I am working one of my last night shift weekends and its getting really hard to stay awake. Its times like these I could eat and eat. Not because I'm hungry but to keep myself awake! I brought some air popped popcorn for later, so hopefully that will keep me away from the vending machines.
My program isnt going so hot. Try as I might, I just cant get back to the old groove of eating what I'm suppose to, without eating everything I'm not suppose to at the same time!!!
I joined a biggest loser contest at work. Prize is $50 so I am hoping that will provide the incentive I need to stick with the program. I weighed in today, and I need to get back at it now more than ever. Wish me luck and keep losin - Shelly
I know I posted yesterday but it seems to be MIA !?!
My healthy eating has slowed and my old cravings are taking over! HELP! I am trying to get back on track and keep the streak going for an entire week. I dont want to weigh myself yet, I want to just focus on eating healthy and feeling good inside and out!
I really like the community groups EP has added. Very nice!
I will do my best trying to get to know some new friends here. I love the way this site has always rallied around people to help keep them going when there feeling down and out. It cant help but motivate you on to better eating and lower numbers on the scale!
Wish me luck - Shelly
One week in with mixed results
I should log on more often and report in more. It would help my accountability! I did great Sunday through Thursday but on Friday was sidetracked! It continued on Sat when I had a couple little mini binges! I have got to keep myself away from the sugar. It lures me in and tortures me every time!! Be strong Shelly! You can do this!
I am getting ready to go to the grocery store and stock up on healthy snacks, easy to fix healthy meals. Hopefully this will help me keep away from the stuff I should not be eating - mainly cookies and chips!
Also - I am now going to empty all my loose change into a jar at home. Two reasons - one so I dont have any when faced with the vending machines at work and two so I have some 'extra' money to treat myself when I reach my mini goal of two weeks eating healthy! At this point in my life pounds are not as important as being healthy is. And when eating healthy, the pounds should come off naturally!
Can an old girl get another chance?
Hello to all of you out there in EP world. Its been awhile! And to those of you I do not know reading this - Good to meet you.
Its been a long time since I blogged and I appologize for that. I had to take some time off to do some long hard soul searching and figure out why I continue to binge eat and make myself miserable. DId it help? Yes. I know now what I need to do. Did I miss you all - you bet!
I have also gained 5 more pounds, to make a grand total of 15 regained since I lost 50 last year! Of course that makes me feel like a failure! But I'm back here ready to get losing again and this time for good! and I do hope you will all help and cheer me on along the way, and I will do the same for you.
I started my new healthy living lifestyle overhaul on Oct 1, actually Sept 30th to give myself a headstart, and plan to take it one day at a time. Exercising, thinking positive, and journaling all along the way. This is the positively last time I want to lose these extra pounds! I want to be happy. I want to be healthy. And I want to succeed!!
Good to be back - Shelly
I didnt even see it coming!
I was doing so good yesterday! So determined to succeed! Then, out of nowhere, a small bag of dark chocolait m&m's hit me over the head and poured themselves into my mouth! They gagged me until I swallowed every last one! Oh, they were so good! and I am so weak!
Today is a beautiful 72 degrees and sunny! I am going to go for my 3 mi trek this evening with dh but this afternoon I am tackling the strawberry bed. Just like those sneaky m&m's, the weeds have invaded my yummy strawberries. So, just like my diet, its time for the deweeding! Your out of here dandelions! Take that crab grass! I'm digging you up and kicking you to the curb along with those m&m's! They will both keep coming back, looking for weakness's. So I will stay armed with mini shovel and strong resolve. Because in this garden - no weeds (or chocolait) allowed!
I am trying the natural way, again!
What is it called when you know you really should do something, and you still wont do it? Stupid maybe?!?
I know my body prefers eating 'natural.' My tummy, my head, my joints, and I'm positive my internal organs prefer it. So why is it so hard to do??? Why does the lure of doritios and baked goods always pull me back to the dark side? I have done this before with good success for 6 months! But the lure of Christmas cookies sent me over the edge. Now, the time has more than come for me to start again. I know what I have to do - eat healthy and exercise consistantly! Oh, if it were only that easy! Wish me luck, and good luck to you as well!
Here we go again - Shelly
ahhh! Its almost my birthday!
The big 40! I cant imagine that in 2 weeks I will be the big 40!!!!!
Anyone who has been here very long knows that I really wanted to lose ALL the extrapounds by then, but, life happens, and it was not meant to be. I have been siderailed since December but I am finally back on track. Eating better and exercising more consistantly. I hope to shed myself of the rest of this blubber by the end of the year. I dont want my 40's spent the way my 30's, and even most of my 20's have been, feeling sorry for myself and letting life pass me by. All because I am overweight! I want to live the rest of my days healthy and happy. No more regrets. No more woulda, coulda, shoulda's! But actually living and loving to the extreme. I am going to ride a roller coaster and not be afraid the bar wont fit across me! I am going to shop in the misses, not women's department! I am going to hike, run, or walk with everyone else and not huff and puff! and never again will I feel that I am to fat to deserve anything other than the best!!!!
Being 40 is actually very liberating. I am woman, hear me roar! You cant turn back the clock, only make the most of the time on this earth that you have left. Birthdays arent so bad, and much better than the alternative! - Shelly
biggest loser update
Hey all you BL fans out there, just wanted to let you know that old seasons of the show are now running on the STYLE channel several times a day. I know we've seen them all before but I have watched a couple and forgot what had happened (except the actual winner) so it was nice to be inspired again.
I do know that if I was on the show they would boot my butt off of there! Why is it that my brain knows what needs to be done, but my body wont listen?!?
Help! I've fallen in a pile of fat and I cant get up!!! - Shelly
Get your butt off the couch!
Thats a kick in the pants for me, not anyone who is reading! I need to get myself back in the game and on the program! I just read oh2bfit's blog and she has lost 40 pounds in three months! Going low carb! I am so envious! I know I have only myself to blame. I have ate way to much sugar and exercised way to little! No way to lose doing that! And besides that, I feel like poo! My body is sluggish and my cravings are at an all time high. The more sugar I eat, the more I crave. The solution is very simple, in theroy, so why cant I just do it?!?
STOP EATING SUGAR! STOP EATING PROCESSED FOODS! AND GET YOUR BLANKETY BLANK BUTT OFF THE COUCH!
Please feel free to kick my hiney. I deserve it! - Shelly
I am so sorry I have been out of touch this week! I've had an off work schedule this week and been unable to log much computer time. This week I have not lost or gained, just stayed the same. Surprising since I havent been able to exercise much either.
I really have not been able to shake the cravings. I still want sweets and pizza and cheeseburgers and everything else not so good for you! I've had a hard time getting back on course and staying there. My jeans are to tight and my resolve to weak.
Someone gave me a bootleg copy of the biggest loser workout dvd. So I am going to try that out and see if it helps me get back into the exericse mood. As far as the eating is concerned.....any suggestions would be very helpful!
Have a great weekend! - Shelly