Holy Moly

Wow, wow, wow.  It has been almost a month (!).  Don't worry -- nothing has been accomplished...  You haven't missed anything.  The day that I posted my last blog, my roommate decided to kick me out.  She felt that it was very generous of her to not discuss any of this with me, to make demands that I leave, and to give me just 2.5 weeks to pack, find a place, and move.  God willing, it did happen!!  I am officially moved after being stressed to the MAX.  I have yet to finish unpacking, but it has been one hell of a ride.  Granted, I still feel about the same as before, if not worse.

I feel heavier.  Lethargic.  Bigger.  Rounder.  Now, I don't know if any of that is accurate or if it is just in my head, but it only makes me more/less eager to finally begin my weight loss path.  More eager because I seriously loathe the way that I feel right now.  I do not have to look and feel like this.  I SHOULD not have to look and feel like this.  Less eager because, if indeed I am bigger, rounder, and heavier, it only means that my journey will be that much longer.  I am optimistic and defeated all in one moment.  It also surprised me that I felt like blogging.  Perhaps I have always been a journal person and didn't know it.  Or maybe typing is just so much faster than writing that it makes it possible for me to have as much detail as I like and keep an interest in writing. 

I made a purchase last night.  A friend of mine has had AMAZING results by combining working out with Herbalife.  I guess I am too tired to think.  I want someone else to do the thinking for me until I feel good enough to think for myself again.  This way, I will have a basic nutrition plan, but not have to think about what I am going to make for each meal.  I just do not have the energy to even think about food -- what's up with that?!??  We'll see.  I'll try it for a month and see where I am.  I gave up sweets/candy/desserts for Lent.  Totally failed tonight -- accidentally ate pie for dessert!!  Geez.  This will take some getting used to!    I also need to post pictures...  I'll get on that!  As soon as the Herbalife comes, the workouts will begin.  I really do feel so much better when I work out.  I hope to have everything unpacked by then, and have a space set up for me to commence the workout battle.  A place where the new, healthier, happier, thinner me can thrive.  Good night!!  ♥

Attempt #2 at Blog #1!

I never saw myself as the blog-writing type.  I guess I never really had anything to write about before.  I want this to be a life changing experience, and if blogging will help, then blogging will I do!

I have been unhappy with my weight...for as long as I can remember.  The last time that I weighed what I was 'supposed to' was in 8th grade.  130-something.  I've always been unhappy with my weight, but it was a while before I tried to do something about it.

I have never done anything 'scary.'  Crazy pills or grapefruit diets or anorexia.  Nothing like that.  I have lost weight and gained it over the years.  Different levels of activity in my various jobs has helped.  BUT I have had a LOT of office jobs.  Not a lot of natural exercise in the life of an office assistant.    I am currently a nanny, so I am up and about a lot, but it doesn't seem to have any affect on my weight.

I have tried MANY different exercise programs.  So many.  At least I learned something from all of it!  I learned that my body loses much more weight through weight lifting routines than through cardio routines.  Not that cardio isn't important.  I still do some cardio, but the majority of my workouts are based on weight lifting.

I started my most recent weight loss attempt on December 1, 2011.  I did pretty well, but then I had the holidays and got sick and etc., etc.  I do have a workout program that I love.  It is ChaLEAN Extreme from beachbody.com.  When I got sick, I was one workout away from finishing the first phase, the Burn Circuit.  As soon as my sinuses clear (a day?  maybe two?), I WILL get back on the workout wagon.  I am hoping this blog will keep me honest and coming back for more!!  I am really excited to start working out again.  I just FEEL so much better when I am consistent with my workouts.  Food will have to factor in somewhere...

As far as diet is concerned, I have just been trying to eat healthy.  Not that that always works...  I should probably be checking calories and such.  I tried Weight Watchers for a while, but it didn't work for me.  I felt like I was constricted by the point system.  Maybe that doesn't make sense.  I know that WW works for lots of people, but it made me feel rebellious.  I think I need something more loose, but I also need a more definite mindset of what should and shouldn't go in my mouth.  In general, when I am steady with my workouts, I tend to eat better and crave foods that are better for me.

Whew!  That was a lot!!  Well, here goes nothing.  And everything.  I have set a goal to lose 80 pounds in a year.  That may seem like a long time in which to lose that weight, but it still seems daunting to me.  But!!  I think it can be done.  I just need to kick my own butt into gear.  I will write again soon!  Happy Thursday!!

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