the weekend has finally rolled around... yay! Also spoke to my mechanic yesterday, and he said my car should be ready around tuesday or wednesday. So things are looking up!
Spent last night with the boy and am going back home again tonight for the weekend... and then i'll probably spend a couple nights apart early next week, and then it'll ALL BE OVER!
I can finally fit back into normal life routine. As much as i've loved house sitting (and it means i'm 15 minutes from work rather than 1 1/2 hours), i am really, really keen to get back into a routine.
Back into meal planning (we stick loosely to the CSIRO diet), back into regular exercise (body combat mondays, run at the gym tuesdays and thursdays and saturdays). OOOOH who would've thought i'd have gotten excited about routine!
Heading out for lunch at the pub - different pub than last time, so no ocean trout/salmon option. I dont like the pub we're going too much - all the food is really oily, all fried, and generally not nice. But, it's next door to our work.
I ordered what i think is one of the healthiest options on the menu - nachos. It was that or something like a chicken schnitzel and chips or deep fried fish and chips. No thanks. nachos for me.
Food eaten yesterday:
Today so far:
I plan to go for a run tomorrow morning, then we'll veg tomorrow night (probably have Thai for dinner and a movie) and watch the boy play his first American Football (Gridiron...hehe) game for the season! How exciting!
I'LL ALSO WEIGH IN WHEN I GO TO THE GYM TOMORROW - actually dont expect any change. will still be around the same mark.
Also, do any of you guys have protein shakes? as in powder? what brand? i'm after a rec
So am at home today. Well, not actually right now, i'm at work... but i spent last night at home.
Which was GREAT. So glad to see the boy, and things are just so much better when we're together. I think just being apart for such a long time was putting a real strain on our relationship, so i'm going to make a concious effort to come to my home town more when im house sitting (well, the 2 weeks i've got left of it)
So i'm much happier now. Which flows on to other aspects of my life.
Yesterday food wasnt too bad.
Hope you're all going well.
Goodluck with the surgery Incomplete, am thinking of you.
Hey guys,
not really much to report. Just wanting to let you know that i havent thrown myself off the West Gate Bridge (Melbourne equivilant of the San Fran bridge maybe?)
The last two days have been dismal eating wise. Yesterday i ate basically sugar all day and ended up with a headache at night (weetbix in the morning, two tiny (like the size of half my pinky finger) choc banana balls, half a salmon and onion sandwich, a small profitierole, small cup cake, biscuits and dip)
Today is going okay - 2 weetbix for brekkie, carmens muesli bar for morning tea.
One advantage of my car being out of action is that now i have to walk to the train station - about 15 minutes each way.
Boy and i have been having a few issues of late, so when my car is fixed i'm going to go back and live with him for a bit rather than house sitting.
Had a few dramas yesterday because he spent $100 on gridiron gear without mentioning it to me.... I wouldnt have cared if he had've said 'hey you cool with me spending this?', it's just the fact that i was so stressed about money, and yeah.
then i told him that i feel like, because i'm the one that generally looks after our money, i spend less on myself. Like i hardly EVER spend money on myself, and when i do i feel really guilty.
I know money is often the reason couples break up, and i dont want us to get that bad - so i'm going back to stay with him as soon as possible
Oh, and yeah... car is worth fixing. It's worth about $12,000 ... and after chatting to the mechanic, there's absolutely nothing else wrong with it (fingers crossed)... sooo.....
