LL Day 126

I've not written anything for a week, but I think I was a bit afraid of the 'confessional'.  Completely fell off the LL wagon and ate several times over the week.   Not proper food either, but more of the junk variety - brownies at work with my name on!!

Was fully expecting to have put on weight at class last night, but to my surprise I've lost 4lbs.  Takes me to exactly 11 stone, and means I've finally broken the 4 stone lost barrier.

Told my LLC that I want to start management now.  It was always my intention to do it a month before the wedding, and I am at the initial goal weight I set myself.  Also, being 'allowed' food, might stop me eating 'foribidden' stuff.  Have no idea why I'm in such a head-fuck, self-sabotaging place, but I'm here and have to deal with it.

The only management class he runs at the moment is on Saturday afternoons.  What with so much weddingy stuff to do, I can't commit to weekends.  So, am going to have one-to-one sessions for a while.  Unfortunately, the only time he has free is 9.30 on a Tuesday evening.  It will be past bedtime when I get home from it!

Have first session this evening.  No hanging about!!  I feel a bit aprehensive.  Am worried that being allowed to eat again, will give me the excuse to go beserk and stuff my face. 

Will see how I do .....