Sugar Honey Iced Tea

Thats what I've felt like this week. In my mind I say don't do it - but I wind up pigging out anyway.

I have a weakness for chicken. I ate 4 pieces of  Royal Farms chicken. It didn't even tast good!!! I barely took my pills this week and I gained the pound that I spoke about in the last post! I feel so disgusted with myself. I feel like I am bulimic without the throwing up part. I firmly believe that I will eat myself sick if I don't stop it.

Am I depressed? Hell yeah! But I feel at odds with myself. On one hand I want to lose the weight and move on with my life in a healthy manner, on the other hand I really don't care. Maybe if I had someone - besides my mother and daughter - in my life it would be different.  I know I needs something to do besides sleeping. I know that things will change when school starts back in the fall but what am I gonna do until then?

Hang in there Baby!!!!

Liz-

I get it!!! It is so hard to "get motivated".   I'm a 44 year old mother of 2 (25 & 20) and I am just now making me a priority.  Let's face it we have to be selfish and focused ALL the time to have any success with this weight loss thing.

I wish I would have done it a long time ago, but I didn't so I just have to figure out how to do it now...

How old is your daughter?  Maybe you could walk with her?  At the Mall?  Around the neighborhood?  Go to the park?  Just some suggestions.  Like I said I wish...  Now I'm doing it by myself, my hubby is supportive, as long as dinner is on the table and I don't ask him to work out with me...lol!

Just wanted to let you know you are NOT alone, and I do soooo get it!

Good Luck, Jill (momma2ski)