02/20/2010 13:43
17 years ago ......
Seventeen years ago today something amazing happened and my life would be forever changed......
I became a mother.
I posted something very similar to this last year on this day.... and I just went back and read it with tears in my eyes. What a difference a year makes. Last year at this time he did not have his driver's license, and he did not know everything, and he still talked to me......
This year... well, at he's 17 going on 50 because he knows it all. His friends are his world. He forgets he has a mother .....
Oh how I love that child. Kyle Thomas....
Seventeen years ago at this very moment I was lying in a hospital delivery room scared out of my mind and in PAIN... waiting for something truly remarkable to happen... waiting to become a mother. It happened at 12:32 in the early afternoon. I didnt' know what I was having, but for some reason I thought he was going to be a girl.... but he surprised me... a little boy. 7 lbs 3 oz, 21 inches long, beautiful and healthy, dark hair. OMG this little baby would change my life forever and ever.
I remember just looking at him and marveling at his beauty... I couldn't believe I could do something so right, so perfect. I used to hold him close to me and just smell him, breathe in his soft baby goodness. I still remember what his little head felt like against my cheek.
I've made a lot of mistakes over the years.....
He was a fierecely independent toddler and child, and I was thankful for that....
Now he's a fiercely independent teen, and I'm not sure I like that.
This is supposed to be a reflective post about my baby, so I won't go into the details about his father, who he chooses to live with because there are no rules and regulations.... I won't get into that.. I just want to remember this day 17 years ago and talk about how much I love him...
I did talk him into coming to my house this evening for cheeseburgers -- his favorite meal --- and birthday cake.
He's so tall and dark haired... he's beautiful.... I love him so much.
I pray for his safety.... I pray he'll someday come back to me.
Happy Birthday Kyle Thomas from the person who loves you most in all the world. 