Really suffering this morning. Not sure if it's sugar withdrawal or dehydration - or a bit of both. So am upping the water even more, just to be on the safe side. What I'm saving on junk food, I'm spending on loo roll!
Am also already noticing the cold more. Good job we've just had a new boiler installed and I can keep the house toasty. Poor OH is sweltering, our sitting room is as warm as the Glass House at Kew!
I don't know if it's real, or a psychological side-effect from weigh-in last night, but I'm feeling slimmer. Certainly less bloated in the tummy area anyway. Although it could all be due to hormones. Jeans feel a little looser. Whatever, it's all good ...
8pm:
Went for a stroll to run a few errands and was overcome. Felt really ropey, with cold-like symptoms. Couldn't even walk home and had to catch the bus - all of two stops! Needed a lie down when I got in.
Felt a bit better for a soup. Had a lemon bar too. Didn't like it. The 'chocolate flavour' coating is so slimey, just tastes cheap and nasty. Will try nuking it next time, see if it makes edible biscuits!
Is that all?! Feels like I've been doing this for so much longer than three days!
Yesterday's headache went in the evening but I had a milder one back this morning. Perhaps I should drink black coffee so I'm not getting caffeine withdrawal at the same time as sugar ...
Looking forward to my first 'pop-in' this evening, although I'll be very upset if the scales aren't showing good things.
This is more info than you need, but am already a bit bunged up. Think I'll treat myself to some 'silly-um' husks to help get things moving.
10pm:
Had pop-in and it went ok. I'm apparently just about in ketosis, but LLC said I'm dehydrated despite the 5 litres a day I'm drinking.
But the best bit is I've lost 5.5lbs in three days.
Have had lots of support from my friends, which is what's seeing me through. You know who you are, so thank you
Have been struggling today with a headache. Am assuming it's sugar withdrawal (I ate a lot of chocolate beforehand, knowing it's off the agenda for five months or so) but it's not much fun.
One soup and one shake down, saving the other two for home this evening. Our boiler's being replaced, we have no heating or hot water and the only thing I have to look forward to cheering me up is a caramel shake
Oh, and it's been very windy today and all the tube lines are down so it's going to be a joyous journey home .....
Went to first class last night and met the rest of the group. Eight of us, with another two joining next week.
Felt a mixture of emotions about the whole thing, and reading the ingredients lists of the 'food packs' I really don't approve. Think I'll ask LL when they plan to get rid of the hydrogenated fat in their products.
But, as I've been on a total binge for the last month, knowing that LL was starting, the LL foodpacks can be no worse for me than what I was eating.
Was horrified by the figure on the scales, but at least I'm now stopping the rot. If I manage a stone a month, as they say the average is, I'll just about be at goal in time for the wedding.
Took a ½ litre bottle of water on the tube with me, and got through it. Think I'll get a bigger one next time. Going to have first food pack soon, can't decide between chocolate and vanilla .....
Update, 8pm:
Well, first day is almost over. I've had two soups and two shakes. Felt really peckish during the day, but that is probably just my head telling me I ought to be hungry.
Well, I thought I'd do it, and despite trying to talk myself out of it, I binged last night.
The day had got off to a good start. Fruit for brekkie, a substantial salad for lunch and managed to avoid the biscuits, cakes and crisps all day.
Then had a bit of an arguement, felt upset and did what I always do. Bought lots of junk food and ate until I felt ill. OH being away gives me 'permission' to do it, as I have the house to myself and don't have to worry about hiding food.
Feel rubbish this morning, but am going to rectify that by making the right choices with food today.
Well, got on the scales this morning. Registered a 1.8lb loss.
I ought to be pleased as I've not been behaving myself. The only way I could stop myself shopping for junk food yesterday was to not get dressed at all. Really can't be trusted. Found myself having another secret binge on Saturday. Well, when I say secret, I mean secret from my OH. I was actually sat on a bench in my local town centre, cramming it in. Have got to the stage where I don't care what people think. That's not like me at all.
Anyway, the loss I showed this week is only the hormonal weight I put on the previous time so I haven't lost anything in real terms, which is what I deserve.
However, this morning I woke up feeling strangely motivated. Perhaps it's the thought that I might actually have to do Lighter Life or another VLCD that's kicking me into action.
Meeting a friend for dinner tonight, let's hope my motication doesn't waver .....
Monday was supposed to be a new start but I'm still not getting it right. My eating is worse than ever. Actually, that's not true, or even near it, but you know what I mean. Am supposed to be 'being good' but instead I'm snatching every opportunity to jepodise myself.
Yesterday, Wednesday 11th.
Started ok, but there were lots of leftovers from a client lunch. Of course I had to have my share, despite already having eaten. Went to a wine tasting in the evening (which was greatly disappointing, btw) so felt the need to 'line my stomach' with a cheese sandwich on the way. M&S were giving away free choc bars with every sarnie, so I had that too. I could have said no, but free food has no caloris, right?!
But, today I have my determined head on. Have had a nutritious breakfast and am feeling better for it. Going to stick to my planned food with no extra surprises.
I know the rules, why do I struggle to follow them?
Couldn't get the website to work yesterday so am catching up now.
MONDAY 9th
Met OH at the station on the way home. He wanted to go for sushi but I managed to dissuade him, saying we had healthy stuff waiting for us at the flat.
But when we got back to Berkshire, I couldn't say no when he suggested we pop into Zizzis as we walked past it.
I had a pizza but left the crusts and gave a slice to OH so it wasn't as bad as it might have been.
If only I'd not shovelled in a load of yogurt raisins earlier!!
TUESDAY 10th
Lunch with the boss. Tofu and stir-fried noodles. Nicked a few of her chips but other people's food doesn't count, does it?!
Found myself having worrying thoughts. OH is away for a few days next week and while I was munching my way through a family-sized bag of crisps when walking home (secret eating is my thing). So, I was thinking that it will be great. I'll be able to binge as much as I want while he's away. Won't have to worry about getting rid of the evidence.
What am I doing? The whole point of this is to lose weight in time for my wedding. Why can't I leave this behind?
