I feel so good. I went to see my doctor on Friday, the 6th and boy was I excited. I am down another 4 lbs. When I went to her office on 9/8 I was weighing 255, then back on the 26th and weighed in at 248, back again on the 6th and weighing 244. Thats a total of 11 lbs in about 3.5 weeks. Too my surprise I was also able to fit into a pair of 18 pants. When I started I was wearing a 24/26.
I really don't know what to do with myself. Not to mention how good it feels too be complimented on. Last night I dedicated 30 mintues of my time to my reebok stepper. I love that thing. I now need to start to tone my arms. They are getting alot smaller but I have noticed alot of loose skin hanging underneath and I don't care too much for the way that looks.
I still don't have much of an appeitite, so forcing myself to eat has become a daily thing now. I'm still not eating any red meat (chicken, pork, beef, etc.) I only eat fish and shrimp, along with ny vegetables and fruits. Seems to be working pretty well for me nowadays. I have alot of people ask me what type of diet am I on. I try explaining to them that this is not a diet. Its a lifestyle change. Some don't see to understand why I gave up eating meat, etc. but this is my life and If I choose not to eat it, I really don't see persnally what that has to do with them. I think if everyone who wants t loose weight would look at it as a lifestyle change as apposed to a diet, they would have more success.
Well its been a couple of days since I've posted something. Nothing new going on here. Just trying to maintain and stay focused. I got about another hour left here at work, then I'm going home and working out. Haven't used the stepper in about a week if not more, so I guess I'll pull that out tonight. Then I'll be off to church. Today I got on the scale just cause and my weight has not changed since my weigh in on Monday. Not sure what I was expecting to see, but its all good. I hope everyone out there is doing fine and staying focused. Havve a wonderful day!!!
OMG I am so exctied!!!! I just got off the scale and too my surprise I am down another 4lbs. I try to weigh in every other Monday. I had a good mind not to this morning only cause I got to work late and by the time I got in I had already had my breakfast and a bottle of water. I usually get on the scale first thing in the morning before I eat, but curiosity got the best of me and I had to get on. I am so excited I don't know what to do with myself. Its been 12 weeks since I started and I have to say I am very satisfied with the progress I have made so far. There are days when I just want to say the hell with it, but I know I have come too far to quit now. Thanks to all of you on this site for your motivation and inspiration. Good luck to all of you......
Yesterday was a good day. The time at work really flew by. I was busy, busy busy. By the time I got home and changed my clothes it was time for me to go to my part time job. The only thing I had eaten by 4:00 was 2 variety packs of original cream of wheat (totaling 180 calories) and one .78 oz rice krispie treat (totaling 90 calories). After work I went to subway and got me a deli veggie sandwich. OMG, it was off the chain. All I had on it was lettuce, tomatoes, and mayo. It melted right in my mouth. We cleaned 4 buildings last night. Thank God one of them got taken from us so that saved us about 45mins to an hour. After work I went home did a load of laundry and made an attempt to clean my room. I showered then went to bed. Nothing exciting yesterday huh?
This entry has nothing to do with my weight loss. Just an inspirational reading for you to enjoy.....
A man was sleeping one night in his cabin when suddenly his room filled with light, and God appeared. The Lord told the man he had work for him to do, and showed him a large rock in front of his cabin. The Lord explained that the man was to Push against the rock with all his might...
So, this the man did, day after day. For many years he toiled from sunup to sundown, his shoulders set squarely against the cold, massive surface of the unmoving rock, Pushing with all of his might. Each night the man returned to his cabin sore and worn out, feeling that his whole day had been spent in vain.
Since the man was showing discouragement, the Adversary (Satan) decided to enter the picture by placing thoughts into the weary mind: ( He will do it every time ) "You have been Pushing against that rock for a long time and it hasn't moved." Thus, he gave the man the impression that the task was impossible and that he was a failure. These thoughts discouraged and disheartened the man.
Satan said, "Why kill yourself over this? Just put in your time, giving just the minimum effort; and that will be good enough."
That's what the weary man planned to do, but decided to make it a matter of Prayer and to take his troubled thoughts to The Lord> "Lord," he said, "I have labored long and hard in Your Service, putting all my strength to do that which you have asked. Yet, after all this time, I have not even budged that rock by half a millimeter. What is wrong? Why am I failing?"
The Lord responded compassionately, "My friend, when I asked you to serve Me and you accepted, I told you that your task was to Push against the rock with all of your strength, which you have done. Never once did I mention to you that I expected you to move it. Your task was to Push.
And now you come to Me with your strength spent, thinking that you have failed. But, is that really so? Look at yourself. Your arms are strong and muscled, your back shinny and brown; your hands are callused from constant pressure, your legs have become massive and hard.
Through opposition you have grown much, and your abilities now surpass that which you used to have. True, you haven't moved the rock. But your calling was to be Obedient and to Push and to exercise your Faith and trust in My Wisdom. That you have done. Now, I, my friend, will move the rock."
At times, when we hear a Word from God, we tend to use our own intellect to decipher what He Wants, when actually what God wants is just Simple Obedience and Faith in Him. By all means, exercise The Faith that moves mountains, but know that it is still God Who Moves The Mountains.
When everything seems to go wrong... just P.U.S.H.!
When the job gets you down... just P.U.S.H.!
When people don't do as you think they should... just P.U.S.H !
When you can't find the right work... just P.U.S.H.!
When your money is "gone" and the bills are due... just P.U.S.H!
When people just don't understand you... just P.U.S.H.!
P = Pray
U = Until
S = Something
H = Happens
Pass this on to all your loved ones and friends who may need it; they may get it just in time.
"Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending."
Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:6-7
Yesterday I was so full of energy. In case I forgot to mention I started taking 30mg tablets of Phentermine as prescribed by my doctor. Since taking them I had not had any desire to eat. I basically have to force myself to take in something, and even then I don't want it. Who would of ever thought I would refuse food. Anyway, when I got off work yesterday I met a close friend of mine to play a little one on one on the tennis court. We had a blast. Neither of us really know WTH we are doing but we sure had fun trying, and boy was the weather AWESOME. Only thing that was missing was some jams while we were on the court. I guess I"m going to have to invest in a small boom box. We played tennis for about an hour in a half. After that I was suppose to go to dinner with some friends but that got postponed for later in the week. I went home still wired up with energy and bored to ddeath with nothing to do. Then Lord in behold I got a call from another girlfriend of mine asking if I wanted to go to the park for a walk. By this time it was a little chilly outside but we went anyway. We did 3 laps under the lights at the park. I felt soooo damn good. I got home about 8:00 and tried to force myself to eat some easy mac with tuna. I did get all of that down, but I really wasn't iin the mood for it. Watched the news, and The Contender then took my behind to bed.
Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord’s will is. Ephesians 5:15-17
On Friday, September 8th I had my first doctors appt since my breast reduction. Of course the first thing I had to do was get on the scale. The part that I would usually ask to skip. However, I was curious to see the results on another scale. Since my last visit I had lost a total of 22 pounds. My doctor was VERY proud of me. Considering our last visit was to complete paper work for the Gastric Bypass. She asked me why I changed my mind, when the last time she saw me I was so determined to have it done. I look at her and I said " I decided to take back control of my life. The Gastric Bypass would of been an "easy way out". I told her that I didn't want to walk through the back door. I wanted to be proud of my accomplishments and be able to look back and say I DID It. I know that I have a long and hard road ahead of me, but I refuse to give up. There are so many things in my life that I can not change, but this is not one of them. I'm always feeling sorry for myself and making excuses. Because of the support system that I have, and the people that I know are counting on me to succeed I know I can do this.
The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. Psalm 34:18
It has been 10 weeks since I started this lifelong commitment to myself. To date I have lost a total of 14 pounds (22 with the breast reduction). Here are my latest stats....
Examine yourselves to see whether you are in the faith; test yourselves. 2 Corinthians 13:5
On June 22nd 2006 I made a commitment to myself to loose weight. With the help of the breast reduction I can do a lot more then I use to be able to. The first month I started walking the local park. I tried to go at least 5 days a week but sometimes I went only 3. I started out walking two laps (1 mile) and within a month I was up to 4-5 laps.
The next month I purchased the Leslie Sansone “Walk Away The Pounds” DVD. It was a two in one DVD with both a one mile walk, and a two mile walk. The days that I did not go to the park I would do the DVD.
The next step to be approved for the Gastric Bypass was to attend a seminar in Baltimore, MD. The day of the seminar I was SOOOO excited. I knew I was going to be able to get a real life glimpse of how this surgery was going to be able to change my life. NOT!!! It did the exact opposite. After the presentation I found myself wondering, WHY WOULD ANYONE WANT TO GO THROUGH THIS? There are just too many risks involved. Did I really want to put my body through all of this. Was it worth me risking my life? These are all questions that I needed to seriously sit down and think about.
An hour after the seminar I got a phone call that would forever change my life. Since 2002 I have been trying to get a breast reduction. After several visits to the plastic surgery, only to find out that my insurance considered this procedure to be cosmetic, therefore not wanting to cover my procedure. After being denied by them two times, I decided to write an appeal letter. About 2 months later I got a letter from them still denying my claim. 3.5 years would go by, and still the thought of having this surgery would cross my mind. In November of 2005 I decided to change my insurance plan with my employer to Blue Cross, Blue Shield. Once again I made an appt to see a plastic surgeon in February of 2006. The day of the GB seminar, I came out to my vehicle and had a voice message from the doctors office. They told me that they had received confirmation from the insurance company to precede with my surgery. Not only would I be getting the breast reduction, the insurance company was covering this $7600.00 procedure at 100%.
I knew this was a sign from God that from that point on, my life would be forever changed. My surgery was scheduled for May 17th 2006.Instead of following through with the GB I decided instead to get the breast reduction. After my surgery my doctor informed me that the had removed 7lbs total from me.
