Irony

142.4 this morning--the least I've weighed in I don't know how long. The ironic thing is that I'm not enjoying it at all. It's funny. For the last few years, all I've wanted is to lose my appetite. Just think how much easier this will all be, I'd tell myself, if you simply weren't hungry.

Well, now I'm not hungry. At all. I don't want solid food in my mouth. I refuse to eat anything I have to chew. It's weird--I feel so disconnected from my body. I know it's all related to the surgery (which is this Friday) and that it will pass as I heal and move on with life. But for now, losing weight is truly the lowest priority in my life, and I feel sort of... numb.

Yikes. I'm depressing myself. OK--I need to find something positive to say...

Here we go, I've realized how truly wonderful and amazing my fiance is, and what incredible friends I have. I'm so blessed to have such kind people in my life!

Hope your week is off to a great start,
Jen

Support

from friends and family is the most important thing for you. It's great that your fiance and friends are right there with you. You may want to consider seeing a psychologist for help with all the emotional issues tied up with a major surgery. Good luck, and don't worry about the weight loss one way or the other. It's not an important issue for you right now. Good luck today.

It's ok

It's ok to be depressed sometimes.  It's only normal.  The important thing is that you don't lose sight of the things you mentioned, like your great support network. 

HUGS,
Lindy

Support

With what you're going through right now, it's so important to have a strong and loving support network.  Rely on them.  Lean on them.  They love you and are there for you.  We are too!

Hugs

I'm so sorry.  I think it's normal to feel down under these circumstances.  And I agree with the above posts.  Lean on friends and family.  They mean it when they say they are there for you.