Had my weigh in this morning - down another 1.5 lbs! yippeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
I already wrote about my pizza on Wednesday night. Yesterday, we spent the day in Baltimore. I brought my own cereal to snack on on the way down (the bus trip included a sausage/egg/cheese/butter bagel - NO!) and an apple, but lunch and dinner were on my own. No one was hungry for lunch, but I was starving, so I split a salad with Colt while everyone else was having drinks. I stuck to water and we shared a hearts of romaine salad with grilled chicken, lemon oil dressing, goat cheese and sea salt. It was pretty good and definitely helped fill me up. 2 club sodas hydrated me too!
My parents were going somewhere expensive for dinner, so Colt and I wandered around trying to find something more reasonable. I ended up ordering a seared tuna appetizer for my dinner with a side salad. The tuna had some kind of rice vinegar/soy sauce sauce and since I wasn't really sure what it was, I didn't have too much of it. Salad had oil and vinegar that I put on myself, so it was mostly vinegar. I also snuck some fries from my honey's crab cake platter! uh oh! More water and unsweetened iced tea helped out my hydration.
Before we headed home, we stopped in a Hard Rock Cafe. At the bar, I did go for a drink - Club soda with mandarin vodka and a lemon wedge. Not the yummiest drink I ever had, but it was nice to have a drink.
When we got home around midnight, I was STARVING (we ate dinner pretty early) so I had a half a glass of 1% milk (Colt will NOT drink skim milk, so we compromised) and my JC toffee bites. It was kinda fun having a midnight snack that was "allowed"!!!
So I am happy with my choices and I am happy with my weigh in.
The only complaint I have is my weigh in timing - in a way, Sunday morning is good because 1. I get to weigh in in the morning before I eat anything and 2. It helps keep me accountable for my actions over the weekend, which are usually the toughest. The problem is, I feel like I can't indulge at all because I have to weigh in the next morning. That's what happened Colt's birthday weekend - I ate well, but I wasn't perfect. I had a great time. If I would have had that same meal on a Wednesday, I would have had plenty of time to "counter-act" it with water (for the alcohol) and some added exercise (for the extra 500 calories). Weighing in the next morning just doesn't allow for that. That stinks. Colt and I are planning a really nice dinner in August and I told him it has to be on a Sunday or Monday so I can enjoy myself. It's not like I want to eat an entire cheesecake (well, I WANT to, but I won't!) I just want to not worry so much! I know I can change my WI time, but I don't want to give up that morning slot. Aiyaiyai!
Last night I broke. I went to the camp I used to work at for the afternoon, ended up deciding to stay the night. I brought my Jenny Craig food, including dinner, just in case. I ate my JC lunch but after a long, tiring day of volunteering with the kids and cleaning, I wasn't in the mood to explain about being on JC or even to make my JC dinner. So, I ate the following:
1 garlic knot 1 hot wing (more like 1/2 but still) 1 slice of sausage pizza
I realize this is not awful and that in the past, I would have eaten 2 slices, a bunch of wings, and at least 2 garlic knots. I also ran around and sweated all day, so I feel good about that. I feel best about passing on the marshmallows and s'mores. But I am disappointed that I let the JC meal sit.
I know this is a lifetime thing and situations like this will come up. I am relatively happy with the choice I made, but know I could've passed up the wing and garlic knot. I also could have pushed for pizza with some veggies on it - boost the fiber! I guess I'm just "eh" about the whole thing. And my biggest worry is "sabotaging" my weigh in.
I am proud of the good choices I made for today though - I wasn't able to get home before class, so I stopped at the store and picked up yogurt with granola, a banana, an apple, a substitute for the JC Anytime bar, coffee with skim milk (no sugar) and a tuna salad kit for lunch. I wasn't sure when I'd get out of class, so this all covered my breakfast, am snack, and lunch. I stuck to that and I made it home for my planned JC lunch.
My other worry is Saturday - I'm going to be spending the day in Baltimore and that it will be 2 meals out... I may bring the tuna kit I didn't use today, but we're going with a group and I don't feel like answering all the questions. Dinner, I will just have to behave - my weigh in is the next morning after all! At least with trips like this, it's a day of walking and exploring - and walking is exercising!!!
I AM OUT OF THE 190's!!! YAYYAYYAYYAYAYAYAYAYYAYAY!!!
I'm very proud of myself! I stuck to my plan, I exercised 5 days for 30 - 60 minutes, I drank my water... yippee! I even tasted a dessert at a housewarming party last night and left it at a taste! No seconds for me!
I am feeling so good about my progress and so amazingly great at how my relationship with food is changing. That dessert? It was a brownie mocha trifle... we're talking fudgy brownies layered with coffee infused cool whip, topped with crushed heath bars. This normally would have been IRRESISTIBLE. And now? I HAVE CONQUERED it! YAY ME!
So the two pounds I gained last week is long gone and another 1.4 joined it! Hasta La Vista, Baby!
I was going to post but then I clicked somewhere else and lost it!!! So now, the short version:
Post-gain week is going very well
sticking to plan
exercised all but today - there's still time though!
I have a very supportive boyfriend who is my personal cheerleader - a term he learned (and uses often) from a Jenny Craig email I sent him and my mom. When we went for a walk yesterday, at Colt's suggestion, he said "let's take the hill!" If that's not support, I don't know what is!
My mom told my grandma about the weight I lost. My grandma sent me a card! She painted it herself. My grandma is the type to say "Holly you're really packing it on" actually, not the type, she HAS said it! So this is VERY encouraging!
I'm beat. It's TOM and I'm on new BC and am still adjusting. Having serious fatigue and muscle soreness... but I'm trying not to let it get me down! I gotta exercise!
Went grocery shopping today and bought some non JC items to try and save some $$$
Kashi and yogurt for bfast
WW Mint Sundaes, 100 cal oreo bars, 120 cal mango popsicles for snacks
Three picnics this weekend! Friday is at my dad's. I told him I'm on JC and if he wants to cook for me, grill up some veggies. Sunday's is same deal at my mom's. Saturday is a housewarming at a friend's... they don't know I'm on JC... I also weigh in Sunday morning so i DO NOT want to sabotage it! I'll just be extra mingle-y and hopefully no one will notice that I'm not eating! or drinking! Sunday I am having a beer... the only kind I like: Sam Adam's Cherry Wheat. It's gonna be great!
Some of it was beyond my control - PMS and major bloating. Cravings.
Some of it was not - controlling my cravings and making smart choices, exercising more to offset slip ups...
Plan to make it better: - drink all my water - write write write it all down ahead of time and record changes - eat all my planned snacks so I'm not hungry and less susceptible to giving into cravings - get the heck out of bed in the morning and exercise! and if I don't get up in enough time, don't get back in bed till I do!
SPLURGE: Mojitos! These are relatively ok - made with rum, club soda, lime and mint... the killer is the simple syrup! but the place I go doesn't make them very sweet, so I feel ok about them! Vodka Tonic Tonic water has lots of hidden calories! It's not water, folks! It's got sugar and calories!!! Wine I love wine, red and white, and sparkling! The champagne I definitely have been limiting. Wine with dinner is just too nice to pass up on sometimes though... and with how humid it has been in my neck of the woods, I haven't been sleeping so I've been doing a glass of red before bed so I can sleep... heheheh
SAFE BETS Vanilla Vodka and Diet Coke This is super tasty but be careful - you get drunk quicker on diet soda cause you don't have the calories and sugar to balance out the booze! This works for rum and coke too, I just like Vodka better! Vodka and club soda with lemon/lime Club soda really is calorie free! There used to be an AbsolutKurant out there that made a really yummy, bitter tasting mixed drink, but I haven't seen it in awhile.
The also advertised a bunch of half calorie liquors last year, but I haven't seen them in bars...
Well anyway, there's my two cents. Now I feel armed and ready for another weekend of goin' out and drinkin'!!!
This week I did not write out my menu and I am totally PMSing... it feels like the week has gotten away from me! WI is now Sunday morning, which is bad because it's sooner but good because it's in the morning now!
But the point of this week was that I strayed - I snick-snacked about and wasn't as strict with myself. I realize there is no such thing as perfection, but I feel I could have done better - look at what happened in NYC! So I just sat down and planned out the next week, all meals and snacks. Everything is written down and posted on the fridge, ready to go! I even wrote my exercise down so I HAVE to check it off!
Another bummer is that my jeans are not feeling any bigger... partly due to them coming out of the dryer, partly due to PMS bloating, and partly due to the fact that I only started two weeks ago (duh!) - what is that thing they always say... it didn't take two weeks to gain the weight so it's going to take more to take it off! or something like that! :cP
I feel better about things after writing out my menu and writing here. Will definitely post again Sunday after WI!
PS Out AGAIN tonight to the bars and going out to dinner on Saturday for my BF's bday... at least I know the menu at the restaraunt, so I can choose wisely! They have really good for you pizzas with all sorts of veggies and minimal or no cheese as well as fantastic salads, so I should be set! It's the sour cherry belinis that are their specialty that get to me............ (music of doom!)
And I was worried why? Well I was worried because I didn't do my normal exercise and I ate on my own some days... but the difference? I actually made GOOD CHOICES. Who'da thunk it???
Last week I did not get up to exercise at 7 am like usual, but I did spend 2 days ripping up carpet and 2 days walking around NYC (we're talking 40 city blocks each day).
And I didn't have my Jenny Craig meals over the weekend, but I chose a salad for lunch with fat free balsamic dressing, mixed greens, tomatoes, and a few slices of mozzarella (protein!) and for dinner was mixed greens with pears, avocado, walnuts, gorgonzola and a mandarin vinaigrette. I had a few beers, but the next day I drank a ton of extra water and walked. In the morning, at a bakery cafe, I chose an omelet with smoked salmon and brie and green beans on the side instead of home fries. I skipped the mimosas and didn't even LOOK at the croissants! (Well, maybe I peeked, but they were safely behind glass!!!). I left food on my plate!
I can't tell you how proud I am of myself or how surprised I am at how easy this is. Three cheers for Jenny Craig and three cheers for ME!!!
Well tomorrow is my second weigh in and it was a pretty tough week. I didn't do any formal exercise and did do some extraneous snacking! Definitely nothing compared to the binging I used to do. I also found I wasn't eating as many fruits and veggies - most days this week I did not add a salad to my lunch or extra veggies to dinner. I didn't feel hungry, but I'm sure I was lacking some vitamins and fiber.
I also had two days on my own - I spent the weekend in New York for a girl's weekend. Saturday I had salads for lunch and dinner and Sunday was an omelet with salmon. There was also a significant amount of empty calories in the form of alcohol... but a lot of walking too! So we shall see. I've been trying to flush out the system a bit this evening and took a short walk too with my honey.
So tomorrow afternoon we will see the verdict! I'm sure it won't be another 5.2lb loss, but goodness knows we can't expect that all the time!
And exercise will definitely be back on this week. Last week was tough - I spent 2 days tearing up carpet and staples and tackboard and I was so sore and tired I couldn't drag myself out of bed!
Here I am a week and a half into my membership with Jenny Craig. I've lost 5.2 lbs so far! I don't like their e-journal too much, so I decided to make my own here. If you've tried to lose weight and read articles about it, you know that keeping track of what you eat, your exercise, and your feelings/reactions is proven to aid in long term success. So here I am!
I've got that same old same old story of losing weight, gaining it back, trying this diet, trying that one... Even writing this now, I worry I'll just be doing this all over again in a year or two... "this time will be different!" sounds kind of hollow after so many times. But honestly? I can't stand being so unhappy with myself anymore. There's so many things about myself that I AM happy with, why should I let my weight put a shadow over me? Why should I not let myself be in control? I can be happy with my weight and I am going to treat myself to what I deserve - a healthy body that I am proud of!!!
