Shrinking Butt, Expanding World

I want to finally put an end to the up and down yo-yo dieting.

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  • Name: stefinity
  • City: Spencer
  • Region: West Virginia
  • Country: United States

My Weight Loss

Height: 160.0cm
Start weight: 190.00lb
Current weight: 193.80lb
Goal weight: 140.00lb
Lost to date: -3.80lb
Remaining: 53.80lb

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Before After

a yummy snack and a new camper!!

Woooo Hoooo we bought a new camper today!  Well, Steve did actually -- he was the one who was off work for President's day, and he's the one who actually had the money.  I didn't do anything but put in my 2 cents in picking it out over the past few months ... but it worked!  We finally got it!  This camper has a bedroom in the back for the kids! Bunks on both sides, and a place for their TV, Playstation, etc. between the bunks.  Then our bedroom actually has a slide, which means it's extra large -- it's like a little camper master bedroom!  It's awesome!  Can't wait til camping season!

I made the best little snack for our women's meeting at church tonight ... yummmy!  I took the big pretzel rods and dipped 1/2 of the rod in melted caramel.  Then rolled them in a mixture of crushed walnuts, toffee chips, mini chocolate chips, and butterscotch chips!  You get a lot of flavor, but not tons of calories.  If you don't coat them too heavily in the gunk, they're supposed to be 141 calories, and they're a great snack!! 

Going to the doctor tomorrow for my bursitis in my hip ... I've never had a cortizone shot yet, but I'm getting one tomorrow.  I did some walking over the weekend -- shopping -- and I'm about down.  So I'm taking the cortizone.  So tomorrow I have the day off for a doctor's appt. 

Well, have a great evening everyone -- I'm turning in!

Stef

a lovely day to cherish

Today was an awesome day!  It was the kind of day that you cherish ... the kind of day that I will remember for years to come ... the kind of day that I will look back on and think "Now THAT was a perfect day." 

These days are numbered -- that's what made it so perfect..... I spent the entire day with my two boys.  It was just the three of us. It was perfect in every way. 

Kyle ASKED me if I wanted to spend the day with him!  I think he was motivated by guilt, in that he never sees me anymore, and by the fact that he wanted to drive his shiny blue car!  The car's been locked in the garage for the winter as the weather has been too bad to get it out.  But today was pretty and sunny.

We went to Red Lobster, then we did a little shopping.  I got a few tops at Dress Barn that were on clearance. 

The best part of the day was just SHARING it with the two people that I love most on the face of this earth.  16 years ago today Kyle was due to come into this world, and I remember going to shop on that day too -- that day I wanted so badly for him to hurry up and make his appearance ... I was so tired of being pregnant, that my girlfriends took me shopping so I could walk around, hoping to start my labor.  Now, here I am 16 years later, hoping time will slow down!  Ironic isn't it?  I go shopping with him now, cherishing every second, knowing that this time is so limited ... wishing it could last forever. 

Hope many of you are off work tomorrow for President's Day -- I have to work.... oh well!

Steph

I gained 2 pounds!!!

 

Well, today was weigh in and I gained a much deserved 2 pounds!    I'm in a rut, that's for sure.... I'm going backwards lately.  I started eating and I can't stop.  I don't want to admit here that I've been eating mindlessly ....
 
And yes, I'm sure on a subconscious level that's one little reason why I've not been blogging.  Geez, that's hard to admit. 
 
Steve just now said that my clothes add extra pounds, and that I should just take them off -- he's gestering toward the bedroom and doing the old eyebrow raise thing.  YUCK!  Why would anyone want to see me naked?
 
Well, I'm glad to see so many of you are doing well and still losing.  I need to get re-motivated.  Thanks for all the encouraging messages you all have sent.
 
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I'm NOT dead!

Wow!  4 days since I've blogged!    I KNOW!  I know what you're thinking!  But I'm still around, and still halfway on track.  No, I'm not quitting, not giving up, not falling off the wagon, etc.  Whew! 

We had a big storm and got internet and power knocked out for awhile.  Then it seems that everytime I started to write after that, I would get in a few sentences and not be able to finish for some reason!! 

Man, talk about GUILT!  I'll never be able to get caught up on my blog reading! 

My sweet fiance came home from work on Thursday with two HUGE apples... one was caramel ... not JUST a caramel apple though, cause that doesn't do it justice.  It was creamy, rich .. omg it was good!  He not only had the caramel apple, but he also had a supreme gourmet apple that was dipped in caramel, pecans, and dark and white chocolate!  This was my valentine's present!  It was very thoughtful, because he kind of had to go out of his way to get them ... and he knows how much I LOVE caramel apples!  These were awesome, extra special.  So we sat at the kitchen table and cut them both up and shared them both. 

Then today we went to a huge Outdoor Sportsmans show -- basically campers. We're still looking to buy a camper.  Then we met up with some friends and enjoyed Mexican food, then we went to a coffee shop and had gourmet coffee and chocolate.  Then we browsed through the mall and I bought 4 tops at a regular store (NOT a plus size store! :) 

So all in all, I had a good Valentine's Day!  Nice to be in love ... it really is.  It's nice to have that person in your life who is perfect for you in every way possible.  And that's what Steve does for me....

Happy Valentine's Day

Steph

Help! Need ideas ASAP

 

Help!  My son needs to come up with a made-up extreme sport for a school project!  It can be funny, silly, impossible, etc... we're trying to think of something original (but it can be a spin off of something else) 
 
Any ideas?????

seasons of change

Has Spring sprung?

I don't think so, but boy it sure seems like it!  We're getting a little taste of spring-like weather this week, and it makes me get the FEVER!!  Spring fever, that is!

I love all the seasons, and I've always felt fortunate to live in a place where I actually get to experience ALL of the four seasons.  I enthusiastically look forward to each new season, and all the changes it brings.

Each season is wonderful in it's own way!  I love love love spring.... after it being cold and snowy, the first daffodils to peep through the ground are the most beautiful and the most anticipated.  Even the dandalions have a certain appeal!  In early spring, I start wanting to take walks... to put on a pair of boots and a jacket and take off with my dog on a jaunt through the woods.  Another reason I look forward to spring, is that it brings with it the promise of camping season!! 

I know I'm dreaming though ... cause the weather man assures us that the rest of February and even early March may have some wicked weather.  I love snow as well .... I really do.  There's something magical about being outside and breathing the frigid cool air, and making the first footprints in the new fallen snow. 

The bottom line is that the promise of each new season makes me want to enjoy the outdoors... which is a great thing when you are overweight and need to exercise! 

I'm going to go home and walk my dog in the sunshine and fresh air! 

 

 

the angel and devil on my shoulder

Once you start slacking it gets easier and easier to do it!  Kind of like lying or cheating or stealing (not that I've ever done much of any of those, but bear with me here!) .... Once you start doing something wrong, and you realize how EASY it was, and you realize that no one knows, that you didn't get caught ... OH HOW MUCH EASIER IT GETS!!!

At first you can hide the fact that you've been slacking --- cause after all, it's only a pound.  No one know!  Then you decide that you'll fix it NEXT week, that you'll do better TOMORROW (OH, what a BAD BAD word tomorrow is when you are dieting!!)  and before you know it, you step on the scales and .....

WHAT THE HELL???? WHERE DID THOSE 4 POUNDS COME FROM???   Holy Moly!

Those four pounds that you worked so hard to lose over the last two weeks ... you gained them back in ... what?....how long have you been slacking you wonder?  Days... a week?

CRAP! 

GRRRRRR!

Now what, you ask yourself?  Then you remember -- well, I have that dinner after church today, so I'll start AFTER that!  (That is the little devil on your shoulder talking to you )

The devil on my shoulder LOOKS friendly enough ... he really makes a lot of sense when he speaks!  He's a smooth talker too ... he's a smart little guy!  And sometimes he's a heck of a lot stronger than my weak little angel on my other shoulder.

Angel? 

Angel?

I THOUGHT I had an angel on my other shoulder!  Where did she go?  Ahhhhh, she's saying I never listen to her anyway, so she quit talking to me...... hmmmmmm

She has a point! 

Now she's saying I should get back on track NOW --- NOT AFTER DINNER!  What? 

Okay, okay ... I'm really going to listen to my angel....

I'm going to eat a healthy breakfast of Kashi cereal and skim milk so I won't be so hungry at Sunday dinner.  I'm going to make healthy choices at dinner, and I know I will be just as satisfied in the end (my angel said so!).... and the best thing, is that I will feel tons better this afternoon! 

My angel said so! 

 vs. 

Who wins in the end? 

It's my choice -- whichever one I listen to!! 

Have a great Sunday!  xoxo

Stef

 

OMG I found my trail journal!!!

Steve and I were backpackers once not so long ago.... we took a 6 day backpacking trip in the summer of 2005, and another long trip in 2006 before I gained my weight back.  I was actually my smallest in 2005.  Anyway, I was digging around this morning, and I found my trail journal!!!  OMG I had forgotten the feeling I had when hiking... I'm actually getting tears thinking about it.  What has happened to my fit body since then?  I want it back!!  Maybe this will be my motivation -- I WANT TO HIKE AGAIN!

I'm going to share highlights of my trail journal here -- don't feel bad if you're not interested! LOL  But here it is for your reading pleasure, if you are interested:

June 12, 05

.... hiked on the Cranberry River road for 4 miles and made real good time.  Weather was nice and our packs felt pretty good.  We were going about 20 min miles and in good spirits.  Then we turned up through the woods on Rough Run... and it was hell! Oh man what a change! ... up hill.. sweating.  We really slowed down.  I got blisters and my back started hurting like my pack wasn't fitting right.  I ended up taking off my boots and putting on my Tevas.  Camped in an area where no one else had been in a while ... fire ring was old w/ leaves all over it.  Had trouble finding a good tree for our bear bag - believe me if a bear really wanted our food, he could have had it!  But no bears day one.  We have seen no people since we started up the wooded trail.  Our site is less than ideal, but beside a small stream and has cliffs and caves on one side -- very deep woods - lots of huge pines and moss covered rocks.  Sat by the fire and roasted marshmallows and read from Thoreau's Walden to each other.

June 13

This day started off rough.  This morning I had to put mole skin on my blister and double up my socks.  Steve sacrificed a pair of his socks for me and then laced my boots extra tight. ... .lower back felt like it was being pounded by a hammer with every step.  I didn't want to complain, but it was hard to think about anything else.....finally got my pack settled lower on my hips so it didn't push on my back so much.  Then I felt like the straps were carving permanent notches in my collarbone.  Was just getting the hang of it, and started to enjoy the scenery when I looked away for a sec and caught my boot on a branch and fell.  Falling down is never fun, but it's got to be worse with a 35 pound pack on.  Got a cut above my kneecap...  ...We were within a mile of where we ended up staying the night when Steve stopped -- he had been several yards ahead of me and I had been trudging along, looking at the ground, trying to ignore biting pain in my shoulder and thinking happy thoughts of therma-rest chairs and a campfire when Steve said, "BEAR! BEAR!"  I had no idea where to look, so I missed it :(.  But Steve said it was scrambling pretty fast to get away from us.  ..... Well, now we are relaxed by the fire.  Supper was lasagna soup, which was supposed to be lasagna, but it never set up right... oh well... the joys of dehydrated food.  We bathed in the shallow river the best we could and put on clean clothes.  My bones ache and Steve keeps talking to me as I'm trying to write... but all in all, I'm good as new... peaceful, happy, and in love.

June 14

The bugs and gnats swarming around our faces as we walked consumed our thoughts and were the topic of several conversations.  I wondered long and hard about the compexities and mysteries of nature -- namely the common gnat.  Did you know that one gnat can travel 6 miles trying to get itself into a human ear? .... .... At our camp, during supper we heard rumbles of thunder.  We stopped eating, and quickly covered our packs and hung our food.  We barely had time to finish our BBQ chicken with rice (not bad!) when the storm hit.  We were warm and safe inside our tent.  We ate Snickers and listened to the rain and I read aloud from a mystery novel I've been reading.  It didn't rain much, but we stayed inside the tent for the duration of the evening.

June 15

We got up earlier this morning, knowing we had to try and find the missing trail which we somehow walked past yesterday.... backtracked an hour... probably close to 2 miles before we found it. .... after finding the proper trail, we walked 3.5 miles up an old railroad grade to the top of a mountain... trail was pretty good, and mostly the grade was gradual.  At the top of the mountain, we took another trail -- about a mile -- and followed it 3 miles to Cranberry fireroad.  This Birchlog trail was completely wooded and some of it was not in the best condition... several fallen trees to cross and much of it was downhill and rocky.  .... After reaching the main fireroad, we walked another mile to a nice campsite along the river with a picnic table!!  After sitting on the ground and eating from flat rocks for 3 days, the table was luxury!  ..... We washed in the river and washed our hair and some of our clothes, and hung them up to dry.  It ws cool and windy, and the clothes dried quickly.  .... We figured we walked about 10 miles today, adn we both agreed that it was our longest day yet, but also our easiest.  This is our 4th day walking, so the way I have it figured, it takes a few days for your body to get used to doing this.  It's like you're not even giving your body a chance when you merely take a weekend backpacking trip!  .... after a while, my pack began to actually feel like an extension to my body, and the weight of it became almost pleasurable..... The gnats were gone today...... sometimes while I walk, I pretend I'm writing a book -- my hiking journal or trail memoirs -- today's chapter would be entitled "Lessons learned from my experience on the trail."  Important lessons I've learned:

1) never walk under low-branched pine trees while wearing a pack.  The needles will remain inside your shirt, glued to your sweaty back until you make camp!

2) God make the nettle plant's leafy edges to resemble saw teeth for a reason! 

3) Never hang your clean wet clothes directly over your campfire to dry unless you want them brown and smelling like ash trays.

4) It's impossible to fix your own wedgies with a backpack on -- your arms just won't reach!!

5) You get wedgies from crossing large fallen trees across the path.

6) A trickle of sweat running slowly down your back eventually down your butt crack feels very much like a bug tip-toeing and drives you pretty much crazy... because you can't possibly reach this spot while wearing a pack!  If you count to 100 three times, the drop of sweat either evaporates or your forget about it.

7) Never underestimate the value of a great boyfriend!  A great boyfriend

                   a) comes back across the river to carry your pack for you

                   b) trades his blueberry yogurt covered granola bars for your plain one

                   c)  tells you where the squishiest mud is so you can avoid it

                   d) actually has no trouble at all admitting that he was wrong and missed a trail head, and has no probem asking you to backtrack 3 miles!

                  e)  always recognizes the best opportunity for a picture -- when you're wading acorss a river up to your knees in icewater, screaming becasue you feel the pain penetrating into your very bones -- that's when he'll not only ask you to stop, but to say "cheese."!!

June 16

... left our gear at our campsite and walked the 9 miles down to the Cranberry Glades visitor area.  It was a long walk, but they have REAL bathrooms -- running water -- toilets that flush!!  We drank hot brewed coffee in the lobby and browsed the books..... ..

We ate our lunch outside the center in the cold drizzle (which wasn't a bid deal since we had on our raingear).  ...... We walked 18 miles today!  I'm holding up really well ... I do have an injury to my left knee that became painful with every step.  Hopefull rest is all I need...  Getting ready to eat supper of Red Beans and Rice and Beef Stroganof.  We're bundled up by the fire .. well at least I am.... Steve is wearing fleece and shorts, while I'm freezing in long underwear, 2 shirts, and my rain coat!

June 17

Today we walked the 10 miles out to our car.... to our best estimation we figured we walked about 63 miles from the time we left our car on Sunday.  We discussed all the wildlife we were fortunate enough to see -- 4 deer, 5 baby fawns, one bear, 2 grouse and 2 baby grouse, one turkey, 5 snakes, and numerous orange salamanders, and a few chipmunks.

Steve apparantly thinks I have complained unnecessarily about the injures I have acquired over the course of the past week, but I think I've held up pretty well.  I just have a feeling that if HE had fallen and had struck his skinny, bony kneecap on a rock, he would have complained significanly more than I did.  He did give me a little sympathy today when I noted that it was now bruised in 2 places.  He took a picture of it.  I'm not sure if he was mocking me or not, but I guess if the picture turns out, he can always look at it and feel bad for making fun of me.  He also wanted me to point out that on 2 occasions, he walked across the river, dropped his pack on the other side, and came back to get mine, which was very nice.... I'll admit that.

 

 

CRAP!

Crap!  Stepped on the scales this morning, and got a confirmation of what I already knew ....

Gained 2 pounds.....

I didn't post in my blog yesterday either... don't know why, just wasn't in the mood.  I KNOW what you're thinking, and don't worry, I'm NOT going to let this happen!  I'm not going to quit blogging, and I'm not going to let these 2 pound turn into 4. 

I'm in a pissy mood, so you guys will have to send your happiest messages my way! 

Steph

a pathetic weasel who needs some testicals!

EP has been down all evening!!  I haven't been able to log on here for HOURS

So, since it's bed time, I can't write much, but I will give a couple quick updates:

1) done very well eating today

* breakfast -- banana and no sugar applesauce

* lunch -- Kashi cereal with strawberries and blueberries

* supper -- southwestern salad from McDs

I really really really REALLY R--E---A---L--L--Y wanted the following:

- pepperoni roll (I've thought about these constantly since I wrote about them!! OMG)

- chinese food (I wanted to stop at the chinese restaurant SO bad on the way home)

- brownie!

I didn't cave -- I held out!  WHEW! 

2) Kyle's dad called me this evening and informs me that Kyle had been suspended from school for a day!  (WTF is wrong with my son????)  So, what did he do?  He called a teacher "old" and the teacher wrote him up for being prejudiced!  Granted, Kyle should NOT have called this old geezer old! But prejudiced against OLD PEOPLE? LOL

Anyway, lately Kyle has been in a little too much trouble to suit me, and he's not been keeping up with his studies.  So ... back to the phone call from his dad.... I asked "Kyle needs to be seriously grounded... where is he now?"  His dad says, "at a basketball game."

I said "Go pick him up -- make him come home -- take away his computer -- tell him we have had enough!"

He said, "well, why don't YOU do it? He'd be more embarrassed if his mother came to get him at the game."

I said "You are afraid to discipline your son!"

silence....

I said "You cannot be FRIENDS with your teenage son -- he has no reason to behave or apply himself because you let him do whatever he wants!  WHAT IS YOUR PLAN???"

silence ....

GROW SOME BALLS, YOU LITTLE PATHETIC WEASEL!

I didn't say that out loud, but I was screaming it in my head!!!

So, I had to go pick Kyle up at the basketball game -- he followed me to the car, knowing full well that there was no point in talking.  I had the glare -- the one where he takes one look at me and shuts his little mouth.

I took him to his dad's -- demanded that his dad come outside and we had a "talk."  Actually I laid down the law to them BOTH!  I think I had them both crying! LOL

PATHETIC LITTLE BALL-LESS WEASEL!

3) I would like to say a very special hello to a very special person who has been reading my blog!  HI BETH ANN!   Beth Ann is my fiance's daughter, and she's a sophomore at WVU, where she just changed her major to bio-chemistry cause she is SO SMART!  Go Beth Ann! She's such a sweetheart, so I thought I should write about her -- I write about my boys often -- and she is certainly worth mentioning.  I call her my "fake daughter," and she calls me "fake mom."  (If you've ever seen the Stuart Little movie, you'll understand where we got that!)  Love you Beth Ann!

Well, I think that's all for tonight.  I actually feel pretty good... I kind of feel a sense of accomplishment from making good food choices, and for putting my weasel ex in his place.

 

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