Here I am, floating like a piece of blubber, hovering just above the line that says 200. TWO HUNDRED POUNDS. I remember being a mere one hundred eighteen pounds and thinking I had the biggest hips in the 8th grade. What little did I know then. I only hope my daughter won't have the same body-hating issues I did. Dove campaign, you have your work cut out for you.
So here I hover. My official WI said I was down .8 pounds, but my home scale says I'm up 5. What's up with that? I know there's a battle waging between my fat cells and water- and something's gotta give soon. But I'd really really REALLY just like to see that elusive 199 appear for more than a couple of minutes. A day or two - or three - would tell me something is finally happening again.
Yes, I've changed things up - started to move more - walkling, running, moving 1800 pounds of furniture for 9 hours. But here I am, at 2-oh-something and I've been here a while. Doesn't it know I've overstayed my welcome??? I eat food - the same JC diet - nothing more, nothing less. And still, I'm stuck, staring down at my toes, begging that scale to say out loud "Yes, you've done it! You're no longer TWO HUNDRED POUNDS!"
And when it does (in my mind, it will - in a comical female voice - like Rosie Perez, I'm thinking)... when it does, I'll smile for a moment. But only a moment because then, I'll know I'll only have FIFTY-SEVEN more pounds to go.
Blub, blub, blub...
-DD
Posted By: DawnDawn
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10/04/2008 07:32
You are not alone...
In 2004 I (re)started WW at 207 (lower by one pound than my highest pregnancy weight!). The following July I started walking... 5 miles a day. For six weeks I didn't lose a single pound in spite of near religious adherence to my food plan. I hated walking, hated my body, hated WW... and then slowly things started happening.
Hang in there... your physiology will catch up sooner or later. Not on our timetable (dangit), but it will happen. You're doing great
It was so good to hear from you. Yes, I'm doing really good with the challenge. Its really making me work harder than I ever had to!!! Yes, I do sound better because the stress in my life right now is less, and also working out helps me deal with things better too!
Hang in there, you will see the results your looking for. Maybe its time to up something. More time working out, maybe a extra 5 mins., maybe doing something different that you haven't done yet.
It will happen just be patient with your self. I'm not going by the scale anymore. I took my weight graft off the screen. I'm going by measurements, and my clothes. When we lose fat we don't always see it on the scale!
But thanks for asking! My birthday is the ninth! Woo Hoo! I'm gonna be 42! :)
Yes, we were feeling mighty ambitious the other night when we decided to do the Chicago Marathon! We're pretty serious, but the problem is that its in the middle of the school year and we can't take the kids out for too long! :( I'd love to stay a week!! And theres so much to see in Chi-town!! Of course, I'd love it if we crossed paths! And if I end up twisting my ankle on the first mile, so be it! At least I'll be in Chicago! Just don't want it to be so bad that I can't shop!!! :)
I'm smack in the middle of my daughters body-hating issues!!! It sucks, let me tell you. But its inevitable. I was perfectly thin and had a gorgeous figure my entire life--pre-teen, teen, 20's, etc. until after my 2nd baby...and even I thought I was fat and hated my body!!! My 10 yro is overweight and I certainly cannot put her on a diet! I just encourage her to get on her bike or go swimming. I try to buy soy ice cream and organic whole wheat stuff, etc, fruits & veggies, so she eats pretty healhty, but she eats way too much. And she's short, so its hard to find clothes for her. Thankfully, my older daughter, who is 16, grew out of her chubby phase and without a hitch, too! It was never an issue for her, even though we worried. I just think back on what my mom must have gone through. She would call this "payback"! LOL Oh, to be a mom. The hardest, yet most honorable job in the world!
