Back to work

tomorrow

I had all of last week off and it was lovely. I didn't really do much, just chilled out. It was lovely to be able to get up when I wanted and go to bed real late, but now it's all back to normal! At least while I'm at work I find it easier to be healthy and weather permitting I will walk into town every morning to catch the bus, it's about a 20 minute walk and it makes me stay healthy cuz the walk would have been a waste of time if I just mess up by eating chocolate!

The night time is the worst for me cuz I get so bored just sitting around watching TV that I end up just eating crap! Not that I should be bored, I have a gym membership (which I haven't used since November), about 7 exercise dvd's, an exercise bike and a stepper, I just can't be bothered! Maybe when I've lost a bit of weight it will give me more incentive~hopefully

It's my birthday :)

OMG, I can't believe that I'm 31!!!!!!!

As it is my birthday I have allowed myself to eat what I like, so I started off with a fry up in the local cafe. Then for dinner we went into Macdonalds (we were going to the cinema and it's just next door so it would have been rude not to!), I had a McChicken sandwich meal and strawberry milkshake. I also had a slush puppie and a huge bag of maltesers whilst watching the film.

Needless to say, I feel terrible We were supposed to be going out for a meal and a drink tonight but I really don't feel like it, as I can't be too far away from the loo (too much information?) 

I think next time I get the urge to binge I will remember how I feel right now and hopefully that will stop it, lol. 

Feeling good :)

Well we went out for dinner today and I am very pleased with myself cuz I chose the healthy option and I also skipped dessert :) We also walked it to the pub so that was 30 mins exercise.

I weighed myself in Boots today and it says I am 4lbs lighter than my at home scales. I think I will stick to Boots cuz it gives you all the BMI and body fat readings aswell. I was hoping to sneak onto the scales without anyone in the shop noticing, but the scales decided to talk and tell me what to do, I felt really embarassed and was adamant that everyone was staring at me although OH promised me no one was!

Feeling really positive about losing weight this time around, I think it's cuz I''m doing it by myself and I haven't got the pressure of someone else weighing me in. Also, Jamie (my OH) is joining me this time so it helps that he's not gonna be eating kebabs and pizzas while I'm chewing a lettuce leaf :)

A new start

This is the last time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am sick of going on diets, losing weight and then gaining it all back plus a few more pounds. Last year I lost 3st, but I have put it all back on plus an extra 6lbs. Why do I do it to myself???

I went shopping today for some new clothes for my birthday, I ended up sitting in the changing room in tears. I am a complete and utter mess and I can't belive I have let myself get into this state.

I've tried loads of diets and been to slimming clubs, some have worked, some haven't. This time I'm doing it alone. I'm gonna start off by just cutting out some of the crap I eat and see how it goes. 

 xx