back at it!
back at it again! ... hope this won't be like this all my life! :-(
ok , well my 1 week off turnt in to 2 and a bit lol ...
tried to get back in the right mind set for about 3 days now ... but have decided 2 day is the day for getting back on track ... i think i have gained about 3-4 lb ... so i better sort it NOW!!!
43 days on CS ... 2lb lost :-)
another 2lb off today :-) ... SOOOO VERY HAPPY about that coz its taken me in to the 14's ... 14st13lb ... plus im not feeling very well so really happy about it x
day 36 CS ... weigh in day 4lb lost :-)
so i know i haven't been a cheerful blogger , infact i haven't blogged as much as i would like to have but anyway ... on day 36 of Celebrity Slim and i have lost another 4lb :-) ... this im really happy with OBVIOUSLY LOL ... still 2st10lb to go :-)
I do fancy a big english brekkie right about now lol , but i won't :-P ... we have planned to have the easter week off our diet (but still be sensible) as we are going to visit family 300 miles away from us who we hardly ever get to see so we are going to enjoy the company, food and drink with them ... but i know we will be sensible, i am going to take a few shakes and snack bars with us.
yay to my 4lb again :-P
pigged out ... oops :-/
so as i have swapped my main meal for my lunch instead of my dinner , i have just stood in the kitchen whilst waiting for my food to cook and eaten 3 packets of crisps and 2 coconut atkins bars ... grrrrrrrr why did i do that ... i didn't bother eating the cooked food in the end ... i lost control and didn't even breath, seriously i stuffed my face
anyway , now im feeling cr@ppy about it ...
i feel a little better than i did yesterday, i decided to get the treadmill going , only did 10mins as it killed me but will keep that up now ive started ... hopefully increase that time amount next week ...
I have also swapped my Dinner for Lunch ... this means that i will have a shake, soup or meal replacement bar tonight for dinner instead as this will give the body a trick and hopefully kick start a bigger weight loss again ... as i only lost 1lb this week ... and altho that its still a loss i just felt disapointed as i feel this diet is quite an extreme and i could lose this low amount on Weight Watchers , but i also know this is a common thing with CS dieters ... so treadmill and swapped dinner for lunch ...
hopefully it won't feel to bad come this evening when im feeding my children and i don't have my dinner either ...
must keep drinking 2lts of water!!!
felt well sad / down in the dumps today
... went to town with my daughters to see if i could find some trousers ... i wear leggings every single day and i just thought maybe i could find something that fitted me and as im 6ft something that was long enough , well blow me down the only shop that i knew stocked tall range of clothing in my town are no longer selling it in the store ... i have not been to town for a long time , the last time i went was christmas and that was to buy other people presents... i tried on a few pairs of standard length trousers to kinda get a feel for what size i am , (i don't really know what clothing size i am) , i tried on 18, 20 and 22 , ... size 20-22 feels baggy on me but 18's feel to tight round my hip area ...
im so sad that i am this size , and that i feel uncomfortable like this ... i have no interest in clothing what so ever, like i said i wear leggings every single day and tops that my mum gave me from when she was big , but even they are to small ... i don't want to soumd so negative but i really do feel awful and need to express myself somewhere as i don't want to upset my partner and children by crying in front of them
i really don't want to give up on this diet but i feel so sh*t that i have let myself get like this and that i have to now work really hard to get rid of it
im sooooo tired :-(
picking at food grrrr
gosh ive just made my children roast potato's , and i HAD to have a little nibble , i just had to , only a ickle tiny weeny bit but enough to make me feel crazy guilty! ... i have obviously cooked for my children these past 4 weeks as always but these potato's just smelt sooooo good lol ... oops, nevermind
day 27 celebrity slim
really don't know what to blog about ... still sticking to the diet , trying to drink more water ... ive been pretty good , i did have an extra snack yesterday , not coz i was hungry but just fancied something ... so i had an atkins bar (coconut) yum ... running out of ideas to make dinner interesting :-( ... think ill look online in a bit ... xxx
day 26 Celebrity Slim
have been trying the meal replacement bars , biggest loser bars ... im not so keen on them but they are easy to just grab , i have a few of them so will use them lol