Okay so at work today hezzy07 and I were talking about weight loss, and how we can't relate to someone who has never had a weight issue in their entire life and now that they have turned a certain age they have a couple of extra pounds (maybe 10 to 15lbs) They come in bitching and complaining about how "fat" they are and how they need to lose weight. So the next thing we know they have joined whatever weight loss program (hey all the power to them) They then start to moan that they lost 5lbs and than gained .4 and then lost a pound. and how they just want to lose every week. Well ladies and gents I kind of snapped at her and told her that she was a diet virgin and welcome to the world of dieting!!
I just hate when people who have never had a weight issue in their lives think that by eating a salad someone should be able to lose weight!!! hello if it were that frickin easy I'd be skinny!! They don't seem to understand that it's not the food that is the issue it's US!!! It's all of our issues that cause weight problems. It's over eating, it's bad choices, binge eating, emotional eating, stress eating, comfort eating. All of these things have one thing in common. there is an under lying issue that leads us to do these things.
We have to figure out what the heck is going on inside of our heads before we can lose the weight and KEEP IT OFF. I don't know why I do half the things that I do, but you know what I'm learning...thats right I'm learning about me and what sets me off to the fridge when I am upset or angry or whatever. I'm learning how not to turn to food for comfort.
This is the most difficult thing that I have ever done and I need to stop trying to be perfect. I didn't just start walking without falling on my a$$ so what makes me think that I will do this without a few falls along the way?? One day, One challenge at a time. I am going to be MY ideal weight.
Okay so I am joining a few others on the 30 minutes a day challenge. Tonight I did 30 minutes of pilates...did I want to...Hell no....did I do it....hell ya!! I just really haven't been in the mood for exercise (gee do you think that could be the reason I'm FAT!!) I'm never in the mood for it!! Even as a child I was never very sports minded. I guess thats going to change.....RIGHT!!! I have to keep forcing myself in hopes that one day I'll enjoy doing it. I'm thinking that when the weather gets nice I'll try rollerblading.
As for food I didn't really eat anything during the day, I know bad but I wasn't hungry. So I'm pretty sure I'm under my calories for today. Yesterday I went to the movies with my mom. We went and saw the Queen, really good movie if you get the chance to see it. I was proud of myself because I didn't have anything no popcorn no pop Yay for me!!
Well folks thats about it for me, not much else to report. So I hope everyone has had a great day, and Keep thinking skinny thoughts!!
Well I have been on my new lifestyle for 2 months and heading into the 3rd. I'm pleased that I have lost weight however I feel like feb was a wasted month. I din't gain but I didn't lose either. I know that I need to focus more and stop slacking off.
I hardly did any exercise (bad, bad I know) I haven't kept a journal of my food intake (really bad!!) So new month and I'm recommiting to this (again arrrggg) I hate that I'm always saying "okay back on program" But on the positive side I'm still doing this. Usually by now I have fallen hard off the wagon and I don't get back on for at least 6 months to a year.
So with all of that being said I AM BACK ON PROGRAM!!!! I am here to stay. I refuse to quit, give up or lose my drive to a healthier lifestyle. I am practicing PMA (possitive mental attitude)
March goals:
1) EXERCISE!!!! I will go back to my original goal of 3 times a week at least.
2) journal all of my food. Thats right ladies and gents I will be writting down everything that touches my lips the good the bad and of coarse the UGLY!!
3) Stay and I mean STAY within my calories!! no more cheating here and there thinking "oh it won't hurt" enough of that sh#t
4) I am going to stop lying to myself (this is a work in progress) I hate lying so wtf do I do it to myself?????
5) Blog more (because it helps to get all this sh*t out)
6) Water (enough said)
7) Think skinny thoughs :)
Alright enough with the list it's time for a change yet again. Lets do this!!!
Hope everyone has a great day and remember life is what happens when we are making other plans!! Happy weight loss everyone.
I guess my motivation decided to come home to me (see last post) It must have heard me crying for it or should I say screaming for it to come back
Today is another day and a better one at that. After work I went out for dinner with a friend and before we went we checked a calorie book and figured out what we were going to order. I have to say that sure makes eating out alot easier! Back on program for this girl!! I know I can do this.... I know we all can do this!!!
I also just wanted to thank everyone for reading and posting to my blog you are all so amazing!! total strangers offering support to someone that they don't even know!!!
I seem to have misplaced my motivation somewhere.....either that or it ran away!!! I miss it dearly and will pay a reward to anyone who finds it and returns it to me. Now please be warned when approaching my motivation do so very slowly as it can be scared off very easily.
The last time it left I found it hiding in the freezer with the icecream. I have looked in it's usual hiding spots but darn it I can't find it anywhere. Please help me locate my motivation!!
Not much to post about today. I have stayed within my calorie range today (ya for me!!) didn't quite get all of my water in today but I'm close and I still have a little time before I go to bed soooo there is still a chance.
Right now I am so thankful that for at least a few days I have done well and not binged! I celebrate the little victorys because I know this is a long hard road that I am traveling.
Well thank goodness today went better than yesterday. I drank all of my water and ate within my calorie range woo hoo!!! ya for me lol
It's funny how your mindset can change over time. I was so mad at myself for over eating yesterday, but than I counted my calories last night before I went to bed and guess what I only ate about 2200 calories....now that is over my intake for the day but considering how I used to be able to eat that in less than 30 minutes I'm going to look at the positive...this time it took me a WHOLE day lol.
So I haven't done any exercising today it was one of those days that any exuse not too was going to work. Oh well lets hope that tomorrow I can win out over my evil twin that is out to sabotage me!!
I hope that everyone has a great day tomorrow and my we all have skinny thoughts and actions.
Okay I just don't understand ME!! I WANT to lose weight and I WANT a healthy lifestyle. So WTF is my problem. One minute I'm all about being on program and next I can't stop eatting!! I just agreed to a challenge with Am I Skinny Yet yesterday and today I'm already sabotaging myself. I need help!!
So I did a little search here on EP and found a post about emotional eatting by maryhelpu. I am going to try a few of the things that are recommened. So here is yet another list of things that I plan on doing lol
1) I will no longer "munch" while on the computer
2) When the urge to eat when I'm NOT hungry I will post a blog (so be prepared that there might be quite a few blogs from me lol)
3) I will NOT PURCHASE ANY BAD FOOD!!!
4) I am going to try and figure out what emotionally triggers me to eat---- this one is going to be a hard one!! it's will be a work in progress and I'll blog about it lol
5) I MUST keep busy!!! I think boredom plays a part I think
Okay so I hope this will help me, IF not I might need to be committed to a phsyic hospital.....because I about had it with me and my self sabotaging behavior!!
Please grant me the strength to stay the HELL out of the kitchen!!!
Okay I've accepted my first challenge. "am I skinny yet" and I are going to try and lose 26.4lbs or more in 15wks!!! I'm thinking this might be just what I need to kick my a$$ into gear. I know that I have been slipping alot this month so I'm back OP. So with that being said I need to figure out WHAT I'm going to do.
1) Water and lots of it!
2) Exercise....and LOTS of that! lol
3) Fruits and veggies (I have a heck of a time getting these in)
4) Stay within my calorie range no matter what!!
5) I'm going to journal everything that touches my lips. I know that this is something that is very important to weightloss. It will also keep me honest with myself. (see last post)
The word accountability sounds harsh and you know what it needs to be. I was thinking about this while on the treadmil tonight. The only person that I have to be accountable to is ME no one else, and yet I am the one person that I lie to the most. Starting today, right this second no more lies.
Now with that said I have been OP this week I'm getting my water in and making good food choices. I'm still not getting all my fruits and veggies in but I'm trying!! I'm looking at this journey to weightloss so differently sometimes I slip but I refuse to give up. I'm not going to quit this time, I want this too bad to let a minor bad choice ruin it. Today and everyday for the rest of my life I am a fighter not a quitter. The weight is not going to win....a healthy lifestyle is!
it was one of those days that any exuse not too was going to work. Oh well lets hope that tomorrow I can win out over my evil twin that is out to sabotage me!!