R.I.P Kiki Roo

On January 3, 2008 Kiki Roo, my fur baby died from being hit by a car.  This has really effected me.  I lost 7 pounds in the first week, but have gained about three pounds since then. 

I posted a picture of her.  People ask me if I am "getting over it", I tell them that I am getting used to it.

I miss her.  I love you Kiki, you're such a good girl!

 

 

 

 

 

Happy Holidays!!!

Well everybody, it has been 6 months, and I have lost 40lbs.  My hope is that by the big date, June 17th 2008 (my one year anniversary) that I will have lost a total of 75lbs.  That means I have 35 more to go.  I dunno.... weight loss gets slower with time.  I will be happy however if I lose 20-25 more.    Check out my newest pic.

 

12 weeks and 20lbs down

When I started this, I had no idea that I would lose weight so slow.  It is because the diet I am using is VERY livable.  I am basically eating low fat, low carb, and high fiber until satisfied.  I love it.  I can do it for the rest of my life, but the loss is fairly slow.  Oh well, at almost 2lbs a week I figure it is very healthy.  I have lost 2 pant sizes.  I am down from an 18W to a 16W, or an 18 regular. 

Nothing beats how I feel though.  I feel fantastic about my body.  Check out my pics, I updated. 

Tuesday I woke up at 5am (as usual) and my ears were plugged!  Wednesday too.  I was also very dizzy and headachy.   Wednesday I made a DRs appointment.  He saw me on Friday.  Low and behold I have a sinus infection.  So Saturday and today I have been taking these high dose antibiotics, decongestiants, and anti-nausea-dizziness meds.  I swear the treatment is as painful as the illness.  The infection also gave me BLACK circles and swelling under my eyes.  I have had no appetite since I started the meds.  I have tomorrow off work, so hopefully I will feel better for work on Tuesday.  Being a teacher is so demanding, I have to be on my A game everyday!!!

 

It's been so long

It has been so long since I have written.  I am a teacher, and I started back at work on the 20th, so again, I am very busy.  This is good.  I haven't been obsessing about my weight, and I think I have been eating less because I am so busy and don't have time to think about food.  I have lost about 4 pounds since my last post, so that is nice.  A few days ago I went to Ann Taylor, and their size 18 actually fit!  I am so happy that I can shop in a regular store!!!!

I swear I am bipolar.

Read my post from two days ago.  I felt great.  I was on cloud nine.  Today, I feel like I have plateaued and will not lose anymore weight......ever.  I want to feel good again, like I have just experienced a huge loss, but today I feel like I should have lost more, and quicker.  Eight (going on nine) weeks and only 15lbs.

I think I look fantastic

I am 230lbs and I feel like I look like Cindy Crawford.  I know that I don't.  But, my changing body makes me feel so good.  I can fit into cloths that haven't fit in over a year, and I feel so mich lighter on my feet.  I'll post some pics, and you all can tell me what you think!!

Spoke too soon

I spoke too soon.  Back in July, I talked about how fast the 230's flew by.  Well, they are still here.  I have lost one pound since then.  BLAH.  I want to be in the 220's!!!!  Never again will I say that I lost weight quickly.

MMMMMmm...

I have been trying to make tomato sauce without flour or corn starch.  I tried spices, and letting it simmer, but it was still very watery.  Then, I thought of blending a can of kindney beans and putting it in the sauce.  MMMmmm, it was delish!! 

Small bust and a spare tire

Man, did I feel hot today (and not because of the weather).  I weighed in this morning at 231!!!  Boy, the 230's really flew by.  Not that I want them to linger, I just hope the 220's do the same.  So, I have lost 13 or 14 lbs so far and I feel great.  I am finally able to put on my cloths and have a bit of extra wiggle room.  I'll be honest.  I am not fitting into unprecedented sizes.  No need to run out to get new cloths just yet.  But, the cloths I do have are buttoning and zipping with ease and best of all they don't hurt!!!

In other comedic news, I have lost 3 inches of my bust, and .5 off my waist.  Ah, my genetics have a terrific sense of humor.  Cheers to a small bust and a spare tire that won't budge!

subtle discrimination at the grocery store

It has been my long held belief that overweight and obese people face discrimination.  Having lost major amounts of weight in my life (3x), and subsequently returning to my status as an obese person, I know.  The times I was skinny (about a size 12-10)  I remember feeling accepted by many more people.  I remember just feeling "normal" for a change.  Men were much more friendly, and looked at me romantically.  Ordinary people just acted differently.  I wasn't afraid for others to see what was in my grocery basket at the store, and people never made comments about what was in my grocery basket.  Here is a list of things people have said to me, as a fat person at the grocery store.  Remember, these are all random, unknown people:

• "Hope you have enough room to store all of this stuff"
• "Wow, we should take a picture of all this food", a bagger said this.
• "I have never seen so many frozen dinners"--they weren't frozen dinners, they were Lean Cuisines.
• "You must really like these". --don't remember what she was talking about.

I am convinced that skinny people never hear such comments.  Or if they do, they have the luxury of knowing that it isn't a subtle jab about their weight.  I am also convinced that I don't buy more groceries than most other people.

Comments like these have made me embarrassed about the contents of my grocery basket.  I always feel bad if I have ice cream or another goodie in there.  I feel like people are thinking, "God, why is she eating that, she should be eating slimfast".  Or, "No wonder she's fat", when in reality, many thin people put goodies in their carts. 

Currently, I don't have to worry about such remarks or embarrassments because I am on Weight Watchers, and I haven't put goodies in my cart in a long time.  All I know is that I promise never to make a remark or judgment about anyone regardless of size at the grocery store.