It is very exciting... I see the Doc tomorrow, and I worked out some more head stuff this week. we are well on the way to success! I am feeling the difference in myself, I'm feeling more energetic, and I am not repulsed by myself quite so much, yay! (must stop using exclamation marks quite so often...) Reading Dawn French's book and I just love her and think she is the most inspiring, beautiful person, and she has so much confidence. Confidence totally comes from within. Now to keep working on confidence. I don't want to get to goal weight and still feel like a fatty, so I'm trying to envisage myself like that now.

I'm starting to do stuff more for me this year.

Cleaning at the moment, would love to get house in control, I think it reflects my mental state at the moment.

Got the interview for the job I want...

Nearly at 5kg loss, which is one sixth of the way... Doesn't seem so gigantic a goal when you look at it like that. And one month is here since I begun, and it doesn't seem so long, so I'm sure the next 5 months won't seem slow. Still not craving naughty stuff except chocolate at TOTM. Could this be farewell to the potato and other starchy foods that have had a hold on me for so long? I can only hope!!! Could do with a nice enjoyable glass of wine, will talk to Doc tomorrow. Even the fact that I am holding off considering it, and whether it is worth it, is so huge! I could quite easily down a WHOLE bottle of wine in times passed!

Have had (what feels like) more than my fair share of down points this month, but on the whole, this whole looking after myself thing is really getting somewhere. I feel like I've started climbing Mt Everest and the journey is not as hard as I always thought it would be. Could still be in the honeymoon phase, and I'm sure there's challenges ahead, but at this rate, I almost feel I could achieve anything.

Well today is weigh in day, and I have lost 0.6kg, which is great! I was sneaking peaks at the scales all week and they were saying I wasn't going down, so I am thrilled I have had a loss. Especially after losing so much so quickly, I thought it might all take a bit of time. Weather has cooled down alot, so that will help with the exercise this week. It has really helped my frame of mind seeing that, I think sometimes it feels like I will never get there, and just like that I am down to 96, it seems a little more achievable now. I was just saying last night, think of all the food I have avoided over the last 3 weeks, and wished that all the weight would just run away, knowing what I could have eaten, but I'm changing my way of life, so I guess if I don't reach my goal in the next 6 months as is my goal, well that doesn't really matter, as long as I am sticking to the plan. I think because I'm such a goal driven person I just want to see it and feel it now. And because I have waited so long for this. But as my Dr said, small weight losses are better than putting on the weight. and weight lost slowly has a hard time coming back quickly.

I just can't wait to be light. To continue to enjoy good food, feel healthy, and have a little confidence. Not to feel like I have to cover myself up all the time. What is six - twelve months when it's taken 24 years to put the weight on? Nothing... I'm doing this!

Hello everyone! You know I thought I was just writting alone to cyberspace, and then I checked my e-mail and there is this world of support just sitting at my fingertips! How Could I ever fail with you all sitting there being so encouraging!

I have continued to stick to the low carb diet for the last 2.2 weeks, and to be honest it really isn't bothering me. Normally I start eating more at the thought of a diet, but the weight is coming off and I'm full. I'm not even craving potato's (I KNOW!!! UNBELIEVABLE!!!). If you hadn't guessed, they are my vice!

I'm trying to walk 30 - 40 mins each day to build my fittness, and then I'm going to try and be a bit more challenging and creative with my exercise. My face is looking thinner! My husband even commented! Yay!

I've never succeeded in the long term with weight loss, and this has got to be it, no more yo-yo'ing. I'm eating salads for lunch, more calcium, like I have cheese as a snack. I have scrambled eggs for brekkie so I am full for ages. To be honest with you, I think I thought deep down that I could never lose the weight because I love food so much. I think that's why I'm so excited, because I'm having variety but also nutritious filling food. And eventually when I get the weight off I will be able to have more carbs in controlled portions!

 Why is this year so different? I've discovered my demon and I'm chasing him away! You might say, I have been spending the last 1 and a half years sorting out my mind, body and soul, and now I'm ready for the most positive year with them all.

I am on a low carb diet that my Dr has put me on, and we are sorting out my health issues which is great. One of my major goals this year is health, and my weight and exercise come into this. I want it to all melt away quickly, but unlike many of my other short successes, this time I'm ready for the long haul. And I've made a committment to what I eat forever not just until I get the weight off. This year I will be 25 and I will achieve my goal this year. It's time to shine!

I've written out my goals, and what rewards I get at each success.

I will get the job I want, I will finally be well, I will finally confront my demons, and I will keep taking control of my life. I have the power!