Why do I bother to blog at all when I can come here and read all of YOUR lovely blogs? I get so much entertainment and encouragement from them!! I could sit here for hours just reading away at all the new posts that come in. Does it sound like I don't have a life?!? LOL - Actually, I'm busier than you-know-what, but it's nice to "get away" and read some of what everyone else is going through. I just had a "I NEED TO EAT EVERYTHING" moment. SO...I grabbed a South Beach cereal bar (140 cals) and 32 oz of water. Seems to be helping, although I feel shaky and I'm suffering from a headache on top of it. I have to wonder if it's some sort of withdrawal. I had manicotti (south beach) for lunch. I've really just been totaling my calories each day and eating under 1200 and really pushing the water. I've been see-sawing between 147 and 145. My goal is to get down to 142 by Monday. Doable? I dunno - but it sounds good. :-)
OK, so it's been awhile since I blogged....but I'm still alive and well. I've been hanging in there with the weight loss - some good days, some not-so-good. If I'd have stayed with Jenny, I'm convinced I'd have dropped more than I already have, but it's still coming off slowly but surely. I'm setting small, mini goals - to kind of keep me "going" with losing faster. I think the lack of accountability with my counselor at JC has allowed me to be "not-so-strict" with myself when it comes to eating "normal" stuff. I guess it could be worse. I'm still counting the calories, but I'm not pushing the water like I know I should....and I'm convinced that has a major part in weight loss. If I know this, why don't I do it? I mean...how hard can it be to drink 8 glasses of water? Ugh....my tongue can taste the chlorine and other "stuff" in the tap water now as we speak...BLAH! I do drink Crystal Light - but I think that only counts for 1/2 your water intake at JC (maybe b/c of the artificial sweetener in it? I dunno...) Anyway - that's a goal for me - DRINK MORE H2O!!
OK - that's enough for now. I'll post more later. Have a super blessed rest-of-the-week!!
Thanks to all of you for your encouraging words as I battled through falling off the bandwagon for good or not. I got on my JC scale this morning and I'm down to 146.2! Amazing! I think that going "off" for a couple of days and hopping right back on made me drop some water, maybe? Anyway - it was enough to give my self-esteem a boost. Just what the doctor ordered!! LOL Also - I spent 4 hours at the hairdressers last night (Toni and Guy). Got myself a WHOLE new look - some major highlights, layers and just an overall "hip" appearance. I needed that. I would highly recommend to ANYONE that they go and treat themselves to something like a new hair style for a good boost in their self-esteem. It really works!
I hope everyone's hanging in there. I can't tell you what it meant to get some encouraging words from you guys. I'd have given up a long time ago if it weren't for some of you. :-)
OK, so here's the story. The last 2 weeks, I went off Jenny Craig thinking I could do my "own program" by buying Lean Cuisine meals and Weight Watcher meals and it was SO much cheaper. I also made my husband promise me that he would be my accountability partner to weigh-in every Monday with on my Jenny scale. I don't understand - my weight is creeping up again. I think not spending $100/week on food is allowing me to "go off" here and there and not worry about it so much. I'm royally depressed at this point as I want to lose in the worst way!! Why do I have to spend so much $$ each week just to STICK to a program? I know it's all a mental thing... Anyone have any ideas? Please don't tell me that I'd be spending the same amount on food whether I was at Jenny or not - cuz I don't. I am an avid coupon shopper and I get my groceries for next to nothing (and that's a whole 'nother story - I have a way to double coupons when they are on sale and get my items for free or NEAR free and STOCK UP - can't really go into any more details now without starting a whole new blog...LOL) So - I'm not used to spending that much $ on food and now I'm battling with paying 2 mortgages until my house sells. HELP!! Ideas? Anyone?
I gained 1 lb in the last week. Enough said. I even biked 8 miles yesterday .... I'm SO disappointed. This sets my goals back. I guess I'm not working hard enough at the program. Oh, I could just scream! A good way to start the week (Monday morning), huh? I wanna go back to bed.
Well, here it is Saturday morning. First thing I did today was weigh myself to see if the bowl of cereal I ate last night took a toll on my body. My JC scale showed 147.0. That's 0.6 lbs. more than the last time I weighed (Monday). I'm hoping that I can drop back down with a lot of water and some major discipline. I don't know why I caved last night - actually, I do. I'm so stressed. We closed on our house yesterday and the (now previous) owners are still living there 'til April 30. We bought their furniture along with the house as they are down-sizing - and my fear is that they will trash it all. They are such a nice elderly couple; however, ya just never know! I guess I shouldn't even worry about what may never happen. I think that's why I gave in though to eating my weakness (cereal!). OK - on the brighter side - it's gorgeous out and I should just get out of my PJs right now and do something FUN!! I have spring fever BAD!! So - I'll try to post more later.
I forgot to add - sometimes eating a salad out is more detrimental than eating something else, depending on what's ON the salad. I've been ordering the mandarin chicken salad at Wendy's with low-fat honey mustard with the almonds and oriental stuff - turns out it's almost 600 calories for that salad!! Wendy's will give a nutritional guide for you to review. Turns out, I would have been better off with the grilled chicken sandwich - even with all the fixings, it's only 300 calories! *hmph!*
Just goes to show that you think you're making good choices out to eat and just the contrary! Oh well...live and learn!!
OK, so I step on the JC scale I bought and it doesn't show a difference. Why do I sabatoge myself with depressing thoughts that I didn't lose anything between weigh-in times? I try to keep telling myself not to get discouraged. I know the weight can fluctuate at any time depending on a lot of factors. I feel great and my pants/shirts are all baggy on me. I did try on my bathing suit last weekend and I still didn't like the way my belly looked in it - so, that's incentive to keep going. LOL We're closing on our new house tomorrow (well, it's not "new" but it's new to us) and it has a pool - so I'm determine not to show off my flab this summer to friends and family. I can honestly say that I've never been this motivated before. I'm really pushing the water and trying to make excellent food choices for snacks and such. We'll see what the scale says on Monday - it might be time to incorporate more exercise to my regimen. At any rate, I'm pleased with my inches lost and will just keep truckin' along.....
Wow, I need to stop going out to eat! What a waste of money when I have all these JC meals sitting at home and all I order out anymore is salad anyway!! The JC meals are really starting to hurt the budget, so hubby and I are trying to hit Wal-Mart for a "cheaper" version of food (WW meals - counting calories, etc). I know this time around is different and I've already lost 17.2 lbs, so I'm not about to blow it now. If this doesn't work for a week, I'll have to call my JC centre and start again with buying their food. Until then, I have to be strict with myself and hang in there. This is going to be a challenge, but I think I'm up for it. This weight loss stuff is serious business for me now... There's no turning back at this point! Besides...the comments about my weight loss by my friends who can "see" a difference are INCREDIBLE!! I'm loving every minute of it!! Wish me luck....
I'm not going to say much - but I struggled today and I struggled badly. Ate a cookie or two that I shouldn't have - added on another 200 calories maybe - which stinks. Could've been a whole lot worse as I was surrounded by a table full of JUNK tonight. I don't know why I'm so hard on myself. I really should realize that this weight isn't coming off over night. I guess I just don't want to be the heffer I am come summer time when everyone's out there walking around in their little sun dresses and skimpy bathing suits. I just feel like with every bite I take of something that I shouldn't be eating, I push this journey off another week or 2 - and that really reaks!!
OK - I need to stop complaining now. I should be glad that's ALL I ate with my buddy "red" visiting this week. LOL I hate that time of the month!
G'night....and may tomorrow be one more day closer to goal. If note, let's promise not to beat ourselves up over it....it'll come!
