Week 1 Done!

Well..I weighed in today and lost 1.8!! I am very happy with that!  I really watched what I ate.  I went out for lunch and had the waiter pack 1/2 my plate away immediatly so I am having it today for lunch.

This weekend will be a challenge but I know I will make it thru!

Day 2 back...

Last night went well.  My only slip up was having 3 Mikes hard lemonade's when I went over to visit my MIL.  She kept opening them and putting it in front of me. And stupid me, I kept drinking them blindly.  So there go 12 WP for alcohol.  But I was VERY good at dinner. I had 4oz of steak, 2 grilled shrimp, and veges sauted in olive oil.  ALL CORE!  My only non-core for the day yesterday was the booze. 

I forgot to pack lunch today but I will run and get a salad and vege soup from Panera.

This weekend, my goal is to get to the gym ONCE. I think that is an achievable goal.

I went back to my meeting today

I went back to my WW meeting today. And I feel really glad I did.  Because of it , I made better choices for breakfast AND lunch today.  Instead of getting a bagel (like I wanted), I made myself a smoothie at home that was all core.  At lunch, I had a salad with FF dressing instead of a burger.

With the holiday's coming up, this will be a VERY hard 5 weeks but I know I can get thru it!

This is becoming a habit....

I gain...I lose...I gain...I lose.   Why can't I stop this!  Why do I keep sabotoging my efforts! 

Is it because I like being fat? No way! 

Is it because I like my vodka too much. Yes. 

Is it because I make excuses not to exercise? Yes

Is it because I constantly make bad food choices? Yes

Ok..I know what I am doing wrong. Why can't I seem to stick to it! I do so well for 3 weeks then slowly fall off the wagon until I gain it all back.  Then I go back and start all over again.  Why can't I stick to it? I am worth it. I know what to do.  I enjoy exercising. But why or why do I keep messing it all up!

So once again..I am going back to WW. At least this time I have signed up for monthly pass and wasted $40 by not going all of November (in which time I managed to gain all 10 pounds back that it took me 3 months to lose) but since I have the monthly pass already paid for..I have no excuse not to just go back and start fresh.  I know if I don't, I will gain another 10-15 pounds during the holidays and I am down to only 3 pairs of pants that fit me now. What will happen if I add 10 more on.

Ok... So tomorrow I go weigh in.  I am going with a friend from work. I am hoping having someone going thru it with me will help me be successfull.

So November 29th is Day One (again)!

Back on the Wagon!

Well, where do I start. It has been 8 months since I have entered anything here. I gained back almost all of my weight.

I have to get back on eating properly.  I am out of commission regarding my exercise for the next 3-4 months so I have to be super careful about every single bite I take.  That really stinks! At  least before I could enjoy some splurges becasue I could work it off now, not a chance.

Let's see, what went wrong in the last 8 months. Well, I stopped weighing in and started just eating what I wanted.  I didn't go nuts but I just wasn't careful.   A bagel with cream cheese here and a 2 slices of pizza there just catapolted me into 20 pounds going back on.  I also stopped working out religously 6 days a week.  I was lucky if I was there 3 times a week. Rob got a new job and it was just a new excuse for me not to wake up at 4am and go.  Even though he has to be out of the house by 6am, I could go to the gym and be back in time for him to go to work.  But, I didn't. I let that get in my way.

I really need to get back into the right mind set.  My jeans are too tight. Thank goodness I got rid of all my 16's and have to squeeze my fat into my 14's.  So I look like a muffin in all my clothing. That should be motivation right?

ok..enough whining...time to get back into the groove!!

Weigh in day!

Ok..today was WI day.  I lost 0.6 pounds.  Yeah yeah..a loss is great..but I gained 1 pound last week! I exercised my ass off! WTF!  So...I chug on! At this rate I will be at goal..hmm..lets see...2008! LOL!

I am going to do Core this week too.  Hopefully next week will be a good week.  I really need to get some more Core snacks in the house. That is what  is killing me. I am starving at 4pm and I usually eat dinner with Rob when I get home from the gym at 8:30pm.  I will stop off at the store on the way home from work and pick some stuff up.

I am escaping work for a bit today to visit Peter at preschool for his last day before summer.  Maybe I will brave asking someone to take a picture of me with Peter without me hiding behind him.

A new beginning

Ok...where do I start.  I have been doing WW for the 3rd time now.  I signed up Feb. 7th of this year.  I am truely motivated this time to make it to goal. I know it will take a while and I will have some stumbles but this time I am more mentally prepared for it.

When did it hit me that I really have to lose weight?  It hit me like a ton of bricks when I grabbed Rob's jeans by accident and I couldn't get them past my knees.  I said..that is it!

The very next day I went to Planet Fitness and joined and also returned to WW.   It is pretty embarrassing having your husband weigh ALOT less than you.  I really don't want to be the fat frumpy wife. 

So..I am not down almost 20 pounds and I am motivated to keep going.  If I can get to the gym and walk at lunch I am fine.  My eating I have a hard time staying really good all the time.  But..I am doing my best.