As the day draws to an end...

... I'm super happy to report that I made it for a walk! I was gone for about 50 minutes and walked between 2 1/2-3 miles! YIPPEE!!! My mindset has been more focused. I was shopping today and had that feeling of "it doesn't matter if I buy this "junk" as long as I stay in my calories" and "you know, I'm stressed- I don't care I'll buy it anyway". But I fought it! I kept reminding myself that I know what works and I can do this, but in order to do it I have to stay on track. My body does not do well off track. My jeans are getting tighter and my body doesn't feel as healthy anymore. Those are BIG red flags. So, yep, I didn't even stray at the grocery store. I know it's been a while since I've been this dedicated- I don't remember the last time I purposely arranged to go for a walk and actually put in some distance! And tonight I'm having a salad for dinner. So, day 2 is another hit!

2 of 40 (day 3 of abs)

I got my abs in. But that's probably it for today.  I wanted to get up and go for a good walk before hubby went to work, but I've been so tired from this traveling and the kids have gotten up throughout the night, so I couldn't bring myself to get up. I don't feel too bad because I know my body needed the rest, but now the chance to walk is pretty much gone for the day. I could do some strength training, but I did that yesterday. So I don't know. I wish I had my cable or that my exercise tapes weren't already in a box. Then I could do that.... oh well. Maybe I'll get a chance after hubby gets home- I might try to squeeze it in BEFORE we go grocery shopping. Or since it'll be late, try it afterwards. I don't know. It just might not happen. But hey! I did my abs!

Today was good.

So, day 1 of 40 is over... day 2 of abs is done. I am succeeding. I was tempted to vear off the Maker's Diet and eat some vanilla wafers or a glass of chocolate milk, but I perservered. I am a winner. I ate when I was hungry, enjoyed my food and I'm looking forward to tomorrow. I did some strength training, my ab challenge, and then 30 minute walking with the girls- slow but hey! it was moving! I just kept reminding myself of what I've done already and what I know I can do- and just kept reminding myself of the HOW! Here's to tomorrow!

One day at a time... 1 of 40

So today is a new day. I ate a hard boiled egg for breakfast and I'm having chili for dinner. There isn't anything else in the house really- no junk food so even if I wanted it I can't have it! Tomorrow is shopping day and I'm going to do good at it. I've been thinking about some of the comments that you guys have been leaving. I have came a long ways and there's nothing saying I can't continue. I know what works, I just have to do it. I started my weight loss journey in January 2007. By the time I'd lost some weight I got pregnant (total surprise, DH had a vasectomy!) and gained it all back. Since then it just seems that I can't find my nitch. I know what's wrong, but I'm too lazy, too stressed, too ????? to do it. Maybe this time will be it. I just have to REMEMBER what works and REMEMBER how it felt to see the weight drop back then... I think I need to stick to the Maker's Diet like I did back then for the 40 days! So, today is day 1. I will do this. I will do this. I will do this!

Exercise, I'm going to get my abs in and then do some other strength.

New week & Ab Challenge

I'm not even going to recap the weekend. It sucked. Well, the weekend was really good- I think we'll be hearing something positive from this church hopefully this week- but *I* sucked! I know it, I don't need to relive it. I'm looking forward to a clean slate tomorrow though... and when I have to go away for another weekend I'll just try to tackle that then.

Today is day 1 of the Ab Challenge. That's the ONLY exercise I'm getting in today... and I'm sure it won't even budge anything from this weekend... but at least I did it.

Tomorrow's a new day... and I will succeed.

Weekend and Abs

I'm leaving in the morning for another weekend away- hopefully this will be one of the last ones. I'm ready to find a church, move, and get settled! It'd be nice to be settled by AJ's b'day on the 27th and Halloween! All in God's timing though.

I was good today- I went for a morning walk then did a few minutes of strength. Eating has been so-so. I'm not even going to stress this weekend. I am what I am so it's too late to change my appearance... and I will just try to do the best I can. I'm getting things in line though so when I come back on Monday I can get back on track... like with 97gstchick's ab challenge (hopefully I signed up in time!) and phase 1 to detox (once again) my body from all the junk. I really need to figure out how to at least maintain and not do this up and down game. I don't want to maintain but if I can maintain until the stress of being in limbo and then the stress of moving is over maybe I'd be ok! I really want to be in a size 16 by my b'day and I'm worried with holidays that it might be setting myself up for failure... (sigh) I just need to DO it!

Anyway, have a great weekend everyone!

A new month...

.... which means I need to kick it in high gear! I can't believe September is gone! Where did it go? It's October 1st! WOW! That means there is approx. 2 1/2 months until my b'day and only THREE months until the new year... If I want to get under 200, I'm going to need to really kick it up a notch, which, to be truthful, won't be hard to do. I haven't exercised at all this week... and hardly at all last week. Like I said in a previous post, I've been dealing with other things. I think I'm doing better today and feel more prepared to kick this weight off. I plan on doing some strength training today, so that's a start. I'm a bit nervous about traveling this weekend... but I'm hoping that mentally I'm ready. If I'm ready mentally, I think I'll succeed!

I'm setting my goals back. I want to see 215 or lower by the end of the month. That isn't hard to do. I'm being a little leniant because I don't know how much traveling I'll be doing AND because my daughter's 3rd b'day is at the end of the month, AND sometime TOM will be here in the next week or two... and that ALWAYS messes things up. I want a goal that I feel is attainable so I don't think I'm setting myself up for failure. Plus, 215 would be a new low for me, I've only seen 219 before... and 15 pounds doesn't seem TOO bad for the month of Nov and Dec- that'd be like 7.5 pounds a month!

Scarce

I've been battling a few things lately so I've been scarce over the weekend and plan on being pretty scarce this next week. We're traveling this coming weekend again- a good thing- but I need to figure out a few things, overcome a few things, and get back in line with a few things before then. I plan on spending these next few days reading the Bible and doing a lot of praying. So please pray for me! I hope to check in from time to time with you guys, even if I don't blog myself.

Another post

So as I mentioned, I did my 26 minute bike ride this morning. After laying in bed for 20 minutes arguing with my "thin" self! I didn't WANT to get up, I was enjoying snuggling with my family... eventually, thin self did win, but not without fat self trying to make it hard! If I had gotten up when I was suppose to I would have biked longer. OOOOooooh the struggle at my house- you want to know what I did a few hours ago? I made cupcakes! Chocolate cupcakes (which I figured out was only 120 calories w/out icing). But this isn't before I sampled the icing AND the cupcake batter! Geesh! Where is the CONTROL here?! Anyway, I'm adopting the mantra, one MEAL at a time... This way I can't blow the whole day... just the meal. I have no idea what I'm going to eat today because it's grocery shopping day but I don't feel like going...... so............ who knows. Anyway, I did get 15 minutes of strength in, YAY! I found out that the Biggest Loser won't be posted to the website until seven days AFTER it first airs. So I'll have to wait until next week to view it. Bummer. Just trying to stay positive and remember my goals.

Grrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!

I weighed 228.? for the last two days. Grrrrrrrrrr! I stayed within my calories yesterday and drank water. But GRRRRRRRRR! I'm putting the scale away, for a week or two. I don't know. This mental thing is killing me. I was okay with 222 or even 225, but NOT 228!!! Yet, I don't *feel* fat, just beating myself up. I've had mental conversations with myself this morning, trying to determine the best approach to losing this weight and at least getting into a size 16 and seeing 199! I keep going back and forth with options, so I feel overwhelmed. So I think I'm going to hide the scale and not let that number control me... I'm going to concentrate on eating within my calories, if I do phase 1 or 2 great, if not, I'll try to eat when I'm hungry... but staying within my calories is a MUST! Then I'm going to keep exercising, even though this morning I was THISCLOSE to giving up! I rode my bike for 26 minutes and I plan on doing some strength traning while I watch The Biggest Loser. I'm going to have to "keep my head in the game" (courtesy of High School Musical! )

Thanks to all the comments... I agree, I need to start back small- thus if I don't do phase 1 or 2 I'm going to be ok with that. Baby steps. And since I know I'm not going to be done traveling I'm mentally preparing for that... I need to figure out a way to stay within calories even when I'm traveling and eating out or have no other options but not so healthy foods!