Back from vacation

Well, I brought a journal and I wrote....and I wrote and I ate and I wrote and I ate......  And by the time my 5 days in Florida were over, I estimated 121 FLEX points used!!!!  I am so mad at myself, but the good news is that I am right back on track today.  Tomorrow nite is WI and I will probably be crying at the scale.  Since I rejoined on January 10th, my lowest weight loss has been 1.6 pounds.  121 flex points isn't going to give me ANY sort of loss.......

I am back on track today, but I am worried that I will give too much power to the scale tomorrow.  UGH!!!

The other team

That's right y'all, I made it to the "other team".  I am barely there, but I can officially say that my weight starts with the number "1" now.  WOOHOO!!!   Since I am so close to the edge, I really need to make sure I exercise this week.  I need to lose 6.2 pounds to get to my 10% and I need to do in the next 3 weigh ins (because then I go on vacation).

I found my camera, so I am going to post my horrifying "before" pictures that I took after my first weigh in on January 10, 2008.  I lost almost 15, so I will take another picture, but I have a feeling you won't even be able to notice it....

But I DID IT!!!  I am on the other team, now I need to stay there....for life.

some days are HARD

Why is it that SOME days are so easy and people can offer you treats or drinks or cake or whatever and you can confidently and proudly announce that you are dieting and don't want any.  And you MEAN it.  Then we have days like today. 

Today I am quite surprised that my co-workers haven't suspected an earthquake in Philly with the way my stomach is growling!  Same thing yesterday...I hate to say I stuck to my points, but I had NOT ONE vegetable.  NONE!!!  That's not good...and tonite is WI. I think TOM is on the way and this could be part of the problem, but it's so easy to slip up once you are out of the zone. I am still there, but I am hanging on by a thread.  lol.  WI tonite and hopefully I lost.  I have been averaging over 2 pounds a week, so you know that has to stop sometime.  But I stuck to my points, but for the first time I dipped into my flex.  But I didn't even have half.....

So I stuck to the program, therefore I should have a loss right?????  Or should I just go buy one of those new "king size" reese eggs that i saw and be done with it?  aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i lost 2.2! woohoo!!

Ok, so NOT using flex points is working out really well.  I am averaging OVER 2 pounds a week.  Granted, it is the beginning....but in 5 weeks, I have lost 13.2.  This week I lost 2.2 pounds.   Now I am getting scared to use flex points!!!   And believe me I want to....I haven't had a drink since December!

4 weeks from today i will be on an airplane to Clearwater , FL to see my Phillies in Spring Training.  I can't wait!!  But I am already stressing about sticking and counting points.  Because, let's face it, I'll be ON VACATION!!!  I will WANT to eat something a LITTLE bad, ya know???  So I keep telling myself to plug away these next  weeks and count and journal, etc.  My original goal was to lose 30 pounds before my trip....obviously that is inconceivable now, so I am going to try and push for over 20.

Ok, enough babbling.  Have a healthy day everyone!!!

Cramming for WI

Does anyone else try to "cram" for weigh in?  Every Thursday I am wondering what high fiber food I can indulge in to get rid of those extra ounces.  DO I starve myself until WI and then eat a big healthy dinner? Of course, we all know starvation is NOT the answer....   Can I walk around my office 29870 times so as to burn those couple extra calories?  What will make the difference????

This week was a good week.  I didn't use ANY flex points.  This should be another good WI, but of course the evil scale at home never agrees with me.  But that digital POS does nothing but screw with me anyway.  So I must ignore the scale at home and play victim to the one at WW.

I did buy myself a Reese's heart ( I have to double check the points, but I think it is 3 maybe 4)  that I will treat myself to if I have a good weight loss.  My boss also buys us all a Russell Stover's heart every year.  3 pieces for 5 points, another post WI Valentine's flex point option.  Decisions! Decisions!

Good luck on this chocolate holiday everyone!  Remember not to yet chocolate steal your thunder.  We have control!  Pondering if I have convinced myself of this yet.....

Why can't I find time to exercise?

Seriously folks, I know how and what to do, but I can't seem to find time/energy to get my butt to the gym.  I KNOW it will speed up my weight loss and it will make these rolls a little firmer, but WHY can't I do it???

Since January 10, i have been the Poster Child for points.  I haven't used ANY flex points and I am generally slightly under my daily points range.  I am drinking water, eating healthier and for the most part very proud of myself for now.   However, I cannot drag myself to exercise.

I have been SLOWLY incorporating things like doing exercises with my arm weights at night or once in a while tuning into ON DEMAND and doing a 15 minute walking video.  I walk 7-10 minutes to train every morning and then back home again. But, I work 8-5 everyday and I have committments Monday - Thursday evenings.  For the month of February, I have been spending all of my weekends at the grocery store with my Girl Scouts (I'm a leader, not a mom) selling cookies.  (haven't eaten any!!!) 

I am late for work all the time so I can't do it before work, but I am sure if I could make exercise a priority, I would find time to fit it in.

Maybe if I get my pictures posted, I will see that everyday and it will motivate me to exercise.

One month in

Well, I started another weight loss journey on 1/10/08.  I am certainly hoping this is the last one.  I don't want to say IT IS the last time, because how many times have I said this in the past?  And here I am again.  The fortunate thing is that I did not let myself to back to my "all time high" of 240.  But, I was close enough.  Now I am fighting that barrier between the the "two teams" as I like to call them.....the 100s and the 200s.  I am sick of getting to one team and then finding myself recruited back by the other.

I have taken a new approach this time around and am allowing myself a whole year to get close to my goal weight.  It is probably unrealistic of me to think I can I can lose almost 90 pounds in a year, but I can try.

I joined Weight Watchers because I believe it is the best program out there.  I can eat anything I want in moderation.  I have done WW many times in the past and it always works...and then I feel good and decide to sabotage my body by eating EVERYTHING in sight.  And not just one day, OH NO!  I eat for days, weeks, months!...avoiding the scale at all costs because I know it is secretly gearing up to announce a big fat 2 and the start of my weight again - welcoming me back to the other team.  

So here I am.  It is a month in, and I have been doing excellent.  The diet and "points" have become priority number one in my life.  I have been averaging over 2 pounds a week because I haven't used my flex points at all and because it is the beginning.

Believe it has been a struggle!  I am a Girl Scout Leader and my apartment is FILLED with CASES of cookies.  I was evicted about 2 weeks ago and have 2 months to find a new home.  Stress is around, but I know the diet is the one thing I have control over, so I am keeping charge and not letting the stress get the best of me.

So right now I am in a good frame of mind or as my co-dieter and I like to say..."I'm in the zone".  Thursdays are weigh in day...and this Thursday is Valentine's day.  Will my affair with anything chocolate sabotage my weigh in?  I think I can handle it.  I think me & chocolate can rendevouz in a way that isn't gluttonous.  After all, I AM IN CONTROL.