The scale was down a pound today - 172.5, so I logged that baby. I only log my weight when it is below what I logged before. Hehe. Sneaky huh? I was just logging whatever the scale said everyday. Then you can see all the ups and downs, but it's more encouraging to me to see a constant downward slope even if there are 4 or 5 days between the weight logging. I think if you weigh once a week, there's the potential for that time that you weigh to happen to be a heavier weight. Maybe you had chinese food the night before or something. When we're looking at this pound by pound I think it's better for me to weigh every day, knowing there will be ups and downs, and record the downs (as long as they keep going down). I think this will keep me from giving up. Every day I will just be trying to get below my last lowest point, whether that was yesterday or 3 days ago.
Having said that, here's what I have eaten today. I had 6 hot wings from KFC. OMG - they are SO good. I'm completely addicted to them. I'm sure they're horrible for me, but they're my new food love. I also had maybe a whole cup of carrot sticks with them. Then I had a slice of pizza later.
Jason and I started playing World of Warcraft around 12:30pm and at 4pm I told him I wanted to take the dogs for a walk. He convinced me to put it off for a bit but I told him it would be good for my weight loss and good for the dogs, so at 5pm he got us to a stopping point in the game and said, ok, go take the dogs for a walk. I know he wanted me to stay and play with him. It made me so happy that he made my weight loss a priority. We've been talking about this lately. He doesn't think I "need" to lose weight, but I explained how important it is to me. He's a good guy.
The dogs are loving this walk stuff. They get so excited when I go get the "walk" leashes. When I take them out to go potty, I put them on 25 foot retractable leashes so that they can choose their "spot." When I take them for a walk, I want them right beside me so I put them on shorter leashes (3 or 4 feet maybe?). I think it's really helping get some of their energy/aggression out too. I have mini dachshunds and one of them is really aggressive, growls and snaps at us. I think he just needs more exercise and discipline. Hopefully, this will help. Otherwise, I might have to neuter him and I don't want to have to do that. He's already 3 and a half years old so I doubt it would help much at this point anyway. It has become a learned habit. I'll post a pic of them today.
I should go get some more exercise clothes. I'm just kind of throwing some things together that don't even really match. I look ridiculous, that's for sure. Maybe when I'm thinner and cuter, I can wear a sports bra and shorts! I doubt I'll ever be thin enough to pull that off, and if I am, I doubt I'll ever be able to do it! Oh well, walking around the house like that will be good enough and I'm sure my DH will love it! I can't wait!
Dinner - let's see, I still have some KFC hot wings left, and pizza. I think I'll have a salad and if I'm still hungry, I'll eat a couple hot wings or a piece of pizza. At least I won't eat so much bad stuff. That's why I ate the carrot sticks with the wings at lunch (didn't have breakfast today, shame on me). Actually a turkey sandwich would be good, maybe I'll try to do that with the salad. We'll see.
Yes, I think I'm becoming a blogaholic. Twice a day is really too much, but I'm going to do it anyway.
I passed my exam, yay, with a 98% no less. There has been such a weight lifted off my shoulders. Of course, I still have to take two more until I am officially a Microsoft Certified Dynamics AX Professional. That's a mouthful. Speaking of mouthfuls. . .
After I passed my exam, I promptly went and got a pizza to celebrate. I only had one slice though, can you believe it? Then I had popcorn and 4 pieces of chocolate candy for dinner. I don't know if that's good or bad. I don't think I really ate that much, but I feel SO fat. To break it down, here's what I had:
- instant oatmeal packet
- granola bar
- greek feta pasta from Publix (a cup maybe?)
- 1 slice of ham pizza (ham was fed to the dogs, so does that make it cheese pizza? haha)
- 94% fat free mini bag of popcorn 4 pieces of chocolate candy (1 choxie chocolate mousse, 2 dove hazelnut caramel, 1 russel stover triple chocolate mousse, they were all SO good)
Okay, about me having all these weird candies - my brother runs this site called Candy Addict. Terrible for someone trying to lose weight, right? Well, they review some sugar free stuff once in a while, but generally, yes. Also, I write articles for them sometimes. My Hot Chocolate Roundup review is on the front page now. Go read, leave me a comment if you like. Anyway, my brother gets sent a ton of candy to review and write articles about so he shares the love and sent me a HUGE box of candy/chocolate for Christmas. I will be writing more articles for him (yes he pays real cash to his writers), so I have to work my taste-testing of candy in with the weight loss goals. Sheesh. Haha. What a hard life huh? ;)
Anyway (again, I sure do get off topic). That wasn't really a lot of food today, but it wasn't quality food and, most importantly, I didn't go for a walk. In fact, I sat on my butt and played World of Warcraft for about 5 hours I think (although I leveled my Draenai Mage from 11 - 15, yippee). Yes, I'm a computer programmer and I play video games. I am a true geek. Also, I'm fat and wear glasses most of the time. How did I ever find a husband? AND he tells me I'm beautiful. Man, did I luck out or what? haha.
I don't really know what the point of this post was, but there it is. It's 1am and I passed my exam today and now I'm super sleepy. Everyone, have a great weekend and try to do better than I am at this weight loss/exercise stuff! We can do it.
One last note, I have actually lost 2.5 lbs since Jan 1 and my goal is 5 lbs a month so, honestly, this is still doable. I haven't screwed it up entirely yet. Aside from all the negativity and joking, I'm still pushing forward and haven't given up!
So my weight was the same today too. I haven't lost any weight in 5 days. What's going on? I swear, everytime I try to lose weight, it is harder than the last. I didn't end up going for that walk yesterday. My shins hurt pretty bad from the hour long walk the day before. We have some serious hills in our neighborhood and I didn't stretch before or after and hadn't done ANYTHING in months. I don't want to get shin splints. I know how painful those are. I'm going to stretch today and do a shorter walk. My goal will be to get exercise in every other day at least.
To eat yesterday I had bow tie pasta with feta cheese, 2 chicken fingers, 1 hawaiian roll, granola bar, bowl of vanilla mini wheats cereal. I think I probably had about 40oz of water. I'm really going to try to ramp up my water consumption today and see if I can be down at least half a pound tomorrow.
For breakfast today I just ate a bowl of Cinnamon and Spice cereal. It's really quite tasty. My stomach is kind of unhappy though today. I'm definitely stressing about my exam today. I can't wait until it's over.
As a final note, my Mom has started a blog, it is frankieandcalvin.extrapounds.com. She is also linked in my friends list as "happy homemaker." She could really use some encouragement too and is not quite as blog-savvy as the rest of us, so I don't think she knows how to reach out to other people. If anyone could go give her some advice/encouragement, I'm sure she'd appreciate it.
I never did quite get the hang of Thursdays. I slept in too late and then realized I didn't have anything to eat in the house. Then I went to the grocery store and spent way too much money and ended up having some bowtie noodles and feta cheese (cold) and 1 chicken finger and 1 hawaiian roll for lunch. It was pretty filling. I'm not sure how bad for me it was, but it's all I've eaten all day so I figured it couldn't be that bad for 2 meals worth of calories.
I'm going to try to walk the dogs tonight if it doesn't rain, dark I can handle, rain is another thing. My dogs hate the rain, I can barely get them to go outside to pee in the rain, much less walk in it. If it rains I'll get on my treadmill (that has been used maybe twice in 3 months).
My exam is tomorrow so I'm a little stressed about that. I'm sure it will be okay though, I've been training for this for 3 months now. If I don't pass, my work should fire me (I hope no one I work with reads this). Haha.
I was at 173.5 again this morning. Not sure what it's going to take to lose some more weight, the first couple pounds seem to come easy and now, not so much. Oh well, I'll just keep trying.
Last night, I told my husband that he shouldn't have offered me those fries yesterday since he knew I was trying to lose weight. He asked me if I wanted him to be the "taskmaster." I wasn't sure what that meant. I said I didn't want him to tell me what to eat, but I didn't want him to purposely contribute to me eating badly either. There has to be a happy medium, yes?
So last night I ate spaghetti, again, I have a problem with wasting food. It's all gone now though, finally. I also had a glass of wine, in lieu of garlic bread. I thought it might be an even trade. I was down .5 lbs this morning but I had gained a pound yesterday morning, so I'm still not below 173.
I have a lunch date with a WW friend this afternoon. We're going to Chili's. I plan on having some fish and veggies or a salad. I'll go look at their menu online now.
*Edit* - I ended up having a half a turkey sandwich with mustard instead of mayo (yay mustard), and a salad with balsamic vinaigrette on the side (I would just dip my fork in it and then stab a bunch of salad, I didn't eat much dressing at all), and some broccoli. Then disaster struck. I went by Chick-fil-a to get lunch for the hubby and they accidentally gave us 2 waffle fries. I ate one fry on the way home and gave it all to my hubby when I got home. Well, of course he couldn't eat it all so he offered me the leftover fries and yes, I ate them. Foiled again.
What I really need to do is start exercising. I was going to go walk the dogs last night but I don't like the idea of walking in the dark. Excuses, excuses, I know. I just need to make it a priority.
*Edit* - My goal is to take the dogs for a walk today at 5pm (it's 4 now). We'll see what happens.
Edit2 - At 5:30pm I changed clothes and took my dogs out for a walk, impending darkness and all. We got back about an hour later, just as my husband turned on the porch light and opened the front door to look for me. Awww, what a nice homecoming. I'm so proud of myself for doing it.
Okay, so I have on some size 14 pants today and they're kind of uncomfortable, a little too snug. The 16s I wore yesterday were too loose and I was pulling them up all day. I guess I'm a 15. . . but they don't make that. Darn. I will be happy when I lose another 5 lbs or so and these are comfortable.
I kind of like wearing clothes too tight when I'm trying to lose weight though (just around the house of course). I think it encourages me not to pig out. If I'm already uncomfortable, I don't want to eat a lot and then become even MORE uncomfortable.
I wore a 16 one other time in my life. It was right before I joined WW for the first time. I was 188 and totally unhappy with my weight. After I got into size 14 and then to size 12, I got rid of all my size 16s. I was thinking it would prevent me from getting up that high again. Wrong. When I got fat, I just had to buy new clothes, although it made me start trying to lose weight again at 176 instead of 188, so I guess that's something.
I never want to be this fat again, although I said that before. How could I have let it happen again? It's just too easy. Losing weight is difficult, but I know it's worth it. I just have to find my motivation.
So I had spaghetti for lunch yesterday and then a donut for dinner (lemon filled, yum). Oh well. There went that.
Today I woke up and had gained a pound. Big surprise, huh? So I had some weight control oatmeal for breakfast. Good start I think. I had a turkey and ham sandwich for lunch, with carrot sticks and a pickle.
Dinner is the bigger question. I'm sure I'll think of something.
My mom joined EP now. She and my dad are trying to lose weight too. I'm so glad we can do this together. It's hard all by yourself.
For breakfast today I had a bacon, egg, cheese bagel from McDonalds and a coffee roll from Dunkin Donuts. It was really tasty though and I'm really stuffed. I had some OJ too.
For lunch and dinner I will try to eat light and healthy to make up for it, oh, and drink more water today. I've only been getting in about 50 oz a day. I'm going to shoot for at least 80 today (4 of these 20 oz cups I use).
I joined a support group here that weighs in every Sunday. Today I was 173. That's 3 lbs down from Jan 1st. I'm sure it's just water weight, but it feels good to see the scale going down consistently.
When I get in the 160s, I'm going to treat myself to a professional haircut, my hair is way too long right now.
Today I had some flounder and corn on the cob and 2 hushpuppies. Also, I had a granola bar for breakfast. Last night when I got hungry for a snack, I went and got a handful of carrot sticks. I can do this!
Today I had 2 eggs for breakfast and 2 slices of toast. Then I had some high fiber spaghetti with meat sauce and one piece of garlic toast. Then I made my husband some food and ate 2 rolls from the 6 I made for him. That's a lot of carbs so far. So for the rest of the day I'm going to have carrot sticks if I get hungry and salad for dinner. I don't think I'll be able to run on my treadmill tonight due to schedules. Darn. Maybe tomorrow.
