07/01/2006 00:49
Sugar Honey Iced Tea
Thats what I've felt like this week. In my mind I say don't do it - but I wind up pigging out anyway.
I have a weakness for chicken. I ate 4 pieces of Royal Farms chicken. It didn't even tast good!!! I barely took my pills this week and I gained the pound that I spoke about in the last post! I feel so disgusted with myself. I feel like I am bulimic without the throwing up part. I firmly believe that I will eat myself sick if I don't stop it.
Am I depressed? Hell yeah! But I feel at odds with myself. On one hand I want to lose the weight and move on with my life in a healthy manner, on the other hand I really don't care. Maybe if I had someone - besides my mother and daughter - in my life it would be different. I know I needs something to do besides sleeping. I know that things will change when school starts back in the fall but what am I gonna do until then?
06/24/2006 11:12
Ok I admit ...
This week has been the worst. I weighed myself on Tuesday and the freakin scale said I had gained one pound. Oh no. I didn't like that so I tried to ignore it. In the back of my mind I know that I screwed up this week. I didn't exercise at all. My water intake wasn't as much as it should have been. I know that the pills can't do the job on it's own, so I need to man up and do the damn thing!
Oh yeah, I re-weighed myself - I lost 1 pound. LOL!
06/15/2006 01:28
Week two down too many to go...
Well week two is done. I purposely put off weighing in on tuesday because I was afraid I hadn't lost anything ,but I actually did! So far I have lost a little over six pounds. Yay me! I am not going to say that this has been easy. Even with the Phen I have struggled with not pigging out. On a usual trip out I could see myself going to Chikfila and ordering a strip meal with an addition 6 strips and a sandwich for later. This is not healthy.
With summer vacation starting for myself and the kids I need to really find a way to get out of the house and be active. I have no problem sleeping the day away. LOL!
Well I have the treadmill though I haven't used it as much as I would like. I need some motivation. Should I purchase a new wardrobe in a size 10?
06/06/2006 12:21
Weigh in
I hate weigh-ins. There is nothing worse than standing in your birthday suit praying that the numbers will finally work for you. I decided to do my weekly weigh-ins every Tuesday. Since I just started exercising 3 days ago I know I won't see much of a change. Though I am happy - so far 3# or to be precise 2#14 0z. Not bad for a girl who still hasn't got the less food thing right.
Well that's it for now ....see ya next time!
06/05/2006 15:57
First Post
Hi - my name is Liz. I am 36 years young, 5'2, mother of one. I have gone back to school to become a nurse with the hopes of either being a pediatric nurse or ob/gyn nurse.
At my initial weigh in I was 246. Of course this made me depressed. I decided to do something about it. My motivation is low but I hate the way I look and feel. I bought a treadmill from HSN with a determination to get healthier.
In an effort to do this I decided to use prescription diet pills. I have used it before with good results.
Right now I work nights and my activity level is sedentary. I believe it takes time to really get into a groove. Increasing my metabolism will be the first step and then incorporating healthier foods into my life. This is gonna be hard because I don't like anything healthy. LOL we shall see how that works.
Well gotta sleep before work.
Unitl next time
Liz
