I don't know what to do. I'm really struggling, I've fallen off the wagon big time. I haven't followed the plan for more then a day for a few weeks now.
I just keep thinking, if I ever lose the weight I'm still going to be on a diet the rest of my life, I'm still going to be watching what I eat.
I'm fed up with obsessing about food, I've had enough. It's on my mind all the time, whether I'm hungry or not. During the last few weeks I have I purged, vomited, and purged some more. I don't consider myself to be bulimic. I don't set out planning to vomit, I just end up eating too much (I can't stop, even when I feel sick I continue) and then feeling ill. There's no regularity to it either, it's not like it's a few times a week or something. Anyway, that's not my point.
I desperately want to eat healthily, I desperately want to KNOW how to eat healthily. I know that the way I follow WW isn't healthy, I eat too much rubbish. I know the way I follow SW or any other plan isn't healthy, because I eat the same thing all the time.
I don't know of different meals to try, I pretty much have the same meals every week. I don't know how to cook, I'm too lazy to learn. I can't afford a meal replacement diet, and even if I could I don't have the will power.
I really hate myself right now, and can't see any light at the end of the tunnel. I just feel like I'm going to be like this forever. I'm so tired of hating myself, of not being able to look in the mirror, of eating for the sake of it.
How do I fix this? What do I do?
Posted By: Sparkle
Comments to this post:
03/25/2007 17:33
Hey
Hey,
I think your first hurdle is to stop the self hate. We all have bad days and bad weeks or months...even bad years, but the most important thing is that you dust yourself down and get back on track. I ahve had a dreadful coupld of weeks....I dont seem to be able to stop eating....to the point where I ate almost a whole packet of Blue Riband bars in an evening!
But, I'm getting back on with it tomorrow...it's a ew fresh start. The clocks have changed so see it as your chance to change too.
You ahve lost a massive 66lb so far, so you know you can do the rest....you are over half way now.
I'm lazy when it comes to making meals etc, I'll eat anything taht I can put in the microwave....but give me a few ingredients and I cant be bothered. You could try stir fry or something, thats healthy and you can buy the veg and sauce ready to mix...it only takes 5 minutes to do. Try low calorie ready meals like pasta things? weight watchers sachet soups are nice with a slice of bread for lunch or a salad. Breakfast you could try a 1egg omlette with tomatoes and mushrooms or something? T
The main thing is though...to keep going. You know you can do it and with a bit of support., IM sure you will get over this ough patch!
If you want to chat or need a bit of motivation, just give me a shout!
Ok now hold it, there is a light at the end of the tunnel!!! You sound like you're ready to give up and you really need to stop thinking like this. You've done so much already and you have been successful! So you've had a hard time. You can get right back with the program. You can! You can do this and you know it because you've done it!
You deserve to be healthy and happy so the first thing you should do is stop talking down about yourself. Look at your successes. What has worked for you in the past can work again, or if you want to try something new maybe you should.
It sounds like you are worried about eating the same thing all the time because you are on a specific "diet". There are diets out there where you can just focus on eating healthier whole foods in small meals throughout the day. Do some research online and I'll bet you'll find something like that, or even try it out for yourself and allow for one day a week where you can splurge a little on the junky foods you enjoy.
Just remember that you are worthy of being healthy and that you can do this.
