sLOWLY BUT SURELY!

Getting there one step at a time!!!  Lots going on...long story short...getting separated after 21 yrs ...my decision but still not easy one.  But still losing weight and feeling great about that!  Even went last week for a photo session...that`s a real therapy I can tell u that!  Probably post 1 or 2 when I'll get them.  Another wild thing I did which was something I've been thinking about for a long while and I wanted this to show my determination to lose weight and feel free again:  got a tatoo on my lower back!  A dragon with 2 chinese symbols :strength and courage.  Maybe I'll post a picture of that too lol...  Hope everyone is getting ready for swimsuit season!!! 

another milestone!

Yeah I did it!!!  20 lbs less than when I started!!!  That's because I started losing weight before I discovered extrapounds.  Those who think it's not possible ....just believe in yourself and start believing that it can happen!

Hope you all have a nice week! 

it's been awhile...

I know it's been awhile but haven't had much energy to write lately...just going to work and taking care of the kids was enough.  Haven't stopped taking care about my weight loss and haven't started eating away my emotions...except maybe for one night I drank 8 beers lol (lite of course lol)

Just to give you all some news ...and that I'm still winning the battle against bulges!  Can't wait for the snow to melt...today nice and warm outside 10 °C.

Even lost another pound!

hard week emotionally

yeah this week was hard emotionally and luckily the emotions were so intense I couldn't even eat bad food because my stomach was all in knots.I could have tried to eat my emotions away but not this time...this road to losing weight is not an easy one but I know at the end I will have conquered my fears.  I will come out of this a winner and will never again let emotions control my life!  Life is too short and I want to feel free of weight and burden of my past!  Hope u all have a good week and that the sun continues to shine!  Of course I lost weight this week but mostly because I couldnt eat much!!!

so much to lose...

and so much to gain!  And for the gain I'm not talking about pounds!!! lol

If my memory is good, and it inspired me so much, it's Crystaldragon that said so well... I want to be free!  Free of what?  Of these extra pounds and the power of food over my emotions!  Don't we all want to be free and feel good again about life and ourselves?  I know I do and will never again let food control my life even though I'm realistic, sometimes I will fall off but I know I have the POWER to get back on!!!

Another week has passed and my energy is up and I lost another pound!

still on a roll...

went to my karate class tonight, even though I would have stayed home!  Felt tired because didn't get a good night sleep because of fibromyalgia pain in my legs.  But once there the endorphins kicked in and the pain was less bad.  I'm going to pass my first karate belt on the 29th of march and am a little bit nervous but know I can!  Good day for food choices too!  Hear fron you soon... 

let the sunshine in...

...and the snow will melt and spring is just around the corner.  Birds were singing this morning and I felt like singing:  let the sunshine, let the sunshine, let the sunshine in (for does who remember the musical ¨Hair¨).  I feel good and positive today !  I'm a aquaform teacher(aerobics in water) for the past 20 yrs and even though I've gained weight , I put my pride aside and showed them that even when your overweight you can still exercise!  This morning I gave 2  classes to the elderly and they thought I was in pretty good shape this morning! lol!  I gave them my 100% and it felt good!  10 lbs less you can feel it in your body...so if anyone out there hesitates to exercise when overweight...just do it!  one step at a time and if you like water that's the best way to go because the water supports your weight and you can give it your max!!!  Put your pride aside and reach for your goals!

10 pounds less!!!

Yahoo!!!  Even if I fell off the wagon for a moment I didn't let myself back in the same pattern of self destruction!  In 2 months I lost 10 lbs!!!  Just doing the right choices helped and it wasn't too hard.  Seeing the results is  the best motivation there is!  With the nice weather to come...not right now...got 35 cm of snow yesterday, I'm thinking of starting to jog.  The last time I jogged was when I was 17 yrs old!!!  It sould be wonderful to get that feeling again, that drive of adrenaline!!!  Well so far so good.

Fell off the wagon!

But just for 15 mins.!!!  My daughter came back from spring break where she went to a school exchange in Belgium.  Lucky her!  But what are the Belgium people known for??? CHOCOLATE!!!  Well she had brought some back and it was good while it lasted... 4 pieces!!!  Went this morning to karate class, 2 hrs, and worked my butt off!!!  Now I don't fell as bad ... we'll see tomorrow on the scale...and if there is no loss, well I will know why!!!

Trying hard

Trying hard to eat well... but today was a busy one!  Ate good breakfast at home then lunch on the go in the car.  Good choice:  Tim Hortons ham&swiss cheese whole wheat bread and coffee without the doughnut!  Finished work at 7 pm and hadn't eaten since 12:30 so was starving and no energy left!  Well caved in a little bit and ordered at Mc Donalds a chicken sandwich with fries and diet coke.  The fries I didn't order them but then the cashier convinces me (lol) that it wouldn't be that more expensive...so in the car they went!!!  Took about 10 of them and while driving they fell down onto the floor!!!  Is that fate or what!?!  I guess I shoudn't eat them!  Well tomorrow I don't work as much so I'll try and eat better and at least sitting down at the table instead of the car!!!  I didn't weigh myself yet and I'm trying to wait till Sunday, that's usually my D day!  I've got lots of problems not to weigh myself every day...sometimes it's good and sometimes it's bad because your weight changes so much from one day to another.  Tired...so hear from you soon