Highly delighted

Well after a wonderful holiday two weeks ago when I had lost all sense of reason having eaten so much whilst away, within day one of being back home I managed to have a big chat with myself and get back on track.

Week one I was delighted to lose 4 1/2 pounds, and I was astounded to lose a further 4 pounds at  my second weigh in this morning ~ a grand total of 8 1/2 pounds in two weeks. Yipeeeeeeee!

I am delighted and feel so happy and so focused, ooooohhh I can be so stubborn when I want to be  

Back on the road

Well for whatever reason, sometime back I lost the plot ~ and now have to face the consequences of that.

I actuall ended up feeling terrible, I was eating healthily, but much too big portions, was drinking two or three (or even four) glasses of wine per night, which never does me any favours as I believe it slows down my metabolism and then of course I get the munchies and a little piece of cheese comes out for a very favourable evening snack.

Of course the combination of my behaviour results in weight gain, feeling fat and horrid and feeling uncomfortable, oh and thank goodness that cheese gives me heartburn, as then I can make a logical decision to stop putting myself through that.

On top of all that we have just recently spent a week in Cornwall and boy did we eat, drink and be merry We ate in fine restaurants every night, mostly eating freshly caught fish, including a wonderful visit to Jamie Olivers place, believe me it was worth getting fat just for the experience  

I knew though, that by mid week oof my holidays, I was beginning to feel horrid and not liking how I looked and took the time to have a big chat with myself as I walked along the beautiful beaches.

On our very first day back home, I nipped straight to the supermarket and bought a huge selection of veggies and made a big pan of 0 point soup, ok so I did put a little too much garlic in and whole black peppercorns which randomly exploded in my head, but other than that it was good

For the past seven days I am back on plan and serious about getting back on track. I lost all of my weight back in 2005, kept it off for two whole years but started struggling again just before last Christmas and slowly gaining my weight back. I know how good I felt when I lost the weight before and lets face it, its not hard and we all know how much more we like ourselves when we feel more content with our bodies.

I have had a great week, having a banana and low fat greek yogurt for my breakfast, lunch is at work in the staff restaurant and mostly I have selected a bit of rice with a low fat option (we have a healthy eating policy at work) and then for tea, I have had maybe salmon fillets with salad or chicken breast and salad with a few jersey potoatoes, not much different from how I usually eat, just smaller portions. Then if  in the evening if there is a little rumble in my tummy out comes the home made vegetable soup which has satisified my pangs and kept me from nibbling any other naughties I might find. I have only drank wine one evening, that was on friday night, and to be honest it did me no favours, so once I accept that then this show is on the road  

I did have one sticky moment at work when I got invited to be involved in a food tasting session, I could have said 'No' butttt I work with food and for the sake of research I had to say yes as it was new recipies that had just been developed and I had to give my opinion but I only took very small corners, well apart from the whole chicken kebab haha

But every day of our lives we find ourselves in situations where we have to think hard about how we cope with our intake of food and we just have to make decisions and work them into our programme, still hopefully allowing us to lose weight by maybe making up for it by being more active?

I really do feel positive, I am so damn stubborn and determined and know that in the next few weeks, I will be well on the way to where I want to be!

Setting targets

Always, always always, I set targets in my head.

Only small targets but they usually relate to ........"if I could lose one pound per week, then I could lose this much by that time" ect ect ect

One pound a week is not a lot to lose but the consequence of losing one pound per week soon adds up eh?

And one pound a week is four or five pounds a month

So at the beginning of this year I set myself a target for my birthday, one pound a week would get me to a better place and help me to feel better about myself by the time of my birthday at the end of March.

So why is it that two months down the line I have only achieved just under five pounds loss when it should be double that?

Yesterday I went to Next to get a new outifit for a girls night out this weekend and had to relent to buying size 14 trousers. I always buy size 12s in Next but something told me to try both sizes on. OK, so they both fit but the 12s gave me no room for manourve so I took the decision to buy the 14s and now I am not happy, as I shouldnt be doing that, I shouldnt be giving up and wearing a bigger size. I should be eating healthily and losing that one pound a week.

I now have just over four weeks to my birthday and am absolutely determined to be four pounds lighter by that time, that will take me to a place where I know I will feel physically better about myself.

Before we know it, its going to be t-shirt weather and I dont want to feel ashamed in t-shirt weather, I want to be going about my business not worrying about my weight and worrying about my fat.

So here goes-I can do it, its not a lot to ask myself is it?

BMI

Just did a BMI calculation weighing in at 168.8lbs (12st 1.8lbs)

Body mass index (BMI): 26.5

 Body surface area (BSA): 1.91

Ideal body weight: 132 lb - 145 lb

Lean body weight: 120 lb

BMI Category: in Normal Range

January 2008

January 10th 08

Well after losing something in the region of 39lb with weight watchers in 2005 and managing to more or less keep it off, I discovered that after two lovely holidays in July 07 in Jamaica and October 07 in Devon, issues with the bulge have once again decided to rear their ugly head.

I know in my heart that being a smaller size first of all makes me feel so much better and second of all makes me feel that little more confident so I will not let the chance escape me to get myself back on track.

I have just been working out how much I would like to lose, at first I was thinking about ten or so pounds, that would make me happy and more comfortable as I know thats a fair weight for me to be at to be content with myself.

However I have just sat down with pen and paper and realised that if I could lose 20lbs, that would put me in the 10 stones region and if I could aim for that and achieve it, then that is me in 'estatic' range  

My aim is to take some of WW advice, but basically my rules are to eat healthily, eat low fat and to eat smaller portions and to do my best to cut down on my two devil foods, bread and wine.

This is my second week and ive made some pleasing achievments already.

For the very first time in my life I have not eaten bread all week, not for the past eight days in fact, it was never my intention to cut it out altogether as I am always of the reasoning that a little bit of what you fancy does you good, but, its just so happened that ive managed to find preferable althernatives for now that leave me more sustained than bread does, so I am happy with that.

The second acheivement was that I managed to drink only two glasses of wine this week, a marvellous achievment I can tell you!

The third achievment this week was my weight loss ~ 3.6lb

I am more than pleased with that and long may it continue!