Back on Track!
First of all, thank you so much for the comments. It helps to know that there are people out there who understand what it's like and will support you.
Well I had a big long talk with my mum on Thursday Night, we were both trying to work out why we couldn't stick to the plan. We kept coming up with all these reasons, then we played with the idea of trying Cambridge Diet again... But if we can't cut down on food how are we going to cut it out?
We were trying to work out all these ways to help us lose weight, and I said that at the end of the day it's common sense - you burn more calories then you consume! That's it, it's that simple!
Now I played with the idea of doing something like 'instictive eating' or Paul McKenna, but at the end of the day I don't stop eating when I'm full - I just don't!
I actually grew fed up with myself moaning about it all the time. Why am I fat? Why am I overweight? Simple answer, because I eat more then I burn up!
So I wrote out my 'main meal' menu for the rest of the week, although it looks like that's going to change as I was talking to a couple of people at work today about food, and they mentioned things like Knorr Sizzle and Stir, and I remembered using a Homepride BBQ sauce which was lovely - we had it with chicken, and then baked a potatoe each, and then cut them into quarters and sprayed them with some more fat and cooked them for a further 20 minutes - Lovely potatoes wedges.
Then I remembered that the first time I lost weight I used to eat stir fry veg (with chicken), not every day but it's a meal I haven't had in years. And we came up with a few ideas for pasta - I'm not a big fan of the sauces, but we came up with ideas for cold pasta salads which I enjoy.
I'm out for a meal next Wednesday, but I can still stick to the plan for 5 days (including today) before then. I'm not going to worry about saving points, and on the day I'm just going to have my usual breakfast, a small but filling lunch (soup and a roll) and then whatever I want for the meal. But this time I'm going to stop before I'm bloated, before I feel like I need to roll home because I can't move. Not to help lose weight, but because I know that I'll enjoy it more then!
Also, I'm only going to weigh myself once a month, I weighed myself at the beginning of this week, but I've probably put on some weight since then, so I'm setting my starting weight at 14st. From now on my weigh day is going to be the 1st of every month. My weight flutuates so much over the weeks (fluid etc) that getting weighed monthly will give a better picture, and it means I don't think that a whole week is ruined simply because I've been out for one meal!
I used to get weighed every morning and it decided for me what mood I was going to be in and how good I was going to be on the diet or if I even followed it that day. Getting weighed once a month, as long as I'm sticking to the plan I'm guaranteed a weight loss, whether I've had a meal out that month or not!
I feel really positive, and think I may have had the click again - although only time will tell.
Thanks again for the support, it really helps! 