It's been over a year and I've gained 21lbs back, why? Stress.  Stress at work, stress at home, stress every freakin day.  I need to take control back and drop anyone who gives me unnecessary stress. 

 

Dear Co-workers, I will no longer fulfill your last minute request and miss important events or dinner with my family while you go home on time and enjoy yours.  I will no longer do the work you failed to do in order to keep the work place functioning, you will now take responsibility for failing to do your job.  Yes, my new motto is "if you stand in the middle of the street and don't move when you see the bus then you deserve to be under the bus."

 

Dear Husband, You will learn how to cook or starve to death.  I am no longer cleaning the house by myself because I do not live alone.  I will no longer listen to you complain about your job when you do not listen to me.  Also, when you watch sports, news etc. I never interrupt you.  So to solve your rudeness issue I have purchased a pair of noise cancelling Bose headphones.  When they are on and plugged into the PC, I am off limits and do not read lips.

 

Dear Children, The mom ATM machine is officially closed.  No more free money.  No chores=No money.  Additionally, If you walk past your father and ask me something you could have asked him you will be directed back to him.  Lastly, Unless one of you is bleeding, dying or the house is on fire do not interrupt me I in the restroom.

 

Dear Friends, I can no longer support you when you make dumb decisions about your life.  If you do not want to know the truth then do not ask.  Also, please call before you come over; stop just showing the freak up when you want to.

                                                                                 Sincerely,

                                                                 Mrs. Lopez, Honey, Mommy and Chica

 

 

I finally saw the scale move today, 3lbs....I'm so happy!!  It's been forever since it moved.  I'm re-motivated and I can't wait to get to the gym.

 

I'm trying to increase my protein without taking supplements.  Me and the peanut butter have become BFFs...lol

Today when I was working out I felt drained.  The whole time I was running I had to make myself keep going.  I just didn't want to do it.  Not sure if I was actually tired, lazy or bored.  I noticed the other people I work with all use some type of supplement or aide such as no explode, nitric, nano vapor, animal etc. I am considering trying something to maintain my energy and help me lose weight. But I'm not liking some of the side effects I'm seeing.  These guys are cranky, gassy and some times to hyped up. I guess I'll add more green tea to my diet instead.

 

Thank you to all the ladies who sent me private messages of encouragement.  You guys are great and I will heed your advice.  I

 

 

Well I have to look at this weight loss as a big picture concept.  The scale hasn't moved in 2 months but I've lost 6 inches.  So that is a definite plus.  I think I may be overdoing the weight training and not putting in enough cardio time.  So for the past week I increased my cardio to 45mins a day and decreased my weight lifting to 30 mins; giving me a total work out time of 1 hr and 15 mins 6 days a week.  I also noticed being here I can't stick to my eating plan because some foods are just not available.  So I've been naughty eating things I really should avoid but I've worked out a plan that I can live with while I'm deployed. 

 

My goal was to lose 20lbs while I was here but I've adjusted that goal to wanting to go from a size 10-12 to and 8.  So pray for me and my co-workers for a safe return and we'll do what we do best in the USAF baby!

Okay, I'm working funky hours, 11 to 11, and I am trying to keep my self on a healthy eating schedule but that's impossible to do when you have people you work with who don't do their share.  I'm going to have to have a come to jesus talk with them. This has got to stop, it's selfish on their part and unhealthy for everyone else. 

 

My work out today was quiet lame I only did the stationery bike for about 30 mins because I was suffering from heat exhaustion.  Tomorrow I will do better and I will work harder.  Tomorrow is my weigh in day and I'm excited about that.  I probably didn't lose a thing but as long as I didn't gain then I'm cool with that too. 

I guess I better learn to breathe and except each day as it comes.  I'm looking forward to my Wed weigh in, I haven't done one in awhile.  I'm trying to imagine myself 30lbs lighter.  That's what keeps me going.

 

My middle daughter is at UGA and she had some type of allergic reaction to something that bit her.  She has no known allergies but she went into analphalatic shock; probably spelled that wrong.  She was treated but then two days later she broke out into a rash and went into shock again. It's nerve racking that I'm stuck in the desert and cant get to her.  So if you read this take a moment and pray for my Angel.  She is a smart, loving, beautiful girl that has alot of God's work to do here.

Seems like I'm at a stand still yet again with my weight.  So frustrating.

Okay, so I've been here for about a week now and it is truly hotter than hell.  I've just started working out two days ago.  Its hard enough getting back into the swing of things but add this heat to it.  You just cant imagine.  Oh, I must say this because it was so totally dumb of me.  I decided to rent a bike, my second day here, and bike too and from work.  Well if I knew where the heck I was going it would have been a 30 min ride but of course I got lost in the Desert for about 45 mins. However,  I finally found my way and in total I spent 120 mins out in 120+ degrees heat, surrounded by white sand, in unfamiliar territory all in the name of weight loss and getting in shape. This is the type of story that you will never live down.  Too my credit I did make it and I biked it all the way.    

Okay, it's been awhile since I posted, like 2 mos, and in that time I've been traveling for business (Vega) and on vacation with my family.  I swear that I have gained and lost the same 5 lbs every other week since.  So I need to get back to my routine and push past the wall.  I'm going away on business for 75 days so I will treat this like a vacation spa package and use to concentrate on me and push past this barrier.  Also, I've posted a current picture so I have something to reference back to ...just to see if I can tell the difference.  God bless, Sara

Something is wrong in my marriage and I don't know what it is or how to fix it.  I know this is not the forum for this but I don't have anywhere else to go with this.  Damn I cant even see to type because Im crying...In the past two years we've had sex less than 5 times.  I think there's someone else.  I'm so mad, I can't believe this.