Had a good day!!!

Went to a friends house and did very well with my eating...was not tempted by the chips and dip or by the desserts...

Kids had a fun day  and so did I!!!!

I'm back for good!!! 67 POUNDS to LOSE!!!!

It's been a long hard year...after losing almost 50lbs last year (from march to august 06) I have basically gained it ALL back again. I am now 182lbs and DISGUSTED with myself. I really cannot take another person askig me "when the baby is due"

I have a slight tear in the back of my knee (since jan of this year) which I have started physical therapy for....I had to freeze my Gym membership and basically not be allowed to walk around for about 3 months, so not to aggravate it. It's Finally starting to feel better  and hopefully I will not have to have surgery...we will see in a few more weeks.

Anyway Today I decieded IT WAS THE DAY To Start A healthier way if life.... 

I feel awful...no energy, and just in a crabby mood all day long...my weight has alot to do with it...so today I started by eating right and not pigging out.  I'm a compulsive BINGE EATER and will be getting help...H

Here are a few of my goals for the next year on my JOURNEY!!!!

My Goals:

1-Come here everyday even if I don't want to....it makes me accountable for what i do during the day...food... exercise..etc.

2- Stop BINGE eating and stick to my plan to lose weight

3- When i am upset come here and vent or read blogs that way i will not eat eat & eat

4- NO JUNK FOOD!! Sunday is my only day to splurge and only if somethig is going on.

5- Try to walk a little bit every day (even if its just around the house I need to keep moving even if my knee is bothersome)

6- BE POSITIVE..

7- Know that I CAN DO IT since i did it last year..I just got to stick with it this time.

8- Reward myself...every 10lbs i lose buy myself something that will make me feel good ...mani/pedi....massage....facial...etc

9- Love myself and know I am doing this to be healthy and strong for my husband and kids.

10-    Be happy I foud this site again and use it to it's full potential

Hugs~

Samantha

Back Again and Need Support

So i gained 12 pounds in a very short time.....I was sick well not really sick but my right hand started to act funny....getting numb and then shooting pain up the back of my arm for about 2 weeks..it has subsided now but i have gained weight b/c of the medicinethe dr put me on....plus i have not been taking my phentermine regulary. So last night i made up my mind to start taking it again...took it today and i feel GREAT....more energy (which i was lacking) and no cravings!!!!! But I need SUPPORT from all of you going through the same thing....I need to know I 'm not alone......I will be back on tomorrow.....

Hugs to you all,

Samantha

Back on track

Well I am getting back on track this week finally!!!! I am down to my lowest weight so far at 152 lbs. My goal for the week is to get into the 140's. I brought some new clothes last week.....size LG tops and size 12 pants (what a difference from those 20/22's I was wearing) I am feeling so much better about myself, and love wearing my new clothes that hug my curves so much better. I just need to get pass the hurdle and get into the 140's and hopefully by new years 2007 reach my Goal of 115lbs.....the way I'm going hopefully I'll get there. I have new photo's to post and will hopefully post them tomorrow....

Hope you are all doing well....

Samantha

Got My Belly Pierced!!!

Last week my family (Husband Mike, Son Mikey-5 (tomorrow), DD Gianna-3 went to Wildwood NJ for some relaxation....the Sunday before we had a HUGE bday party for both kids with  over 60 people in our backyard...It did not rain so I was very very happy. I rented a Margarita Machine for the adults and they LOVED it.....Had lots of crafts for the kids to do but it seemed I had NO time to talk to everyone even though i set everything up the night before...Oh well I guess thats what being a Hostess is. Anyway so we goto to Wildwood on Wed- now wed was my 8th wedding anniversary with my husband..I stayed up all night and put together a photo book of us with ton's of photo's and sayings why i loved him blah blah blah.....He wakes up and says happy anniversary and gives my a kiss....THATS IT....NOTHING ELSE for the 1st time in 8 years I GOT NOTHING!!!!!! not a card not flowers NOTHING!!!!!!! Nothing has been wrong with us everything actually has been great I was so disappointed in him....he said he didnt get me anything b/c everything he buys me i do not like...which is not true~he'snot the best gift giver but hey a card would of been nice.

So wed night i decieded to get my belly pierced since im down almost 35 pounds and it was something I have been scared to do I wanted to do it so I did...it didn't hurt at all except afterwards..now it feels fine and now i want to take belly dancing lessons-lol....I still can't show off my tummy but hopefully soon i will be able too...the kids start school in 3 weeks then i have 3 mornings to myself  to go to the gym and get into the best shape yet. I'm still taking my phentermine and i still love it...only thing that helps me with my appitite. Even though now even when i am not on it i still watch my portions....I am hoping to get into the 140's by mid-sept but I really need to work at it.....

Anyway thats been my life for the pass few weeks I'll be back on daily and will upload new photo's later today....

Hugs to all you "losers" out there

Samantha

It's been so log.......

Well I have not been on in over a month...my weight has gone up and down but I am now at 152 my lowest in 8 years. I have been spending my summer at the pool with the kids and the pass two week getting ready for both of their bday parties (my son turns 5 & my daughter turns 3 all within 2 weeks of one another) So we are having a HUGE bday bash for about 70 people on sunday ...I've been cleaning like crazy and getting my whole house organized I have no time to eat so I make myself have at least something  during the day. I saw my ob/gyn this week and when i got on the scale  i was 152. The last time i saw her in Jan I was 180 when i got pg with both my kids I was 170 and went up t0 185 with both April of this year when i decieded to lose the weight i was 187...she was very happy that i am losing weight and was happy in the condition of my mood which has drastically changed from severly depressed to being happy and content...I will check in more often....

Miss you guys!!!!

Hugs,

Samantha

At the pool all day long...

So I was at the community pool today and invited one of my girlfriends and her childern...our conversation revolved around...How can that woman have 4 kids and LOOK that GOOD???? Me being me said c'mon it's all genetics eitrher that or they don't eat at all....

We exercise watch what we eat and still feel we are NEVER going to be as thin as we once were....I say were not 18 years old we not dancing and drinking and having fun all night and sleeping all day...we are NOW mothers who have  to work extra hard just to keep 5 pounds off.....

I don't know it doesn't bother me at the pool that so many mothers are thin, i live in an area where most mothers do not work and have all day to work out and do lunch while the nanny's watch the kids....i don't have that luxury..but still watch what i eat and try to exercise as much as i can....

Ok done with my rant for the day....Hope you all are having a GREAT day...

HUGS,

Samantha  

I feel HORRIBLE!!!

I have been so sick since the weekend...Sore throat, coughing, sinus, headaches....I have felt like crap for the pass week i have not done anything...watched what i eat or exercised....Plus I got sunburned yesterday while at the pool wating for DS to finish his swim lessons.....AGGGGG one good point for this week is i'm finally working this friday!!!!! I had off all summer because the DR i work for goes to her beachhouse on the weekends Well they opened up this friday for us to work and I'm very excited!!!! I love my job and meeting new patients and explaining how healthy teeth = a healthy life. I'm such a dental hygiene freak-lol but i do LOVE what i do so when i work I am so happy. Next week we will be going down the shore (wildwood) and hopefully atlantic city one day (DH's parents are down for the whole week DH took off wed-fri) Sp that will be nice to frolic in the sun and go on the boardwalk....Anyway hope you are all doing great...I'll try to check in with everyone after i take a nap....

HUGS,

Samantha 

Still the same

I still weigh the same I keep going up and down within 5lbs all during the week right now i am 157- the weight is coming off very slow for me right now but I'm just happy to be in the 150's so I really can't complain....

My little Gianna (almost 3) is sick today...my poor baby has a cold...I hate when they get sick i feel so helpless that i can't make them feel better.... We have 2 birthday parties this weekend one on sunday (just with my DS) and one on sunday (all of us going) - I think with all the bbq's and parties i have been going to that is why i haven't lost anymore and just have been staying within the 155-159 lb range..i only went to the gym once this week (monday) and i hurt my ankles really bad i overdid it on the treadmill they were so sore i could barely walk for 3 days i'm feeling better now so i will go tomorrow morning....

Hope you all have a GREAT weekend it's gonna be beautiful here in NJ- yippie!!!!!

Hugs,

Samantha

where do all the posters go???

I went thru my friends list this morning and decieded to delete anyone who has not written in over 2 months, this was like half of my list....So I ask all you bloggers/posters out there....where do these people go???? Do you check your lists and see that someone you posted to alot does not post anymore? I write at least 2-6x a week and love the blog feature of this site so IF i'm on YOUR friends list i promise NOT to disappear into nowhere land and keep on posting till i hit goal and after too!!!!

Hope you all have a GREAT day!!!!!

Hugs,

Samantha