12/02/2011 10:30
Thanksgiving BLOW OUT
Remember how I said I was lo-carbing it? Remember?
Well that went out the window once I got to Mum's and saw her HOMEMADE from scratch apple and pumpkin pies.
Hrrrrng. And pretty much since then it has been a downward spiral. So, here I am on Day TWO of induction again, trying to get back to the lo-carb way of life I was living for TWO MONTHS before I cocked it all up with pie, sweets, chips, and junk. Groan. I am so disappointed in myself. I was doing really well, and woudn't you know it- I eat badly for 4 days and WHOOOMP my jeans are tight as hell again, I feel fat and puffy, and just....ugh.
Off now to do the cross trainer and try to get through another day of HORRIBLE CRAVINGS caused by eating sweets again. I was gettting to a point where I wasn't craving junk anymore, at all, or if I did, the craving would just pass. NOT ANYMORE.
Sigh.
Ok off to sweat.
11/18/2011 14:16
Well...That Didn't Last
Hm, scales back up to 193 now. Weird. For a few days they read 196 again too. I'm exercising, drinking like 4 litres of water a day (and consequently LIVE in the bathroom, it seems) and am eating low-carb, lots of veg, and lots of protein.
I have no idea what my body is doing.
Oh well.
I'm sticking with it, though it's tough and I desperately want a GIANT tin of the Christmas candies I see laying around in EVERY shop for half-off.
Hrrrrrng.
Gotta stay positive. I want to fit into size 29 jeans comfortably. I can't keep being a sausage forever.
10/27/2011 16:32
CRAVINGS
Unbearable cravings here at the end of week 3....hurrrrrrrng. Also no more weight lost, beginning to wonder if 86 kilos is my destiny weight, as I could never drop below it in Paris, either.
FRUSTRATED. WANT CHOCOLATE.
10/25/2011 13:00
Dying Here...
Pfff thought I could manage without carbs, was feeling so positive, but today I AM DYING FOR SOME SWEETS. Jesus, it is bad. I am dying of cravings here. Guuuhhhhh.
WANT....SOME....CHOCOLATE.
Hrng. And at the gym today the scales seem to be stuck at 86. Maybe this is why I am badly wanting to sabotage myself.
At 2 the food delivery arrives and I will make some splenda cream cheese and try to get over the madness....tough day!
10/24/2011 11:40
Week 3
Week 3 already! I'm not sure of my weight, the scale here says 196 and the scale at the gym says 190, so who knows. I think I am going to try to be extra good from now on, and not even go heavy on the Splenda. I have a month before I visit Mum in Germany, and want to be back to my Paris weight of 189. Y is doing really well, according the the scales this morning, he is down to 170! Awesome! Also, grumble grumble grumble, the bastard. Of course he does it in one week and burns more than me in 3. Bloody mens' bodies.
Anyway time to go make some protein-y eggs. Have a good 'un!
10/19/2011 12:01
Fighting the Cravings
So it's Day 9 (10? Who knows) of this way of eating, and I'm badly, badly wanting a cadbury's chocolate rabbit. Why this? Why this odd (and also out-of-season) snack? Well, some STUPID commercial came on this morning while I was watching the news with my coffee that is for 60 calorie hot chocolate. The ad features 3 women each smashing in slow motion various chocolate products. One whips an umbrella though a squishy chocolate cake, the other mashes a box of assorted chocs with a hairbrush, and another, oh another, she hits a chocolate rabbit with a cricket bat.
Hrrrrrng.
Pieces of hollow rabbit come flying towards the screen. I could have LICKED it. Sigh. So now, I sit here nursing a fruit tea and DYING for some rabbit.
Bloody adverts.
Other than that, I'm doing well. Went to the gym this morning, did my weights, was stared at by some long-bearded muslim creepy guy the WHOLE time. Like, if it isn't ok that a WOMAN is here using the gym in this MIXED gym, maybe you should eff off to somewhere else? Or maybe he just really likes seeing chubby girls get sweaty doing the arm curl machine. Creep. Y gave him a dirty look and he seemed to clear off. HA. So that's another addition to the list of Creeps That Stare At Me In The Gym. The lady with her cellphone clipped to her ear with some weird headband thingie is number one, she can't take her eyes off of me. Then this muslim fellow, and finally some old man who needs a walker to get from machine to machine. Awesome.
Anyway, another day, another pound lost (ha I wish), so I'm gonna be tough. I've done too many days now to eff it up with a chocolate rabbit. Not that we have one in the house. We are getting some cream cheese later though, so I will add some splenda, a dash of vanilla, and pretend its a cheese cake. With no crust. Hrrrng.
Oh well! I would rather fit into my jeans than eat cheesecake anyway. Chocolate rabbit though? That's another question...
10/18/2011 10:36
No...Effing...Way!
...
Let me take a deep breath. I weighed myself on the gym scales this morning (this is WITH clothes on) and it said...
86 KILOS
Now, I have no idea how much kilos are, and know that I was about 91 or 92 last week, so that's pretty good, right? I get home, I google how much 86 kilos is...and holy mother of god on a pogo stick, it's
189 POUNDS!!!So basically, I am shitting myself. Ha, in a good way! There is no way that almost 2 weeks of cutting out bread and carbs can do that, is there? Is that's even normal? Is it just water?? Fuck it, I'll take it. SWEET. And it hasn't even been that hard, either. I've been eating lots of meat (yum) and cheese (yummer) and cream cheese with splenda to make "cheesecake" when I get a sweets attack. No worries! If I can keep this up another month, I should, dear god, be at my goal soon!
Also, I put on this pair of Levi's Curve ID jeans I haven't worn in almost a year, since they were too tight, and they are ON. They're not perfect yet, but they came up, did up, and are not making a MASSIVE muffin top anymore. Bizarre. I should have done this no carb thing a friggin year ago. Let's hope hope hope it isn't just retarded water weight or some shit, and the first nibble of bread I take it all comes back. Knowing me, this could easily happen.
Anyway, here's to week 2, keeping it up at the gym, eating well, and being positive. Woop!
And here's me, nerding it up in front of yer typical tourist-y photo phone booth at about 190 (or so the gym scale would have me believe, ha):
Keep it up, SOCK!
10/16/2011 20:36
Week One, Done and Dusted.
Phew. It's over. Week one is successfully under my belt with NOT ONE slip up. Awesome. I can't wait to weigh myself at the gym tomorrow and see if it was WORTH IT. Ha!
Also, I found an AWESOME recipe for lo-card treat time. I was desp for some sugar and found this online:
Mock Danish
2 tbsp cream cheese (nuke for 15 seconds) then add one egg, whip together, add 2 tsp splenda, a bunch of cinnammon, and then micro it for about a minute and a half. Then melt a tiny bit of butter mixed with splenda and cinnammon to pour on top like "icing". It tastes like a danish. It looks like a, well, odd Danish. SO GOOD and only about 5 carbs. AWESOME. It's hot and filling. A new go-to.
Today we walked all over, and I took some nice photos. I shall have to post some here, and maybe we can track my progress.
Weeeeep time to go watch a film with Y, our night treat.
BAH!
10/15/2011 08:54
Restaurant Victory!
Day 6 and chugging along. Thankfully I am so busy the days seem to fly by!
Last night I went with Y to his lecture at Kings College (well, I sat in a nearby cafe and nursed a soy latte while he went) and after we decided to try out a famous oyster bar/seafood place off Regent Street. I was so excited- fish is on the "ok" menu for this atkins diet, so I was stoked about all the fish I was gonna chomp. Well, after drooling over the menu, I ordered the fried plaice with eggmayo- perfect, with green beans and bacon. Score! I was so excited to find a meal with no carbs and couldn't wait to tuck in.
So...it came and the plaice was a bunch of little BREADED GOUJONS. Crap. So even though I was DYING to eat them, I pushed them onto Y's plate and ate my beans, eggmayo and lettuce. Then, thankfully, Y had ordered some scallops too (6.50 EACH can you believe it??) so I ate 3 of those. I was full and satisfied and didn't ruin my 5 days of hard work. AND GUESS WHAT? There was a basket of FREE mixed bread on the table, with fresh salty butter and I managed NOT TO EAT ONE MORSEL. As a former (well, rehabbing) bread addict, this in itself is something worthy of a medal. For serious.
Anyway we ate, and then walked to the Tube (after a soy coffee at another place) and I ended up doing 9700 steps on top of gym and diet, so I think I should be losing, losing, losing. I hope it just isn't water weight, though. I did find some ketostix at the shop and according to the results, my body is in ketosis, which is good I suppose. I tested Y's pee this morning to make sure they weren't bullshit and his came out negative whereas mine comes out neon purple, so...I think they work. Gross!
Today is the last day of the gym for the week (Sundays are days of rest, ha) and after I am going to try this recipe called a Mock Danish- apparently by microwaving eggs and cream cheese and a bit of splenda and cinnamon, you can recreate a "bready" Danish. We'll see. Sounds a but dubious to me. I watched a video of a dude preparing it on YouTube and I couldn't focus on anything but how retarded he was. Like seriously the goofiest mofo you ever saw- stumbling through a recipe with 3 ingredients that basically requires microwaving. Tough job, I guess he was overwhelmed. Pffff.
Anyway I am off to the gym- weights and cardio today GROSS.
A bientot!
10/14/2011 12:18
Holy Mother of Meatloaf
...
So I stepped on the scales at the gym this morning, admittedly after a run and cardio session (however I was drinking over a litre of water while I did it) and the scale read 88 kilos!
SQUEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAL!
According the handy google, this is 194 pounds! So in 5 days I have lost 6 pounds?? Is this possible? THANK GOD is all I am saying. I'm sure it is water weight, I am pissing like mad (sorry if tmi) but hey, I'll take any motivation I can get.
So yes, off to make a mega egg/mushroom/celery/worcestershire sauce (yummier than it sounds, believe me) scrambled platter and get ready for the day. I really REALLY need to do my Finnish lessons. I've not studied and I seriously am sucking at it. Maybe I will quit, I can't be bothered to learn if we aren't going to Helsinki for Y's job anymore....although he got an email about a position in Bonn, Germany. So maybe my years of German in school will finally pay off. Na, endlich! Ich hab fast alles vergessen.
Ok everyone, good weekends, and godspeed!
